Time: 2011-1-2517:20:05 Words: 5046
35. in pairs
Sometimes, life was very strange. When you yearned for love, love was unwilling to come. However, when love really came, one would doubt whether it was love or not.
I've been avoiding Amelia all day, but I can feel that Amelia is looking for a chance to meet me again. However, I don't want to have such an opportunity again. I don't know why either. I look down on Amelia for being uncultured. Or no job? No common language? Both, it seemed like none of them. In short, I was avoiding Amelia, who had a beautiful vision for me, while I was heartlessly hurting her.
That day, I stayed behind to have a heart-to-heart talk with the class committee members. It didn't seem to have lasted long. I sent them out of the classroom and was still explaining something when I unknowingly sent them to the streets. Only then did I realize that Liu Sijia needed me to send her back.
After crossing the stone bridge, there was only Liu Sijia. She was especially happy and didn't ask me to turn around. As we walked, she asked me many questions,
"Teacher Zhang, I saw you visiting Team 38 by the river during the winter vacation. Actually, you can cross the river by boat from Team 38. We often go to the other side of the river to play.”
I could only explain to her,
"According to the plan discussed by our two classes, we can only take that route. We didn't arrange for a visit to Qingji.”
Liu Sijia actually took my comfort seriously.
"When you visit Green Fortune, you must come to our house.”
I said,
"Your parents are too polite. I didn't know what to do there. I couldn't say what I wanted to say or ask. Visiting was to have a heart-to-heart talk with the parents and understand their thoughts. Actually, what I want to know the most is whether your parents value sons over daughters.”
"Of course. In their hearts, my younger brother is the most important. As for me, I can postpone school. They might even think that it's not important whether I go to school or not.”
Liu Sijia's tone was a little heavy. This reminded me of that visit. Her parents were so enthusiastic that it felt fake. Behind the enthusiasm was contempt for their daughter. No wonder there was a faint sadness in her eyes. There was a hidden bitterness between her brows. It turned out that she had such thoughts since she was young. Even so, I should make her feel that her parents were fair. So I said,
"You might be wrong. "At that time, you had a younger brother, but no one helped to take care of him. There was no other way for adults to work in the team. You have to understand what your parents are doing."
I don't even believe this because there are people in our team who take leave to take care of their children at home. Isn't Wang Yulan one of them? He remembered that he didn't do much in the team.
"Teacher, I understand what you're saying. You want me to not hate my parents, right? I'm not resentful. I just feel that I studied too late. I'm already so old, and the people around me are all three or four years younger than me. I always feel that I can't play with them. Sometimes, I find what they say funny. For example, Lu Xianchun was so young. When the soldiers of the rich country teased her, she said that the soldiers of the rich country wanted to…Why did she…"
Liu Sijia didn't say that annoying word out loud, but it reflected the situation in the class. I quickly asked,
"Tell me, how many more of these things are happening in the class?”
Liu Sijia paused for a moment and said,"
"This happened not long after I came to this class last semester. After that, I heard that Wang Side was good to some female classmate, and Zheng Debin said something boring.”
"Then, what about this semester? What have they done?"
"This semester is fine. I saw that Wang Si De was very serious about his studies after school started. He boasted to others that he didn't want to study. He wanted to surpass many people once he started studying. At least, it wouldn't be a problem for him to surpass Liu Sijia. He said that he wanted to surpass me, and I could see that he was smarter than many of us. He just didn't put his mind to his studies.”
I was secretly happy in my heart. As long as Wang Side learned, he would be able to attract many boys. It seemed that the visit had some effect. I had to encourage him in two days to let Wang Side continue.
I was thinking about how to educate the students when Liu Sijia said,"
"Teacher, I often have a dream. I didn't study well, so my grades dropped. My mother said that with such poor grades, what's the point of studying! My father said, yes, it's so bad, it's better to go home and help farm! So, they didn't let me come to school. I was so anxious that my heart was about to jump out. When I woke up, I was covered in sweat.”
This was the most terrible kind of mentality. If one was always worried that their parents would not treat them well, they would have a lot of worries. It would not be easy for them to study. If they studied with a burden of thoughts, they would definitely be distracted a lot of times. I asked her,
"When you were studying, did you often get distracted and think of other things?”
Liu Sijia fell silent. After a while, she said,
"I just can't calm down to study. I keep thinking about all sorts of things.”
I continued to ask,
"What are you thinking about? Can you tell me?"
"No!"
He didn't expect Liu Sijia to be so straightforward. I think I'll have to do her parent's work. I said,
"I want to talk to your parents about you today and ask them if they have the kind of thinking you said. If they do, I will persuade them to give up that kind of thinking. After all, men and women are equal.”
Liu Sijia immediately walked up to me and stopped me."
"Teacher, if you want to persuade my parents, I don't think you should go. They won't change their minds because of your persuasion.”
I smiled and said,
"Didn't you just blame me for not visiting your house?”
Liu Sijia said,
"Aiya, I didn't want you to talk to my parents about those things! Sigh, I can't explain it to you clearly! It's very late. You should go back. I'll be home soon.”
With that, she turned around and ran off. She could vaguely see her schoolbag bobbing up and down behind Liu Sijia.
On the way back, I thought that Liu Sijia would call me " you " and " you " at the same time. She was really anxious and didn't want me to ask her parents about the preference for sons over daughters. By the way, next time I tell her that if her parents don't let her study, I'll support her. Anyway, it's only 28 yuan to register, which is half a month's salary. If she lives on campus, her monthly living expenses are about 5 yuan. I'll pay 39.50 yuan a month. I can totally afford it. When she thought about how she wanted to help others, she felt especially happy and relaxed.
"Brother Su Ning, Brother Su Ning!"
When I passed by the sales department, a low voice stopped me. I looked around and saw that it was dark. Only a little light came from the courtyard of the supply and marketing cooperative.
"Brother Su Ning!"
It was another voice. I recognized it. It was Yu Lian's voice. I finally saw a figure under the holly tree in front of the sales department. I had no choice but to walk over. Just as I reached the tree, Yu Lian pounced over and hugged my waist, pressing her face against my face.
I panicked and looked around. It would be troublesome if someone familiar saw me. Fortunately, it was so dark that no one was walking around. Only the dazzling white light from the cars coming from afar was covered by the dense leaves of the holly trees.
I wanted to take Amelia's hand away, but she was hugging me very tightly. I couldn't use any strength, so I let her hug me. I waited for a while and said,
"Amelia, listen to me. Didn't we agree last time? We'll talk about it when you grow up, okay?”
She hugged me for a long time before saying,
"Why do you keep saying that I'm still young? Aren't I going to be eighteen soon? Isn't eighteen an adult?”
I was shocked. How could Amelia be eighteen years old? Didn't he say last time…Thinking about it, he should ask her. I pried her hands away and asked,
"You were born in 1966, right? How many months?"
Her hand was very soft and seemed to have no strength at all. She looked at me and said,
"Yes, April 13th. It will be here soon.”
"Then, at most, he's only sixteen years old, right? How did she suddenly turn eighteen?”
"Why not? If he counted one year in six or six years and one year this year, wouldn't he be eighteen?”
I laughed and said,
"Are you stupid? How can you calculate it like this? Be obedient? You're still young. You'll know when you're twenty. Listen to me, huh? Don't think about this anymore."
I let go of her hand. She seemed to have woken up and lowered her head to pick up something. I asked,
"What is it?"
"Salt. My aunt asked me to go out to buy salt. I saw you sending the students over, so I waited for you here. Does that girl like you a lot?”
I was really shocked and said,
"What nonsense are you talking about! She was a cadre in my class. I went to them to explain some things, but it was too late, so I had to send her back. You're not allowed to talk nonsense, are you?"
"I just think that she's very happy. You care so much about her. I just want to be her…"
She still wanted to say something, but I was really afraid. I quickly urged her,
"Your aunt called you out to buy salt. I'm afraid it's been more than an hour. Isn't she worried to death?”
She then turned around and ran away. She immediately stopped and turned around to hug my neck. She kissed my face and turned around to run away.
I stood there, thinking about what Yu Lian had said. Just now, the bag of salt hit my face. That was Yu Lian's feelings. It hit my cold face. Am I too concerned about Liu Sijia? I thought of Liu Sijia's words, her actions, the way she looked at me, those…I didn't dare to think about it anymore.
What happened to me? How did this happen? The bad thing was that at the river that night, even though Amelia hugged him, he should have quickly pulled her away. Not only did he not pull her away, but he even kissed her and made her fantasize about him. How could this be good?
The person I really care about is Wu Aiting, but I don't have the courage to confess to her. Yes, didn't she borrow my diary? It's been so long. She must be waiting for me to ask her for it. Isn't this giving me a chance? However, he was still hugging Amelia just now. No, Amelia was hugging him. How could he confess to Wu Aiting again? Wasn't that two-timing? Besides, how would the principal punish him if he found out?
Back in the dormitory, Li Zhuhong brought me food. Although it was already cold, it was better than nothing. I especially thanked him.
"Li Zhuhong, you're always the one who helps me get food. How can I thank you?”
"Between us, who is who? Who told us to have such a good relationship?"
"Ha! How disgusting! The two of you are talking so intimately in the dormitory. I'm so envious!”
Wu Aiting said as she sat on the edge of Li Zhuhong's bed. This was unprecedented. In the past, every time she came, she would sit on my side. Why was she on his side now? Could it be that something in the diary made her unhappy? Looking at her face, she was so happy. He couldn't find anything wrong with her.
"Li Zhuhong, I haven't heard you play the violin for a long time. I'm free today, so why don't you play a song?”
Li Zhuhong immediately put down the book in her hand and was about to get the violin when Amelia came in with her brother in her arms and said,
"Teacher Zhang, my aunt wants you to go over.”
My heart shook, thinking that this was bad! Yu Lian told the principal about us. I looked at Wu Aiting and Li Zhuhong, and they looked at me in surprise. My heart was really in a mess. However, I still used my ability to eat quickly and settled it in a few seconds. I put down my bowl and chopsticks and walked out. Yu Lian did not follow me, so my heart slowed down a little.
I stood at the door and calmed myself down. Who cares? She was just being criticized. She refused to admit her relationship with Amelia. It was all her own idea. She never had any…What if she confronted her? What if Amelia insisted that she had kissed her? Or was it Amelia's imagination? Yes, just say it.
I walked into the principal's house. She was sitting alone at the table eating. I pretended to be very concerned.
"Principal, are you just eating? We've been eating for a long time."
I was lying through my teeth. I clearly put down my bowl and chopsticks just now, and I slapped myself in my heart. Why did I lie about the last sentence? The principal took a mouthful of rice and pointed at the chair beside him, indicating for me to sit down. I sat nervously in my chair, waiting for the headmaster to cut me with his sharp knife.
"You've been working for almost a year. From your work attitude and results, the school thinks that you've done a good job.”
I thought to myself,'If you want to say it, say it quickly. It's better to save the pain than to prolong it.' However, I still said humbly,
"Principal, compared to Teacher Zhou's Class 2, there's still a huge gap between our Class 1 and Class 2. Especially the language I teach, I've never surpassed Class 2. I still have to learn from Teacher Zhou humbly.”
The principal picked up a piece of food and put it into her mouth. I saw that she was eating with relish, so I urged her to say it quickly in my heart.
"It's good that you're so humble. Didn't Leader Mao say that modesty made people improve, and arrogance made people lag behind? I heard from Director Ning that your homeroom teacher has done a good job. She has roused the students 'enthusiasm for learning. When we look at a person, we don't just look at his teaching results. We also look at how he does his work, whether he has the spirit to work hard, and whether he thinks of various ways to do his work better.”
I was thinking to myself," Last semester, Zheng Debin's incident happened. Fortunately, it didn't cause any bloodshed. However, if the principal doesn't mention it, I won't mention it either. Hurry up and criticize him." I looked at the principal, hoping that she would say those words out loud. Who knew that the principal was still saying something else.
"The day before yesterday, I went to the district for a meeting and met your aunt again. She asked me to tell you that she hopes that you will work hard and improve. Let me ask you, do you have any thoughts about this? If there was, he would write an application to the organization. "Look, your father is a member of the Party, your grandpa is a member of the Party, and your aunt is also a member of the Party. They are all so motivated. I don't know about your father and grandpa, but I know your aunt very well. That job is so dangerous. I remember that she was working as a woman in the Gold Commune. I was working as an education worker. When I saw her catching women to work, I immediately conveyed the order to the brigade overnight. Sometimes, it was dark without the moon or bicycles." Walking alone, you see, that's how she works. You have to learn from her selfless work spirit.”
I nodded repeatedly until the principal sent me out the door. She didn't say the words that I hoped and didn't want to say. I had already left the door, but she still called out to me,
"Little Zhang, there's one more thing. Team Leader Chen said that he's looking for you for something.”
My heart finally relaxed. Fortunately, Amelia didn't tell her about us. When I returned to the dormitory, Yu Lian was listening to Wu Aiting sing with the child in her arms. Li Zhuhong was accompanying her. It seemed to be a new song. Wu Aiting said,
"Zhang Su Ning, what's so good that you're so happy? When she went there, she was sad, but when she came back, she was happy. Tell us."
I really couldn't say anything, so I could only brush them off.
"Not at all. The principal and I are in the same brigade. She is also good friends with my aunt. She said that she had a meeting and sent a message to my aunt, asking me to work hard.”
Wu Aiting widened her eyes and said,
"So you and the principal are old acquaintances! No wonder Lu Chuanjie said that you were assigned here because you found someone. So it was the principal who asked you to come!”
I really couldn't explain myself, so I could only say,
"What I said last time was true. I didn't look for anyone. I just feel that it's the same no matter where I'm assigned to.”
"Does that mean that we are dispensable in your heart? Li Zhuhong, don't you think Zhang Su Ning is too heartless?”
Li Zhuhong also joined in.
"Yes, Wu Aiting is right. Look at how close we are. Now that you say it like that, it seems like we don't matter to you..."
Amelia interrupted at this time,
"Brother Su Ning only said that this was the case when they were assigned, not now!”
On the other hand, the bystanders saw things clearly. What Amelia said was exactly what he wanted to say. Why was he so stupid? I gave Amelia a thank you look and immediately felt that it was inappropriate. Otherwise, she would misunderstand again. I said,
"Wash it with water!"
When I came back with the water, only Li Zhuhong was left. This was the result I wanted.
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