Chapter 41
As time flies, everything will change, but the heart that loves you will not change. In fact, mourning was not because he did not get it, but why he did not persist for a while longer. I remember telling you before that I wanted to thank you for making me fall in love with you. For this, my heart could finally settle down. Now that he had no home to return to, his heart had been floating.
If there was fate, no matter how far they went, they could return to the starting point. If not, they would only go further and further away. He didn't know when he would suddenly forget everything or lose his memory. It turned out that nothing had happened. Sometimes, when I can't sleep at night, I always think of you. Later, I can always see you in my dreams. At least it's your shadow, Yi Meng. Looking at Leo's personality, the little lion you are, after all, so worrying. Who will untie your knot and accompany you for a lifetime?
There were a few times when I watched you quietly. You wouldn't know this. I haven't decided when. Next time! You will know, Yi Meng.
Xiao Lin to Yuan Yimeng
Once again, Xiao Lin stood at the entrance of Bai Bingying's dormitory, waiting for her. It had been two years, but the scenery inside and outside the sect didn't seem to have changed much. Everything was still so familiar to Xiao Lin.
Xiao Lin thought back and felt hopeful. This was the first time he had felt so uneasy, waiting for Bai Bingying to appear. He didn't treat her to a meal just to thank her for sending him the money on the night Senior Chu Yuheng was injured. Time didn't change the environment much, but Xiao Lin couldn't go back to the feeling he had when he was a freshman.
Xiao Lin picked up his phone for the second time and looked at the time. He was not very anxious. In fact, he was very calm. It was just that he was bored. Xiao Lin looked at the boys in sportswear running on the football field through the iron net surrounding the storm field. From time to time, he would shout and try his best to share their enthusiasm and happiness with the audience.
The basketball court was still full of people, jumping and shooting. Everyone had their own life trajectory. Small worlds were independent of each other, but for various reasons, they intersected with each other.
Xiao Linren's gaze lingered aimlessly, as if the passion of football and basketball didn't affect him. His eyes were filled with all kinds of strange illusions, but he didn't care. He was just immersed in his own thoughts. He blankly allowed the two thoughts in his mind to spread out. One was about feelings, and the other was about his future. It seemed that both thoughts became uncertain in the face of reality.
Xiao Lin had always felt that he hadn't handled his relationship well. He felt sorry for his sincerity towards Yuan Yimeng and for Bai Bingying's many attempts to persuade him to stay. He realized that he was not responsible for either of them. When it came to relationship problems, he was always too emotional and hesitant.
If he was given a choice now, a choice to start over, it would be between Yuan Yimeng and Bai Bingying. One was a future filled with the unknown and imagination. Although there were many uncertainties, it was so charming and tempting. The other was so close to him that he might only need a turn or a hug. However, there were too many happiness and unhappiness, luck and misfortune sealed away. Even he himself was questioning whether he could go back.
As for his own future, he said that he would stick to his dreams and vowed that he would never be defeated by reality. However, he had long decided to write a book and had yet to start. Xiao Lin didn't know what he was worried about or afraid of. Was he worried that he wouldn't be able to hold on one day? Was he afraid of seeing the disappointed expression on Father Xiao's face? Xiao Lin was so irresponsible to him.
"Hey, what are you thinking about? I've been standing behind you for a few minutes, and you didn't even notice.”Xiao Lin's chaotic thoughts were interrupted by Bai Bingying behind him.
Xiao Lin turned around and saw Bai Bingying wearing a pure white Metersbonwe sweater that he had bought for her as a birthday present.
"I'm watching them play." Xiao Lin smiled and walked side by side with Bai Bingying. He didn't take the bag from her hand, which made him seem a little reserved and uncomfortable.
"What about that senior? Are you feeling better?" Bai Bingying turned to look at Xiao Lin.
"The day before yesterday afternoon, Wenhao and Ruixu accompanied me to visit his dormitory. The senior said that he felt that he was recovering well and that it was not as painful as it was at the beginning.”Xiao Lin looked straight ahead and replied.
"Are you going to accompany him to the hospital for a follow-up next time?”Bai Bingying asked with concern.
"Definitely." Xiao Lin said briefly. The two of them fell into silence, but there was no awkwardness. Just like in the past, even though the two of them did not hold hands this time, Xiao Lin still walked on her left side. When crossing the road, he would still side to protect her.
Xiao Lin brought Bai Bingying to Wallace on the first floor of Changsheng Garden. The two of them found a table by the glass window and sat down. At this moment, there were not many Wallace people, so it was more spacious and bright.
"What do you want to eat? I'll go to the bar to order." Xiao Lin said to Bai Bingying, who was sitting opposite him.
"Order whatever you want. I can't eat too much. I'm a little full from lunch.”
When Xiao Lin stood up and was about to go to the bar counter, Bai Bingying stood up as well. She handed her bag to Xiao Lin and went to the bathroom. Xiao Lin took her bag.
Xiao Lin ordered two servings of fries, a glass of milk, a glass of coke, two burgers, and a fried chicken. He sat back down, but Bai Bingying was still not back yet. Xiao Lin took out the money that Bai Bingying had given him last time from his wallet. He wanted to return it to her directly, but he was afraid that Bai Bingying would push him away. He might as well put it in her bag and tell her when he got back.
Xiao Lin opened his bag and saw a decorative teddy bear lying there. Xiao Lin looked familiar. He remembered that there was another one in his bookshelf, but he didn't know if he had thrown it away later.
She remembered that when she broke up with Bai Bingying, she had said angrily that she would throw away all the things Xiao Lin had given her and delete all the photos of the two of them together. Xiao Lin was very sad when he heard that. He took it seriously, so he didn't know if the little bear in the bookcase was still there.
Xiao Lin smiled bitterly and shook his head. He put the bear back and stuffed the money into a corner of his bag. Bai Bingying pushed open the glass door and walked in with a happy expression.
As soon as he sat down, he excitedly said to Xiao Lin,"I was outside just now and received a call from Dad. He said that during the May Day holiday, he wanted to come to Nanchang with his mother to see me and visit some scenic spots in Jiangxi. I pretended to be unhappy and said that Dad just wanted to go on a trip and wanted to see his daughter. His father swore that he would definitely miss his daughter the most in his heart.”
Ever since Xiao Lin had gotten together with her, Bai Bingying had been calling him " Dad, Mom " and introducing him to her mother. Xiao Lin would send her parents a message of blessings and greetings whenever there was a traditional festival. Therefore, Bai Bingying's parents had a good impression of Xiao Lin.
"Uncle, Auntie is coming over. That's great. We can travel around.”Xiao Lin knew that because Bai Bingying was an only child, her parents loved her very much.
" When the time comes, can you have a meal with Dad and Mom?" Bai Bingying hesitated for a moment.”
"I don't know if I'll be in Jiangxi on May Day. I might go to Yunnan.”Xiao Lin was worried that Bai Bingying hadn't told her parents about their breakup. If they ate together, they definitely wouldn't be able to explain clearly. It was better to avoid them from misunderstanding.
"Oh." Bai Bingying quickly took the plate from the waiter to hide her disappointment.
"Thank you." Xiao Lin reached out and helped to get the cups of milk and coke.
Xiao Lin opened the milk and placed it in front of Bai Bingying." Bingying, thank you for rushing over that night."”
Bai Bingying held the milk carton with both hands and said to Xiao Lin,""Because I knew that if I called you, you would definitely come.”
Xiao Lin was touched by her words. He really wanted to thank Bai Bingying for her trust in him. Even though he was not sure if he would be like her in the current situation.
Xiao Lin slapped her hard in his heart. Why did he drag her into this? He gave her hope, but he couldn't give her a future. Because he knew that it was impossible for his heart to hold two people at the same time. Could it be that he was playing a prank on himself and letting both of them down?
"Thank you. I don't know what else to say.”Xiao Lin was a little choked up.
After eating in Wallace, Xiao Lin agreed to accompany Bai Bingying for a walk on campus. At this time, the sky had already darkened. Xiao Lin tried his best to keep a step away from Bai Bingying, afraid that he would lose control and do something to hurt her.
On the way back, Xiao Lin and Bai Bingying were walking in the dark. Xiao Lin saw Yuan Yimeng and Liu Meiqi running under the streetlights. He didn't have the courage to go up and greet Yuan Yimeng. He was also afraid that Yuan Yimeng would see him walking with Bai Bingying. Xiao Lin had told her everything about Bai Bingying, but they didn't know each other.
Xiao Lin stopped, his gaze following Yuan Yimeng's figure that was getting further and further away. Bai Bingying asked Xiao Lin what was wrong. Xiao Lin explained that he thought he saw a friend he knew, but he realized that he was mistaken. Bai Bingying didn't continue asking. Xiao Lin brought Bai Bingying in the opposite direction from Yuan Yimeng to the dormitory.
After sending Bai Bingying back to her dorm, Xiao Lin immediately sent her a message. "Bingying, thank you for treating me so well, but I feel guilty because I don't deserve it. Please forgive me for not being able to accompany you forever. But I hope we can still be friends. I won't let you down if you need anything. Also, I put the money in your bag. Thank you again.”
In the end, Xiao Lin would rather choose an uncertain future filled with all kinds of challenges and risks. It wasn't a past that couldn't be returned, a past that had some beautiful memories and scars left behind.
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