Winter vacation is coming soon. A semester has passed like this. Now I have a headache. Everyone else has gone home during the holidays, but what should I do? Go home. I can't feel the taste of home at all. Home is just a temporary place for me. When I have nowhere to go, I can only use this place as a temporary hiding place.
I've been taking exams these few days. I'm so annoyed. Although it's not very difficult, I don't know what? I've always been against exams. As soon as they walked straight into the examination hall, they began to feel dizzy, but the teachers were happy. Test, test, test, the teacher's magic treasure, minute, the student's lifeline. Sigh, well said. I really should applaud the person who said this.
The exams were finally over. The biggest headache for my classmates was buying train tickets. I didn't know why there were so many people in China. Every day, I could hear my classmates in the dormitory discussing buying train tickets. Everyone was envious that I didn't have to buy train tickets. I could only smile awkwardly. If they were lucky, they could still buy seats. If they were unlucky, they could only buy standing tickets and stand all the way home. Wang Jing said that when she started school, she stood all the way from Xuzhou, Jiangsu Province, and stood for more than ten hours. Other than sympathy, I was also a little envious that they could finally reunite with their families. I could eat the food that my parents cooked for me, and I could hold my parents 'hands and act coquettishly, but I could only sit alone in my room and talk to myself. Sometimes, she could only sit in a coffee shop and read a book. Perhaps, burying herself in a book could make her forget everything. Those painful and unwilling memories could be quietly missed. She could miss everything about him. He missed the beautiful sky in the distance.
It couldn't be helped. This was the big city with the most universities after Beijing and Hubei. There were five or six of those so-called key universities. There were more than 10,000 students in one school. Perhaps they came to this city because there were very few local schools and everyone did not want to stay in one place for too long. They wanted to experience the outside world! But I have no choice! She could only be a puppet for her family.
In desperation, she returned home. For some reason, her grandfather, father, mother, and brother were all at home. Seeing their strange expressions, she could only brace herself and go in. Just as she was about to run upstairs, she was stopped by her mother.
"Xiao He, how are you doing in school? It's the holidays. Do you have any plans?”I looked at my mother strangely. I was really surprised that she could say something that concerned me.
"No, I don't know either."
"Then think about it. Your mother and I are going to Hainan, and your grandfather is going back to the villa in the countryside. Do you want to go with us or go to the countryside with your grandfather? "Dad looked at me. I couldn't see any concern in his eyes. There was only coldness, as if he wasn't asking, but telling him that he didn't have to go.
"You guys go ahead. I'll stay at home. Sister Li won't be going back to the countryside this year. Besides, I still have a lot of books to read. I have a lot of classes next semester.”I looked at these people helplessly. Why are all my relatives like this? My brother sat at the side and didn't say anything. I knew that if I stayed, he would definitely stay and accompany me. In the past ten years, it wasn't like this that year. Now, they came to ask me hypocritically. Looking at them, I really felt that they were strangers.
"Alright then, you guys do as you see fit! I'm going back to the countryside tomorrow. If you and your brother have nothing else to do, come back and accompany me for a few days.”Grandpa told us. It was as if he was giving an order. In fact, my brother and I were already used to this kind of life. "In my family, it's like this every year. When other people celebrate the new year, our family members have never been reunited. I don't know why. Perhaps it's because I can't feel the feeling of home. Every year during the new year, I see people on the streets happily buying things for the new year. However, there's no one in my family. Every year, only my brother stays with me at home. He's afraid that I'll be afraid or sad, so he always stays with me, watching TV with me, and listening to songs with me." She sat quietly on the balcony with me and stared out the window in a daze. He would also accompany me to the open space outside to set off fireworks. Because firecrackers are dangerous, my brother has never played with them, and he doesn't allow me to play with them.
"I'm really grateful to my brother. Ever since I was three years old and could remember, my brother has always been at home with me during the New Year. Therefore, in my heart, my brother has always been the most important person to me. I rely on my brother more than I rely on my parents. I never hide anything from my brother. Although I didn't tell him about Shangguan Qiang and me, I think he must have guessed it long ago. My brother can always guess my thoughts.
Perhaps it was because of this that I always wrapped myself up. I was afraid that I would be hurt, so I never revealed my feelings in front of anyone except Shangguan Qiang. However, he never told me that he liked me. Perhaps it was because of this that I personally destroyed the happiness that belonged to me. If I had been a little selfish at that time, if I had accepted Zou Xiangyang's love at that time, perhaps he would not have died. He used his life to realize his love for me, but I could never put him in my heart. I could only occasionally think of him in my dreams, but it would always flash by. I often thought of him in the unfamiliar crowd on the street, but I always searched for the familiar face that belonged to Shangguan Qiang. I know that this is unfair to Zou Xiangyang. After all, he sacrificed his life for me. But no love was no love, love was love. Love is selfish, so selfish that I disregard life. When it came to love, no one was wrong. However, when you love him, he doesn't love you. When he loves you, you leave alone. Was it fate or separation? Was it pain or joy? There was no way to start.
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