Heartbroken for Her Sadness
"Your article made me feel heartbroken.”Xia Xin opened his QQ and saw the message. His heart trembled for some reason. He could not help but take a closer look at the person's name. Xia Tian? He did not know her.
Xia Xin was the executive editor of a magazine in Wuhan-based news agency. He had won the title of Best Executive Editor for five consecutive years. As an editor, Xia Xin would also write about his real-life experiences in his free time. He would post some essays and short stories. His style was fresh and cheerful. Most people would think that she was a carefree, young, and beautiful woman from her words. However, Xia Tian could sense a kind of unspeakable sorrow in those cheerful words. It was as if she had hit her own wound, and her heart ached for no reason.
Xia Tian added the author on QQ.
She didn't expect Xia Xin to accept her.
She left her a message,"Why is it that such a pure and beautiful emotion makes my heart ache?" Your life shouldn't be so heavy! Are you doing well?" It had been many years since he had experienced heartache. How could he feel so much pain in someone else's words? At the age of 30, Xia Tian was already married and had children. He was living a simple life. She studied computer science, and after graduation, she worked in a software development company in Beijing. Although he had been in contact with the Internet for ten years, he only looked up information on the Internet and rarely visited literary websites, let alone chat with strangers. Other than his classmates, colleagues, and family, there was no one else on QQ. One day, after finishing a project and having nothing to do, he went online to read literature. At first, she felt that most of them were very dirty. Her colleagues beside her encouraged her, Some of the articles on the blog were pretty good. So she continued to search. When she found Amoi's blog, her gaze was caught.
His heart ached. Her heart ached for no reason.
When Xia Xin saw her message, he only replied indifferently,"I can't explain."”He didn't say anything else.
Even though she was in her forties, she was still doing well in her career. However, half a year ago, her girlfriend, Roland, who had been in love with her for two years, suddenly avoided her. Although they were separated by two places, she was in Nanjing and Roland was in Nanjing, but based on a woman's intuition, she knew that she had a change of heart!
Her heart instantly sank into an ice cellar.
Yes, Xia Xin liked women and had yet to get married. When he was 30 years old, he picked up a daughter by the roadside and raised a baby who was more than a month old alone. Although it was hard, it was endless fun. Her daughter was named Xia Lian. She looked as fresh and moving as a lotus flower in summer. She was also smart, sensible, and obedient. She was already in high school.
Everything was going well. Her career was successful, her family was warm, and her love was sweet. However, Roland became restless. No matter how hard she tried and tried to win back their relationship, she found that Roland's heart was getting further and further away from her!
She fell into a serious depression and suddenly felt that everything was dull. Her career and daughter could no longer arouse her passion. In boredom, she simply left her job at the age of 45 and sent her daughter to school. She struggled in the vortex of sadness.
Could he tell her all of this? Regarding her private life, she would never talk to anyone except for a close friend. Especially the fact that she was in love with a woman. Only a few good friends in the industry knew about it.
"Why don't you tell me? Perhaps you'll feel better if you tell me.”Xia Tian was concerned.
"I didn't expect you to care about my feelings and whether I'm doing well," Xia Xin sighed.”The person she loved did not care about her feelings. Instead, he hurt her time and time again. However, this stranger on the Internet was seriously concerned about her feelings!
"Your article moved me," Xia Tian replied seriously. To be able to write such beautiful words, one must be a person of temperament.”
"Your words are very experienced, and don't sound like the words of a thirty-year-old.”
"Could it be that my state of mind has already exceeded my true age?”"Or perhaps I've already immersed myself in your words?" Xia Tian asked with a smile.”
"I'm tired. Bye," Xia Xin said.”He immediately logged off and left.
She was mentally tired. He was not interested in anything. Even when faced with this person who cared about her feelings and saw through her at a glance, she could not bring herself to be interested.
The word 'tired' triggered Xia Tian's nerves. What kind of suffering had a person gone through to be so tired? He couldn't help but send greetings in QQ morning, noon, and night. Regardless of whether the other party answered or not, he would send his concern. He also went to Amoi's blog again to read the article in detail. He tried his best to understand her state of mind, wrote down his thoughts, and communicated with her.
This made the indifferent Xia Xin feel ashamed. He replied,"My friends often say that I'm heartless…"
"That's because the heart and lungs are hidden in a place that only you can see!”Xia Tian did not allow her to continue.
2
Xia Xin's heart was filled with bitterness. How did this person understand him so well? He said,"I'm going to go offline and rest for a while."”She couldn't help but think of Roland again. When Roland saw her, he said that he understood her and loved her. In order to achieve the goal of falling in love, he had pursued her bitterly and vowed to protect her for the rest of her life, but now...
"Alright then." Why did he always come and go without a trace? They were chatting happily, but suddenly, they had to go offline again. Someone like her should be very busy, right? Xia Tian thought about it and continued to leave a message." I know it's hard on you. Rest well then. Take care!"”
"Thank you. Although you don't say much, you're sincere.”After saying that, he stopped. The coldness in his heart made it impossible for Xia Xin to continue. "Sorry, I really don't have the energy to chat. Bye.”
Xia Tian seemed to have read her mind and continued to leave a message."Think about it. Perhaps I have to concentrate on everything I do. Only then will I be able to understand. I might be able to go further if I give up some burdens.
I know you're working hard, so there's no need to reply.
I only hope that you can live a little easier! Make it simple!"
Xia Xin's heart was touched, and he replied indifferently,""My life is very simple, so simple that I have no interest in anything.”
Xia Tian's heart skipped a beat. He looked at such a glorious person who had written such beautiful words, yet it turned out that there was a bitterness that no one could understand! However, she pretended that nothing had happened and smiled."Not interested in anything? Isn't that too absolute?”
Xia Xin didn't say anything.
Xia Tian was only concerned about guiding her and asking her if she had tried anything. What was it that she wanted to do the most? After talking for a long time, it seemed like she was talking to herself. The person opposite her was so desperate that he had no interest in chatting with her. This made her heart ache. She could not help but joke,"It's over. If this continues, a great literary scholar in the future will become silent!”
Xia Xin finally smiled faintly and replied,""But I don't want to be finished, so I'm struggling.”No one was willing to die in silence. If they did, it would be as a last resort.
"Then let's go find a life-saving grass.”
"I can't find it, and I don't want to find it." Can grass save people? Perhaps he would die even faster!
"Living is a kind of faith." Xia Tian was persistent. What supported life was not something external, but a belief. It was a strong spiritual pillar that came from the heart.
Xia Xin sighed and took a deep breath before saying calmly,""I understand. However, I no longer have any desires. There's no need to say anything more…"
"You are struggling, which means that you still have something to ask for.”Xia Tian insisted on seeing it.
"Maybe. I want to find my former hopeful and cheerful self.”Xia Xin couldn't help but sigh again. Could he? Her heart was so depressed that she died. Could she still find her former self? A wave of inexplicable frustration surged out of her heart again, causing her gaze to become dull. This is terrible! How did she become like this? He felt that life was a burden. It was really hard to live!
"Whether it's reading your words or chatting with you, there's a feeling of sorrow in my heart. Because her heart was always being held tightly by something.”Strangely enough, Xia Tian seemed to hear her sigh. Just by reading the words on the computer screen, his heart was pulled. Don't give up. No matter how hard it is, don't give up. You will definitely find your former self! She heard the prayers in her heart.
" What kind of elf are you?" Xia Xin couldn't help but ask." You're so understanding and rational."”
"Actually, I'm just a simple person. I'm not as good as you say.”Xia Tian was embarrassed as he smiled shyly.?
3
Amoi came quickly. In this world, nothing is complicated. However, some people who think they are smart have made it extremely complicated, making our lives full of hardships.”As long as they chatted, Amoi's thoughts were quick and philosophical, and his humorous character also jumped between the lines.
Only those who had experienced wind and rain would have such a realization. Xia Tian could not help but smile when he heard those words."I don't know why, but when I read your article and chatted with you, I couldn't help but smile.”
Seeing her smile, Xia Xin couldn't help but smile as well.""Then you must love to smile and be very beautiful.”
"People who first met me all thought that I was very serious and a little scared.”"I wouldn't call it beautiful." Xia Tian smiled.”Actually, she had a pair of bright black eyes. Even though she had been facing the computer for a long time, it did not affect her vision. It was always above 2 o'clock. Because of his good eyesight, his eyes were dark and deep. In addition, she often smiled, and her deep eyes were filled with waves of light. Those who looked at her often fell into her eyes. However, she rarely looked at others. Her eyes seemed to be looking at each other, but in fact, she was looking at an unknown place. Therefore, she was completely unaware of other people's " fall." It was only after a long time that he realized it, and it was only under the reminder of others that he suddenly realized it. In this aspect, she seemed to be surprisingly slow and stupid. As a result, even though she was married and had children, she had never really been in love.
"That's because people don't understand you.”How many people could see the truth from the surface? For example, as an editor and author, many people only envied her freedom and glory. Seeing that she received both a salary and a remuneration, and that she led a leisurely life with her daughter, they thought that she did not have any worries. Who would have thought that she was actually living in a serious depression! On the other hand, someone as intelligent, reasonable, and smiley as Xia Tian would probably be as lonely as a desert in her heart, and no one would be able to understand!
Xia Tian said," It's normal to not understand. Everyone has many faces. It's easy to understand someone, but it's also difficult!”
Xia Xin said," That's why some people become friends, while some people face each other every day but are like strangers.”
"That makes sense!" Xia Tian felt as if he had met a soulmate and said excitedly,""It's strange. Is it because I read your article that I can chat with you so smoothly?”
"Their minds are connected." "I'm going offline," Xia Xin suddenly said.”While chatting happily, she thought of Roland again. She thought of the person she once loved, who was now far away from her every day. A wave of depression attacked his heart. He was in the mood to continue being bored, so he walked to the side and spaced out.
"Have a good rest." Xia Tian could only pray for her. Her heart tightened for no reason.
After that, he didn't see Xia Xin for many days. Xia Tian could not probe further. He was busy with work, but he could not let it go. He could only leave a " Good morning, good evening " or something like that. He really didn't know what to say. When they met again, Xia Xin spat out,"Very melancholic."
Xia Tian consoled her. If there was anything she wanted to say, she could just say it. No matter what happened, if she was willing to say it, she did not mind being a loyal listener. If he dared to speak out and open his heart to his friends, perhaps society would not need so many psychographers. After persuading him for a long time, Xia Xin only said,"I didn't encounter anything and have nothing to say."”Then, she said goodbye and left.
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