To You It's Farewell, To Me It's Waiting
If it weren't for you
I seem to have everything
Was his heart broken…
I still can't believe the reality that I've already sent you away
All my love has become empty talk
I just sent you away
But for me, it's the beginning of waiting
Don't leave my love
I can't see you again, can I?
You are still in my heart…
. Don't leave my love
I can't see you again, can I?
No matter when, no matter where, as long as I feel tired
Come back to me
Ten million...
. Be happy, my love
Until that day, until the day of eternity
By that time, you will forget me…and erase me without reservation…
-----To you it's farewell, to me it's waiting Kim Jaejoong
Our story was like plain water, plain and unadorned. There were no vows of eternal love, no earth-shattering, no parting of life and death. It was just an ordinary secret love, love, and finally a breakup.
The first time I saw Weijie was when I was four years old. He was eight years old, with short hair and a tall figure. He was like a little prince, shining. I was in Grandma's yard counting the ants that were crawling around. He stood at the entrance of the yard, stunned. I looked at him in a daze, as if I could see a faint glow on his body. I tilted my head and looked."Who are you?"
"I'm Wang Weijie from next door. Mom asked me to get something from Third Aunt. Can you help me?”
I turned my head to the house and called out in his tone,"Third Granny."
He was stunned for a long time before he raised his voice and said to me,"Louder."
I blinked my eyes, turned my head and shouted loudly into the room without hesitation,"Louder!"
At this moment, Grandma and he walked out of the house with black lines on their faces. Then, they both leaned forward and laughed.
The ignorant you and the silly me, at the moment when time and space intersected, I saw your light, which pierced my eyes and carved into my bone marrow. The encounter was too perfect, so the ending was destined to not be good. How did fate play with me and you like this? You quietly stayed in the depths of my memories, sticking to my soul. I couldn't touch you, but a touch could stir up a thousand waves.
Later, we studied in the same high school. He was two years older than me. He was on the third floor in his first year of high school and on the first floor in his third year of high school. At that time, he was tall, had thin shoulders, fair skin, short hair, a tall nose, a thin face, and always had a gentle expression. His big eyes were dark and bright, like a bottomless stream, making people fall into his embrace. He always liked to stand by the railing at the end of the corridor after class, and I would always lean on the railing on the third floor and look at him at the end of the corridor on the first floor. I would always see the white light on his body, and in my eyes, he was always shining.
I used the excuse of learning to draw and play the guitar to stay at Grandma's house for the whole summer vacation. Then we went to sketch together and went to the beach to ride a bicycle together. They played the guitar together and hummed his favorite tune. His voice was gentle and magnetic.
Those days were like the wind, because they were like the wind, they would be blown away with time and left behind by you. But I will always treasure, treasure, until the end of my life. Do you believe that from then on, I loved you deeply, deeply, just like I loved myself.
I was happy for a long time to be able to successfully attend the same university, even though my parents weren't that happy. At that time, he had long hair and was still tall. He had thin shoulders, fair skin, a thin face, a high nose bridge, and deep eyes that looked forward to the future. During the summer break of my freshman year, I used the excuse that I wanted to train myself and be independent. I said that I had found a tutor and wanted to stay in school. I secretly ran to the place where he worked during the summer break. That was the first time we held hands. I even secretly hugged him from behind.
At that time, he told me that he wanted to be a singer and hold a concert with his band in the largest venue in our country. I looked at him, his eyes shining.
I clapped my hands happily and said,"You can do it. I support you. You're the best."”
We hugged the guitar and sang until late at night.
" I treat your dream as my dream. I know that I'm not in your dream, so I can only work hard to support you. I look at you, I look at you quietly, I look at you immersed in your dream. Just looking at you makes me so happy. Because it's you. You know it's you.
Sophomore year, at the beach, he stood in a heart-shaped pattern made of candles, holding two large clusters of heart-shaped balloons of various colors. The light from the candles reflected his faint smile, giving off a gorgeous glow." Let's go together!”I cried and rushed over to hug him. I hit his back hard."Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why didn't you tell me earlier?”That night, we walked on the beach for an entire night. I just smiled and looked at her slightly glowing face without saying a word.
On our first date, he took me to the bar he often performed at,"Rice Ball". There, we kissed for the first time, I smoked for the first time, drank for the first time, and vomited for the first time. Although I never went to that place again no matter what he said, now that I think about how he wiped away the dirt left by my vomit and carefully handed me mineral water, my heart went from sweet to bitter. In the end, it hurt so much.
If I had known that the ending was separation, I would have desperately begged you for all your time and space. So when I saw that bar, I wondered if I had gone to watch your performances every time, followed you every day, even smoked and drank with you, and played rock and roll with you. As long as it's yours, I want it. But now is not the time.
At the end of my sophomore year, he held a concert with his band in the school auditorium. That night, he dazzled the audience. I stood offstage and laughed foolishly for two hours. When I realized what was going on, my face had already cramped up.
The last song was a lyrical song," The moon represents my heart." When he sang the song, he jumped off the stage and walked to my side. He said," The moon represents my heart," followed by " I love you." The first time he said," I love you." It wasn't that he liked you, nor did he need you. It was that he loved you. At that time, my body stiffened and I allowed him to hug me tightly. At that time, I felt that the happiness was unreal. Now that I think about it, I feel that the happiness at that time was very painful and dazzling. After that day ended, he was so happy. He was like a child on the beach. He said," After graduation, I want to go to S City. I want to become the best singer."
Comparing the happiness in my memories with the bitterness now, I could only quietly pinch my arm to stop myself from crying. I endured it. I realized that I, who loved to cry, became unusually strong after you left. It was because my heart was already broken. If I didn't even fix the shell, I wouldn't be able to live.
Two years later, I was admitted to graduate school, but he was still fighting for his ideals in S City. However, one day, he suddenly proposed to go to the ancient city that I had always wanted to go to. I agreed without thinking.
The ancient city was very beautiful. The city was located on both sides of a clear stream that could see the bottom. The stream flowed slowly, reflecting the ancient houses on both sides. One could faintly see the water grass that was gently washed by the stream and the fish that were slowly moving in the water grass. He reached out and touched the stream. It was cold, cold.
The green stone road of the ancient city stretched forward faintly, as if it could touch the silence of a long, long time ago. Stepping on such a path, they could quietly hear each other's heartbeats.。Thump... He clenched his hands until his fingers were intertwined. I looked at his face in response. His beautiful eyes felt the warmth from my palm. I curled my lips and leaned on his shoulder.
"You know what? I want to hold your hand like this forever.”He said softly. I looked at his side profile from my shoulder. His face was serious. I nodded hard.
There were many stalls selling all kinds of gadgets on the walls of the ancient city. I picked up a wreath and put it on my head."Does it look good?" "It looks good." He smiled dotingly. We left a photo on the city wall. His hands gently wrapped around my waist. I wore a flower wreath. We smiled faintly.
"If you were alone, you would be happy, right?”He said lightly," Why do I have to be alone?”I looked at him strangely.
"What if…what if I'm very busy and don't have time to accompany you in the future? You will take care of yourself, right?”He was a little flustered.
"Oh, I know. I'm very powerful. Don't you know that I can do anything? Of course I can take care of myself, right?”I thought that he misunderstood that I was too dependent on him.
She didn't expect this to be a farewell, this damned warmth.
After the train started moving, her phone vibrated violently. When she opened the text message, the smile on her face froze. Perhaps this second would last forever. He stood there motionlessly. Did he send the wrong message? Or was he kidding me? The phone that he called back was turned off, and the call was never connected again.
So Weijie seemed to have taken a break from my world and closed all contact methods. I guarded the phone and dialed for an entire week. A week later, it was as if nothing had happened. I went to class, finished class, did experiments, ate, and slept. It's just that I'll go to the beach and sit until dawn on the day he confesses.
A kind of yearning, two idle worries, this feeling can not be eliminated, just under the brow but on the heart.
He was talking about an idiot like me. Looking at the dark sky and sea, the sound of the sea was sometimes far and sometimes near. I had come here so many times, but it turned out that this place was originally so desolate.
" How can I relieve my worries when I'm drunk at Fanonigumi on the weekends? Only Du Kang can do that. When I'm drunk, I'm always the happiest because I can cry and laugh without restraint. I can press the shortcut key and miss you without any fear."
If I can't force it, I think I can only wait. But, that's not parting, right? You didn't even say that you didn't love me anymore. How can you break up with someone you love? I haven't seen you realize your dream yet. We haven't even grown old together. My love has already penetrated deep into my bones. How can I allow you to let go just like that? I said that I would take care of myself, so I will take good care of myself. It's just a small separation. Just like usual, you will come back to my side, hold hands, walk together, and laugh together.
Are you really going to throw me away? However, I still didn't believe it. So, I waited for you at the same place. I waited for you to come back. Even if you completely erased me, I still had to remember my happiness. But, but if you are happy leaving me, then can you come back and tell me? Because this separation is a farewell for you, but a wait for me.
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