I'd Rather Choose to Be Far Away
(1)
It was already late at night. There were only two or three tables left in the dining car. It was cold and empty. It seemed that there was no chance for Zhao Minmin and I to talk alone for so long and so late at night.
Needless to say, when I was a student, Li Hui was there for almost every occasion. Zhao Minmin consciously avoided being alone with me. During my working life, I spent a lot of time alone together, which was the time I experienced Zhao Minmin's soul-stirring kiss.
Zhao Minmin actually drank beer with me today, and she drank quite a lot. Her face was flushed red, and she was charming. Under the fluorescent lights, she was so beautiful that it was impossible to look at her.
"Zhao Minmin, I remember that the first book I borrowed from you was Jane Eyre. You also liked this book. Can you tell me why?”I want to know more about Zhao Minmin's inner world.
" Xiao Qingsong, you really know how to find an entry point. You want to use this to understand my heart, right? I quite like Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre. It's such a classic love story. I'm also a girl. I also have feelings and desire for a beautiful love. However, like Jane Eyre, I also had an unfortunate childhood. Those things have happened for many years. I'm happy today, so I won't mention it anymore.”When Zhao Minmin mentioned her childhood, her tone became sad again.
"Zhao Minmin, I was a child. There are some things that are suppressed in my heart. It's better to say it out loud. Can you let me share the burden?”I saw that Zhao Minmin was sad again, so I carefully tested her.
"Xiao Qingsong, I can tell Li Hui about those things, and I can even tell the other boys who are pursuing me, but I don't want to tell you. I don't know the reason either. I really don't want you to know about those things, so don't ask.”Zhao Minmin was silent for a moment before she said emotionally.
(2)
It was pitch-black outside the window. Occasionally, a few lights would flash by, and the light inside the window was bright.
"Xiao Qingsong, you always ask me questions. How about this, I'll ask you what you think of a book. You have to tell the truth!”Zhao Minmin said seriously.
"Zhao Minmin, you can only ask about advanced mathematics or linear algebra. I've never read romance novels, so don't ask.”I said solemnly.
"Xiao Qingsong, you haven't read romance novels yet. How many of the love letters you wrote to me were copied from romance novels? I've seen the source of some of them. Please, Xiao Qingsong, can you make more original ones!”
Zhao Minmin said with a red face.
"Xiao Qingsong, listen carefully. Zhang Ailing's 'Fate of Half a Life'. Please comment on Gu Manzhen's fate, encounters, and ending. Remember, you must speak your true thoughts from the depths of your heart!”Zhao Minmin asked seriously.
"Zhao Minmin, you're too cruel. Zhang Ailing's 'Fate of Half a Life', is the book that I don't dare to read the most. When I was pursuing you in university, I spent a long time reading it intermittently. After that, I didn't dare to read it again. Tragic, too tragic! "I really, really admire Zhang Ailing. She was able to use such a calm tone and detached attitude to let Gu Manzhen experience Zhu Hongcai's rape. Her sister was the mastermind, and her mother acquiesced and even supported her. After she was raped, she was imprisoned, and her hand was cut by glass. Then, she was forced to give birth to the child of the person who raped her. After giving birth, she escaped from the hospital and was alone. She also found out that the cowardly Shen Shijun was married, but she still had to find a job and live alone. Zhang Ailing is not done yet." She also made Gu Manzhen come back and marry Zhu Hongcai, the one who raped her, because of the child. Tragic, too tragic!”I was a little emotional.
"Xiao Qingsong, let me ask you another question. What do you really think? After Gu Manzhen was raped and gave birth to Zhu Hongcai's child, she escaped from the devil's den and wrote a letter to Shen Shijun. In the letter, she asked Mother Shen to burn it. Let's assume that Shen Shijun received this letter. Do you think that Shen Shijun would ignore Gu Manzhen's experience and return to Gu Manzhen's side?”
Zhao Minmin asked seriously.
" Zhao Minmin, when I was watching 'Half Life's Fate,' I wanted to rush in and save Gu Manzhen countless times, but I couldn't. The initiative was with Zhang Ailing. Gu Manzhen was raped and gave birth to Zhu Hongcai's child. I don't know if Shen Shijun would care about this experience or if he would return to Gu Manzhen's side. However, if Zhang Ailing gave me this chance, I would definitely return to Gu Manzhen's side without hesitation. I would take care of her, hug her, comfort her, love her, and marry her. The reason is very simple. Because Gu Manzhen is the person I like and love. Gu Manzhen's painful past can no longer be changed. I will not let Gu Manzhen suffer any more hardships in the future!”
I answered seriously. I thought so from the bottom of my heart.
Zhao Minmin was silent for a while before she smiled and said,"Xiao Qingsong, I didn't expect you to have such deep feelings for Gu Manzhen!”
I said anxiously," Zhao Minmin, don't be unreasonable, okay? You're the one who told me to tell you the truth. Ever since I pursued you, I treated all the female leads in romance novels or romance movies as you. When I said that I would immediately return to Gu Manzhen's side, take care of her, hug her, comfort her, love her, and marry her, I actually meant that I would immediately return to Zhao Minmin's side, take care of her, hug her, comfort her, love her, and marry her!”
Zhao Minmin saw my anxious look and smiled sweetly."Xiao Qingsong, how can I not know what you mean? I'm so happy!”
"Xiao Qingsong, how would you evaluate the ending, Zhang Ailing, which caused Gu Manzhen and Shen Shijun to reunite after more than ten years?”Zhao Minmin asked seriously.
"Zhao Minmin, if we meet again after more than ten years, it means that Zhang Ailing has shown mercy. We must let that hateful Shen Shijun know about Gu Manzhen's tragic experience. He left Gu Manzhen when she needed help the most, putting his lover in a miserable situation. If we meet again after more than ten years, that hateful Shen Shijun will want to cry but have no tears. His conscience will be condemned for the rest of his life!”I was still a little agitated.
"Xiao Qingsong, Zhang Ailing arranged for Gu Manzhen and Shen Shijun to reunite more than ten years later.
The last time they met, at least, it was sudden and there was no farewell. If he walked out of here today, it would be a farewell. It was clear as day, as if he was dead.
In other words, if they were to be separated from each other and never meet again, Gu Manzhen and Shen Shijun would both miss each other. Regardless of whether they were married or met with an extremely tragic incident like Gu Manzhen, they still had each other in their hearts. There was no farewell, but if they met again, it would be a true farewell. As Zhang Ailing had said," It's as clear as day, just like death." Therefore, if I were Gu Manzhen, even if I encountered a very unfortunate incident, I would rather choose to accept it silently. They would rather choose to live apart and never meet again!”
Zhao Minmin was really serious. She really arranged for us to end up far apart and never see each other again!
I think, to a certain extent, Zhao Minmin is calmer and more ruthless than Zhang Ailing! However, I like this calm and ruthless Zhao Minmin!
(3)
"Zhao Minmin, I also have a literary question to ask you. Your college language has always been very good.”Because the atmosphere was a little heavy, I wanted to change the topic.
"Xiao Qingsong, aren't you known as Peking University's number one genius? Do you still have any questions to ask me?”Zhao Minmin said, a little puzzled.
I said solemnly," I wrote a manuscript that I personally thought was quite excellent, but the editor in charge rejected it. He raised a few questions and pointed out a few wrong sentences. I consulted several people but couldn't solve them, so I had to ask you.”
Then, I quickly wrote down the love letter that Lu Li had given me on a piece of paper for Zhao Minmin to read. Because at this moment, I need to use this classic love letter to break the " awkward " atmosphere. Please forgive me for using this love letter again, and I promise this will be the last time.
Lu Li:
I really like Zhao Minmin from your dormitory. Please pass her to me.
Zhao Minmin, I fell in love with you the first time I saw you. You made me miss you day and night. You made me dream about you. I don't know where else I can find a beautiful girl like you.
Thank the heavens for letting you appear in my life!
I dreamt of you again last night. I'm sorry, I kissed you again. I felt your lips were sweet and cold. I wonder if it feels like this when I kiss you in reality?
However, that beautiful moment might have to wait for a year, or three years, or perhaps…
Perhaps he really wanted to realize the two words that no matter how many people pursued and how much time they spent, they could not pursue!
Thank you, Lu Li. I wish you a happy study!
Student Xiao Qingsong
September 11, 1996
Zhao Minmin didn't know what I was doing. She took the piece of paper in confusion. When she saw the contents of the paper, her face immediately turned red and she threw my classic love letter to me."Xiao Qingsong, do you want to die? I knew you had bad intentions!”
"Zhao Minmin, please be serious. The editor in charge has raised a few questions. I'll pick three to ask you."”
"Zhao Minmin, listen up. First question, I was lucky enough to kiss the dream lover version of Zhao Minmin and the real version of Zhao Minmin. Why do I feel cold? That was the sweetest kiss I've ever tasted in my life!”
Zhao Minmin's face turned red. She stood up and punched me a few times."Xiao Qingsong, you're really bad. You took advantage of me and even made fun of me! It seems that you've kissed many girls. You're quite a flower!”
"Zhao Minmin, I swear to God that it was my first kiss when we kissed. Li Hui was just a kiss when she was drunk. It was a one-sided act, not a kiss.”
Zhao Minmin hit me even harder!
"Zhao Minmin, be serious. There's a second question. Ah, violence is not allowed in public!"”
"The second question of the editor in charge was,'Perhaps we really have to realize the two words that many people have been pursuing for a long time but have not been able to achieve!'This sentence was too wordy. Just say what the word 'those two words' was. He even added such a long attribute in front of it. In the end, he asked me to tell him what the word 'those two words' was.”
Zhao Minmin did not use violence this time. She blushed and said,"Xiao Qingsong, what else can you say? How can you send a love letter like this? You made Lu Li cry. The entire dormitory knows the contents of the love letter.”
"Zhao Minmin, our hearts are connected. The original intention of my love letter was to chase you and love you forever. However, I thought of another word later. It seems to be quite good and meets the requirements.”
Zhao Minmin really experienced it for a while and then said," Whether it's 'forever' or 'eternality', so many people have been pursuing time for so long. Who in the world has ever truly realized it? A thunderclap breaks the tomb, a British stage enters the grave, and then Liang Zhu becomes a butterfly, dancing together. It's quite romantic, but their lives no longer exist. Can you say that' forever 'or' eternity 'has been realized? I think that to achieve a beautiful love, it doesn't necessarily have to sacrifice the lives of one or even both actors!”
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