It's been a few days since the birthday banquet. It's time for me to go to school. I'm in my third year of high school. I'm busy. I can't finish the questions every day. My biggest headache is math and English. They don't know me, and I don't know them. However, there was nothing he could do. The college entrance examination had to be tested on these things. He was going to collapse. When could the college entrance examination system be reformed? Every day, he faced these painful questions and the teachers 'cold faces. Days felt like years! College entrance examination, college entrance examination. He really did not know what the college entrance examination had changed. Identity or status. He didn't understand.
"Mei Yuhe, you're finally here. If you didn't come, we would have gone to your house to look for you. I heard that your Prince Charming has returned.”Just by hearing this voice, he knew who it was. My best friend and classmate, Jiang Man.
"You jinx. Who told you that? What? I have a prince charming. Don't you know? A man riding a white horse might not be a prince, but a mule.”I helplessly dealt with Jiang Man, this big mouth. "Hahaha, Little Third said so. Why don't you ask your sister?”Jiang Man said as she looked at me. I really wanted to strangle Yushan to death. This wretched girl, I'll teach her a lesson when I get back.
"Hey, the English teacher and Zou Xiangyang have been looking for you for the past few days. What happened to you guys? Did you get into trouble? Why is that old monster English teacher looking for you?”Jiang Man said.
"I don't know either. I'll look for him after class later and see what's the matter.”I really don't understand. What's wrong with these people? Do they think I'm easy to bully? Whenever I see that old monster, I feel uncomfortable all over. He looks like an old hag and even speaks a few words of English. I really don't know how he managed to get into the English teacher's team. I heard that he studied Russian at the beginning and later changed to teach English.
When I was about to reach the classroom door, I saw Zou Xiangyang standing at the door and looking at me. What's wrong with this kid? He had a dark face as if someone owed him 500 yuan. "Zou Xiangyang, what are you doing here? Are you waiting for us?" Jiang Man asked. Zou Xiangyang didn't even look at Jiang Man and said to me,"I'll wait for you on the field after class.”Who was this person? What was he doing? Jiang Man protested. I pulled Jiang Man back because I knew what he wanted to do the most. I nodded at him and walked into the classroom. My classmates were busy revising and preparing for the university entrance examination. I didn't know that it was really important to enter the university. Why did so many people have to work so hard? Was university the only way out? Perhaps, for most people, this is really a way out. However, I grew up in such a family. How could I understand how difficult it was for them? He just wanted a place that belonged to him, where he could quietly read Qiong Yao's novels, San Mao's articles, read Zhang Ailing's words, play his own songs, dream his own dreams, and write his own stories. He liked every person in their stories and every poem they wrote. He liked every word they said. He always felt that it was his own inner voice. Jiang Man always said that I'm a sentimental person, but I'm too emotional. She said that I'll suffer if I do this. But I feel like I'm rational. Maybe it's somewhere between being emotional and rational! He always looked at everything around him coldly as if it had nothing to do with him.
Finally, I heard the bell for the end of class, but the teacher was still talking on the podium. To be honest, I didn't hear a word. My thoughts had long flown to that distant foreign land. He flew to the place where the person in my dreams was. What was he doing now? Is he thinking about me like I think about him? Will he really like me? I asked myself again and again, over and over again. Maybe she would, maybe she wouldn't. He was already married, but why couldn't she let go of her childhood dream of being his bride, wearing a white wedding dress and holding his hand? But maybe not in this life. Maybe someone else will hold my hand, maybe I will wear someone else's wedding dress, maybe he will never stand by my side and protect me like when I was young. He has already given his wedding dress to another woman, and he already has another woman by his side, but I can't let go. Perhaps I won't be able to let go forever! That girl was not in love, but the price was a little too high! I smiled bitterly, but I couldn't change the concern I had for him. You gave birth to me before I was born, and I gave birth to you before you were old. You hate me for being born late, I hate you for being born early. You gave birth to me before I was born, and I gave birth to you before you were old. I hate that I can't live at the same time as you. I'm always on good terms with you. Perhaps these words can represent my feelings at this moment!
The teacher finally left. Zou Xiangyang pulled me to the field and asked me," Why, why, why are you doing this to me? What else do you want me to do? Can't you see my heart? How can you be so cruel? Don't you understand how I've treated you for the past three years? You're just a stone, I should roast you! I really want to dig out my heart and show it to you.”
I listened quietly and let him vent his emotions. I knew that he loved me, always loved me, and was crazy about it. From the first year of high school, he accompanied me to see Qiong Yao, San Mao, travel together, and daydream together in the field. However, deep in my heart, I really only treated him as a friend who could chat and have a heart-to-heart talk. He was someone who could give me a shoulder to rely on when I was sad. A friend I can share with when I'm happy.
"Yuhe, what have you taken me for the past three years? Friend, confidant, or boyfriend? Tell me, tell me, tell me! He was almost roaring."
"I'm sorry. I really thought we were good friends, just like Jiang Man and I.”I closed my eyes and let the tears flow. I know that it's cruel to him, but not loving is not loving. When the love in your heart has long been occupied by others, you won't leave a place for others.
"Mei Yuhe, you're a cold-blooded animal. Can men and women really be friends? Don't lie to yourself. Is it so difficult for you to accept me? I think we should calm down for a few days. I'll come back for an answer in a few days. I hope you won't disappoint me. I don't want to lose you. Your shadow has already taken root in my heart. I don't want to lose you, I really don't want to. I hope you can give me a chance and give yourself a chance, okay?”Zou Xiangyang hugged me tightly. At this moment, I was powerless to resist. She allowed her tears to flow down his chest. If there was no Shangguan Qiang, I would be content to have such a man in my life.
Ever since that scene on the field, he has been in a cold war with me for the past few days. Actually, we don't want to touch each other's pain. I didn't know what to do. Jiang Man kept telling me to give up the shadow in my heart. Zou Xiangyang was really not bad. Every time, I could only laugh it off. Then, I hugged the book and left. Who could see the pain in my heart? I wasn't a wooden person. It wasn't that I didn't feel anything. How could I not understand his heart? I just didn't want to admit it.
" Yushan came to look for me. I thought something had happened when I saw her red eyes. She only told me one thing," Sister, don't give up on Brother Xiangyang. He's a good man. Don't miss him. You'll regret it."”I looked at my sister in front of me. She had grown up and knew how to care for others. I touched her face weakly and smiled bitterly. How could I not know? How could I not understand? The flower season that I missed could come back next year, but the person I missed was a lifetime of pain. If she missed him, she would miss him. No matter how much she loved him, she could only let him go. Letting go did not mean that she did not love him anymore, but she loved him more. She loved him for his happiness. Wasn't it?
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