"Is this Arnie…Katia?"
"Now,'here' is Anicatia. Just now,'this place' was still Kodabinasi.”
Jason could not react in time." Just now…was this Kodabinasi?”
"If you must tell me where this is.”
"Eh?" Jason vaguely understood something, but he couldn't tell what it was…
"'Er 'what?" The things that he couldn't see clearly in Jie's heart seemed to be transparent in the fairy's eyes. She gently tapped on the enlightenment that was about to emerge in Jie's heart.
Hence…
"If the heart is still that kind of heart…then no matter where this Kedabini is…There's Khodabinasi all over... If something unlocks, then wherever that heart is... It was all…Anicatia." Jason could not believe it, but he could not help but say it word by word. It was difficult, but unstoppable.
"But there is no fundamental difference between the two.”
" That's why Kedar is even more…pathetic…pitiful than Nasir…In the past, it seemed like I was forced by the ironclad reality of the outside world, or to put it in a more natural way, it was 'for the sake of survival'. "Actually…I was…I don't know how to put it…It was like infatuation…A kind of unconscious infatuation…It was also like an unconscious infatuation that couldn't even be called infatuation…In the end, I was forced into an iron cage where I couldn't control myself and lived a…dead life…In there, people were just tools driven by desire and fear, a walking corpse…"
" If there is such a thing as 'freedom', then to the Kodabinese, what they say, do, and think is freedom. It can even be said to be complete freedom. All souls are no different on this point…But why would they use this complete freedom to create a complete lack of freedom for themselves?”The fairy's memory returned to what she had seen and felt in Kodabinashi, the world of sorrow hidden behind the seemingly glamorous appearance of the people.
Seeing that Amy had no intention of continuing, Jason asked,""Why?"
"It's useless to say such things. Besides, isn't the real answer in your heart?”Amy's eyes darkened.
"But I still want to hear it from you." His expression was like a child who was hoping for an adult to continue telling him a story. Jason didn't know whether it was the fairy's words, her heavenly voice, or both, but listening to Amy's slow words made him forget everything.
It vaguely evoked a long-forgotten feeling and overlapped with the present---That year, I couldn't remember whether it was the second or third grade of primary school... It was a warm afternoon... My parents hadn't come home from work yet, and there was only me and a girl next door who couldn't remember her name sitting at the desk under the window doing homework... The golden sunlight that shone into the room... The sound of the pencil rubbing against the paper... The girl would come over to watch him do his homework from time to time. Asking a few small questions…The soft voice beside his ear…The girl occasionally brushed his face with her long hair and brushed his ear with her breath…Therefore, he didn't know when, but he had an inexplicable feeling of numbness in his heart…It was so sweet…It was as if even his breathing was about to melt…
Perhaps adults would call this " happiness ", but this word was too heavy for the taste of childhood…No matter what it was called, it was one of the few moments in Jason's life that was as beautiful as a dream and free from impurities. And this feeling, which was almost extinct after adulthood, and even forgotten as if it had never happened, suddenly appeared beside the fairy like a dream... even if it was something that seemed so dark and heavy...
It was already a pleasure to listen to the fairy talk like this. If he could untie some deep knot in his heart, wouldn't it be even better?
The fairy finally could not resist her child-like expectant gaze." Didn't you say that you haven't arrived at that home yet? But since you're already at home, why can't you arrive? Using complete freedom to create a cage of complete freedom was actually the same problem as it.”
Amy stroked a lock of hair behind her ear with her right hand as she pondered,"But the reason why you can't reach home and use your freedom to create your freedom is still there. It's the reason why you can't reach home and can't be free…Take a closer look. Is everything you think is real, or is it that the reason controls all your knowledge and the place where all your knowledge occurs…No, no…""It's a little dangerous to continue, and it's not something I can say.”Amy heaved a sigh of relief, and she continued walking toward the horizon.
"Cause of the disease?" After a while, Jason, who was following behind Amy, was still thinking about this question. He mumbled," The place where cognition occurs? Was it related to the brain? No…the one you mentioned…it's not right to say that it has something to do with the brain…it doesn't seem right to say that it has nothing to do with the brain…wait, wait…this question…seems to be asking the wrong question…the brain is an image that happens 'there', and the one you mentioned…is something that happens between' here 'and' there'…uh…and it allows 'here' and 'there' to follow their appearance…The reason for its appearance…"
Jason spoke very slowly, as if he was crawling, because at this moment, his thoughts had entered a state that he had never experienced before, or even imagined. In this state, for the first time, his thoughts had an incredible " authenticity " that truly belonged to him. It was no longer the conditioned reflex that he had to do so because of the various statements that were recognized by the crowd and even became a matter of fact. He knew the truth but did not know the reason.
Therefore, his mind began to learn to walk in an even more unbelievable way. He stumbled, but he was so interested and intoxicated, like a young bird that had escaped from a cage. For the first time, he realized that his seemingly ordinary and almost fettered body was actually a wing that led to the infinite sky, and even infinite reality and freedom…
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