No one could understand Lumi's inner feelings now. The shock he felt when he first woke up slowly calmed down, but he was still excited.
His mother had already lit the stove and was preparing breakfast.
As a mother, she was undoubtedly qualified. I'm just a housewife. I've never been late for a meal.
That was indeed the case when it came to taking care of his family. Even though Lumi had complained countless times that her parents had not given her any help in her studies.
In his previous life, Lumi had complained to his mother every time he encountered difficulties. I can't keep up, but I want to make up for it. Why don't you agree? Why didn't you help me?
Lumi blamed his incompetence and frustration on not being able to get into high school, so he did not go to college. He put all the blame on his mother.
The mother and daughter had quarreled more than once and blamed themselves for hurting her. But at that time, hatred was hatred. It was because of Lumi's unhappy life and his inability to change his mediocrity.
The Lumi of his previous life did not understand.
In this life, he suddenly understood.
Lumi took out two cornbread buns from the dog food bag, broke them into pieces, and mixed them with hot water into the leftover soup from the night before for the dog to eat.
She wrapped herself in her father's old coat and pushed open the door. A bone-piercing cold wind blew against her face.
In his previous life, Lumi had gone to the central city to settle down after returning from abroad. It had been many years since he had felt the cold of the northern winter.
Lumi took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. After getting used to it, she walked towards the doghouse.
The dog was still the same dog. Lumi had named it Saihu.
Saihu heard the sound of the door opening and jumped up and down excitedly.
"Saihu, sit down!" Lumi shouted.”
Saihu was a pure German black, its four claws gradually turned yellow, its body was completely black, the middle of its lower abdomen was pure white, and there were two golden spots on its brow bone. Its ears were straight, looking quite imposing, and it was very human.
Hearing Lumi's shout, he immediately sat up straight and stopped jumping.
Lumi placed the bowl in front of Saihu, rubbed its head affectionately, and said,"Eat!"
Gou 'zi cried out excitedly and buried his head in the food bowl.
"My Saihu, we meet again!" Lumi couldn't help but sigh.
Because of the relocation of the old house in 2000, his father was reluctant to sell Saihu and gave it to his third uncle, who was still living in the bungalow. Unexpectedly, he was soon killed by his third uncle's family and eaten dog meat.
Because of this, his father resented his third uncle, saying that he was not particular and had personally promised to take good care of it. Lumi had also secretly cursed the cruelty of his third uncle's family.
Fortunately, there was still time for everything in this life!
Rumi came back to himself, realized that his feet seemed to be frozen, and hurried into the house.
"Why is it taking so long to feed a dog?" Her mother grumbled impatiently.
Lumi smiled and didn't reply.
The mother glanced at her daughter in surprise and could not help but mutter in her heart, He was sensible now and didn't talk back!
"When is Daddy coming back for dinner?”asked Lumi.
His mother gave him a strange look again." Hurry up and eat your food. After you're done, go and revise. After New Year's Day, the final exams are in two days!”
Rumi really wanted to hug her mother, but she was a family that had never been close to each other. It was better not to. She did not want to scare her.
However, he couldn't help but rejoice in his heart,'Fortunately, you're still young. Fortunately, your thyreoid nodes and ovaries are still far away from you!'
Lumi clearly remembered that her mother's health deteriorated after she was fifty years old. She often suffered from high blood pressure. Later, during the physical examination, she found an ovaries. In just half a year, it grew from one centimeter in diameter to seven centimeters. In the end, because of the blood flow, she had to undergo a single salpingectomy.
When he was almost sixty years old, he was diagnosed with a gallbladder. Fortunately, when Lumi left, there were no adverse changes. Throat, frozen shoulder, heel pain, minor pains and ailments. Suffering from torture.
She couldn't help but turn around to look for her mother's busy figure. With me in this life, there's still time for everything.
After breakfast, Lumi went to the kitchen to wash the dishes. This caused his mother to look at him in surprise again. Did this child change her personality?
Lumi pretended to be natural, ignoring his mother's suspicious gaze.
In her previous life, Lumi was also a lazy person before she got married. Her mother took care of all the housework, so Lumi and her brother were not very hardworking people. Lumi wondered if all mothers in that era were the same. When you wanted to help, she refused. Hurry up and study. The water is cold, and you'll dirty your clothes!
But sometimes, when you went straight back to your room, she would complain, She was already a young lady, but she didn't have any work in her eyes. She didn't do anything every day!
There was a type of person who was full of negative energy and would never do anything right.
Later on, in the marriage life before his daughter Ran Ran was born, Lumi also muddled along. Zhang Ke didn't care much about these things. Whoever was willing to do it would do it, and if he wasn't willing to do it, he would get dirty.
It was the birth of his daughter, Ran Ran, that completely changed Lumi's procrastinating lifestyle.
Lumi later concluded that it was a woman's unique maternal psychology. When her daughter was still young, Lumi was always worried about whether the child's living environment was clean enough and whether the food was healthy enough.
Hence, she changed her attitude towards daily life bit by bit and gradually took care of everything herself. This also created Lumi's nagging and angry personality when he was nearly forty years old.
Every time he shouted at Zhang Ke or his daughter, he would blame himself, but he could not change his mind. Her career was not smooth and her life was not satisfactory, which created an even more mediocre version of herself.
Reality proved that negative energy was contagious, and it could lead a person astray.
"Sister, lend me your first grade book.”Lu Xiaolong's voice brought Lumi back to reality.
"What? Oh, you can go to the bookcase and look for it. It should be there.”Lumi wasn't sure where his old books were either. He thought for a moment and said,"You'd better ask Mom first!"
"Oh, okay."
His brother turned to look for the book, watching his thin figure disappear into the living room, Lumi's heart was filled with mixed feelings.
Lumi's father was from Shandong and had a serious preference for sons over daughters.
After the 1980s, China implemented the family planning route. His younger brother, Lu Xiaolong, belonged to the first team that violated the rules. Before he was born, his father had a "huge debt". Even if his younger brother Lu Xiaolong's arrival made the entire family unable to bear the burden, his father was truly happy and satisfied.
"Old Lu finally has an heir. Someone has taken over the household register!”
"Every brick in the house belongs to Lu Xiaolong, and my family property belongs to my son!”
These were the words that his father often said.
Rumi had heard it since he was a child.
Whether it was the 21st century before transmigration or the current 80s and 90s, the pressure of having two children in a family was absolutely different from having only one child.
With the birth of her younger brother, the girl Lumi, who was not valued by her father, was brainwashed by her father for many years. You can't fight for it, and you don't have to fight for it. You can only pay for this family. You have no right to speak or inherit it.
The ignorant parents had never thought about the harm their words had caused Lumi!
Even Lumi, who had been reborn, was unwilling to face and accept it. It was the loneliness of being excluded. The wound in his heart that had been torn over the years could not be filled no matter how much love Lumi had encountered and felt.
In his previous life, Lumi had gone to work to earn money right after he graduated so that he would not have to ask his parents for pocket money every time.
But in fact, Lumi had given the most for his younger brother in the first half of his life.
His younger brother, Lu Xiaolong, had never had his parents worry about his studies. He knew that he had to work hard. Later, when the siblings talked about their childhood family, they said,
"I wasn't interested in studying from the beginning. Dad nagged all day at that time. Later on, I realized that he had a habit. As soon as I picked up a book, he would immediately stop. At first, I just pretended to read.”
Lumi was shocked when he heard his brother's words. He didn't expect Xiaolong's path to study to start like this.
But that was undoubtedly a good method.
Lumi had also complained to his younger brother,"Why didn't you tell me about this method?"
The younger brother said that this was also a conclusion after he became an adult. When he was young, he did not have so many thoughts. It was just an excuse to not listen to his father's nagging.
Lumi thought, this is an unintentional flower arrangement...
His younger brother, Lu Xiaolong, had such a personality. He was timid and cautious, and did not like to fight for things. This was also the main reason why he did scientific research for half his life but was unknown and never valued by the leaders.
No matter which era it was, people who were good at expressing themselves, good at communication, and good at discerning people had a better chance of making a name for themselves. Leaders also preferred cheerful and talkative subordinates.
Facing such a low-key and cautious younger brother, Lumi's heart undoubtedly ached. Therefore, after Lumi started to earn money, he gave a lot of money to his younger brother from Xiaolong High School to his graduation from university.
Lumi had always thought that helping his brother was equivalent to helping his parents. Sometimes, even if his parents were hateful, they were even more pitiful.
This was also the style of most big sisters.
However, reality proved that even between relatives who were closest to each other by blood, there needed to be boundaries and a good grasp of boundaries.
It wasn't like you would be grateful for your efforts. People's hearts turned to the left, and some sacrifices would become natural. When the sacrifice and the reward were not proportional, there would be psychological imbalance. This was especially manifested in Lumi's later life when he encountered difficulties. There were many unpleasant things between him and his brother and mother. His mother thought that he was the boss, so he should give.
It turned out that the failure of many parents, the discord and gap between siblings, were all caused by the difference in treatment of parents.
But how many parents could reflect, reflect on themselves, and correct themselves?
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