4
What exactly had happened to her that she was unwilling to reveal to others? What kind of sadness was hidden in her heart, and she only wanted to bear it herself? Xia Tian tossed and turned for her, and the only thing she could do was to relay her concern through the computer.
"Speaking of which, it's strange. I've always been admired by others for being free and easy. I never thought that today…
I didn't expect such a sunny woman like you to be filled with melancholy. It makes people's hearts ache!
I wonder where your inexplicable melancholy comes from?
Was it the loneliness and confusion of the heart? Or was it a wound that he didn't want to touch? Or a past that he dared not face? I don't know.
I can only tell you that time is always the best medicine. The future is always beautiful!
Smile-perhaps melancholy will escape..."
There were many things he wanted to say, but he was afraid that if he said too much, it would only make the other party more depressed. She felt that she was very stupid. Why couldn't she think of anything nice to comfort her? Thinking back, he was also depressed. At that time, she had just stepped into society from school. Seeing the love between her classmates break up and fall in love, she could not meet a boy who could move her heart. She could not help but feel confused and worried. A good friend whom he had played with since childhood had actually become estranged because of a misunderstanding. There were many unreasonable things in society…Her innocent heart couldn't bear it, and for two years, she fell into deep depression. After experiencing the feeling of loneliness and helplessness, she didn't want Xia Xin to be like that. She only hoped that she would jump out as soon as possible!
"Thank you." Seeing a stranger so worried about him, Xia Xin did not know what to say. He only said," I used to be known for being free and easy…" But that free and easy self had disappeared, and what was alive seemed to be just a shell! She had no choice! It wasn't that she didn't work hard. Traveling, working hard, taking her daughter to live in the mountains…Her mood, which was occasionally a little cheerful, was often brought back into the gloomy world by Roland's casual gaze and absent-minded words. The original Roland was looking at her with such concentration and caring for her with meticulous thoughts. Even her four limbs, five senses, and all the cells in her body were paying attention to all the subtle changes in her, sharing her joy and sorrow. And now, who knew who she was sharing happiness and sorrow with…What should she do?
He couldn't see the direction.
Was he going to die of depression like this?
Xia Xin was really unwilling. Because she still had to raise her daughter. She couldn't allow her to continue like this. She wanted to help her daughter find her biological parents, but there was no way to find them in the vast sea of people. She sat on the grass by the East Lake and watched her daughter read a book. A gentle sadness welled up in her heart.
It was the weekend, and the afternoon sun shone on the lake. Birds chirped and played in the forest, and flowers dotted the green grass. A cool breeze blew, bringing along the water vapor in the lake, making it cool and pleasant.
"Mom, I feel so blessed to be with you like this. "Xia Lian threw the book on the grass and came over to lie on her lap, smiling at her. She knew that she wasn't Xia Xin's biological daughter, but she treated her as her own. As long as he had this mother by his side, it would be fine.
Xia Xin stroked her hair and said lovingly,"Me too." Her daughter's pure smile was like the breeze by the lake, blowing away the irritability and melancholy in her heart. He pulled his daughter to lie on the grass and stopped thinking about anything. He just quietly felt the breath of nature. He didn't realize that he had become a blade of grass or a drop of water, calm and comfortable.
5
When she got back, she immediately wrote a short essay titled " Living with Nature ". She wanted to post it on her blog, but there was a problem with the webpage, so she couldn't post it. Since Xia Tian was here, he asked if he could help. She gave her the password to her blog." It's my birthday.”she said.
Xia Tian immediately logged into her blog and helped her post the message. Reading her article, he felt a lot. Suddenly remembering Xia Xin's age, he couldn't help but laugh."I thought you were the same age as me. So you're my sister.”She had written such a lively and light article with the innocence of a young girl. She did not expect that she was already middle-aged. No wonder those lively words were always flashing with wisdom. Xia Tian admired her even more.
When the article was published, Xia Xin was very happy. He immediately joked,"Kiss your smart hand."
Xia Tian laughed." Smart hands? Who says they're smart?"
"Yes, I do." Xia Xin said,"I'm the one who's talking, haha."”Then, he joked,"Why don't you kiss the left cheek?"”In her opinion, it was okay for a friend to kiss her on the face, right?
Xia Tian laughed even more." The left side of your face might not be smart.”She also found it interesting and was happy for Xia Xin's liveliness. She said,"I really have to admire you again!”He sent a big smiley face.
Xia Xin smiled and said,"The right side too."”Smart people were smart everywhere. There was always an indescribable pleasure in dealing with smart people. No matter how he joked, the other party could understand in an instant. No wonder someone said,"Long live understanding!"
Haha.
" Hehe…" He even understood why she was smiling foolishly. There was a kind of happiness in their hearts. Xia Xin browsed through the text on the blog and sent the article to the editor of the magazine. He asked what kind of articles Xia Tian liked. "I don't really like her in any way. I guess the only thing that can move my heart is what I care about."”
"Yes." At this moment, Xia Xin noticed that a friend whom he had asked to help find his daughter's parents had appeared. He immediately went to ask about the news and did not even bother to chat with Xia Tian. Xia Tian did not answer and asked her what she was busy with. "I'm looking for my daughter's biological parents.”After sending the message, he realized that his words were very abrupt, so he added,"My daughter was picked up by the roadside.”
"Oh." Xia Tian was shocked and did not know what to say. Most people who adopted their children were afraid that their biological parents would come looking for them. However, she was trying her best to find them. Wasn't she afraid that her daughter would run away with her biological parents? "Why do you want to find it?" She couldn't help but ask.
"I hope that my daughter will have more affection and warmth.”However, the parents who had abandoned their daughter in swaddling clothes seemed to have evaporated from the face of the earth and there was no more news of her. If he had any difficulties back then, he would at least secretly take a look at her in the future. He would come to pay attention to his daughter more than ten years later. However, after years of careful observation, Xia Xin had never found any clues. He asked people to ask around, but there were no clues. She couldn't help but sigh,"But there's no news from them at all. It's as if they never gave birth to this child." He really didn't know how they could be so ruthless.”
"Can't you find any clues?" Xia Tian asked.”
"Yes."
"Then don't look for it." "Aren't you and your daughter doing well? Why bother?" Xia Tian comforted her.”
" I…" Xia Xin sighed deeply and didn't say anything else. She was afraid that if she couldn't make it through one day, her daughter would at least have her biological parents to rely on.
Reliance? What was reliable in this world?
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