"I'm afraid that if things continue to develop like this, the two of us will be finished. Why can he do so much for me, but I have to be protected? So I returned to the company and sat in my wheelchair. I watched coldly as he pretended to be intimate with his lover. Unfortunately, it was Zhang Man who was there that day. Both of them were uncomfortable. You know, I think I won. That night, I talked to him a lot. I even threatened him that if he really insisted on doing this, I would really never come back. It was not as simple as just hiding. I said it too seriously, and he was reluctant to do so.”
" If you really love someone, if you don't let go, it will be destruction. If you let go, it will be disappointment. No matter how much love you have, it will burn everything like a flame. No one can escape unscathed after falling in love, especially this kind of so-called abnormal love that most people don't recognize.”
"So, after eight years of separation and reunion, eight years of constant companionship, a person who has always been by your side is suddenly going to leave you forever. He promised me that we would fight side by side. He would stay in the company during the day and return to the apartment he prepared for me at night. At that time, I still treated that place as heaven. Until about half a year later, he was always a little evasive. He told me that recently, I don't know what Little Uncle was planning, but it was not good for me. He wanted me to stay at home for a while. I didn't agree, but there was nothing I could do. He actually locked me in the apartment. There were many bodyguards outside the apartment. Although she was angry at him at the time, she understood his painstaking efforts. Later on, she realized that painstaking efforts were indeed painstaking.”At this point, Chu Yin's eyes turned cold. Xu Ziang guessed that the good things would change from here on, so he did not dare to disturb him.
"An uninvited guest came to the apartment. It's true. If it weren't for him, I would have been kept in the dark like a fool. You've seen that child before. Do you still remember the waiter you met when you were eating with Lin Xiaoyu last time? I don't know why he had such courage back then. Perhaps this was the stubbornness in the Lin family's bones. No matter how docile they looked on the surface, they could not hide their fox temperament. I really should thank him."
"I don't care what his goal is. At least I know that this is the end. What I hate the most in my life is deception and betrayal. Whether it's a feigned civility or some unspeakable difficulties, why can't you tell me honestly? Why did the person who said that they would leave together dare to marry someone else so easily? He married his fiancée, whom he had always been engaged to, and locked me up in that small apartment.”
"At first, I didn't believe it, but I didn't want to tarnish the feelings that I held in my heart. After that, Lin Song pushed me to the company secretly. At least, Lin Xiaoyu didn't know about it. Then, he placed me outside his office. The door was half-open. Lin Xiaoyu was carrying me on his back while he sat face to face with a woman. His actions were not ambiguous, but rather intimate. Actually, this is nothing. I've seen it many times in the past. What was different this time was that the woman was not frivolous or demonic. She even had an unconcealable noble temperament just by sitting. If she wasn't a real noble lady, she probably wouldn't be able to pretend like this. Moreover, she was also wearing the shiny ring on Lin Xiaoyu's right hand when he raised his hand to rub her hair.”
"What would you do if it were you? Ziang, you know me best. I'm good at everything but I'm a little old-fashioned. How would I dare to destroy someone else's family? Honestly speaking, although he didn't think that being gay was a sin, it was still a matter that challenged the moral bottom line of society, not to mention being a gay third party. No matter who started the relationship first, having a status was the proper family, right?”
"Then I went back and begged Lin Song to help me to the end. He left without saying a word, bidding farewell, or asking anything. Then, I went back to the apartment to pack my luggage. With Lin Song around, the bodyguards didn't dare to stop me, so I left. At that time, he was also very confused. He didn't know where to go. He didn't want to trust anyone and was afraid that someone would use him and hurt him. Do you think I'm stupid? I thought that he would understand the meaning of my departure. I thought that we were simply finished and had nothing to do with each other. So, I came back here without any precautions. It was the only place that belonged to me for so many years. I also handed my resignation letter to the company. I thought, let's just forget about it. Isn't it fine to live alone?"
"But I didn't expect Lin Xiaoyu to be so stubborn and arrogant. He was indeed such a domineering person. On the first night, I locked the door tightly. When I heard a knock on the door and saw him through the peephole, I was nervous. It seemed that she was really panicking. Otherwise, why would she forget to take off the ring on her finger? But I'm really tired. Since you're already married and you have someone who's a hundred times better than me helping you, why bother me again? Why do you have to make that desperate expression to deceive me? You've already made your own choice, so why are you pretending? One could never have both fish and bear's paw. One could not be too greedy.”
"So I turned off the lights, all the lights in the room. He no longer cared if there was a knock on the door, a doorbell ring, or a kick on the door. He didn't care if Lin Xiaoyu was crying to his neighbors who were even more impatient than him and kept shouting that he was really inside. Because she was too tired, she leaned against the door and fell asleep in the wheelchair. She slept so drowsily that she didn't care if she was covered with a blanket or not. It had been too long since she cared about herself and she wasn't used to it. The next morning, when she woke up, her whole body was aching, but she didn't feel anything. At that time, she suddenly felt that she, who seemed calm on the surface, had no feelings for anything. She didn't want to cry, laugh, do anything, eat, or even exist in this world. That was the first time I thought of committing suicide. There were still intermittent knocks on the door, mixed with the man's tired but continuous voice calling my name like a curse. His heart softened little by little. However, some principles could not be changed.”
"When I opened the door, I saw him curled up in front of my house like a homeless man, looking at me pitifully. It was only one night, but he felt like he had aged a lot. How am I any better? Even though he was heartbroken and unwilling, he still decided to let go. He had already let me down, so how could he let others down? But he didn't leave. No matter how hard he tried, he wouldn't leave. He kept hugging me. He wanted to say some nasty things but couldn't. He was here and I was in pain. In the end, I only said faintly, but you chose to give up on me.”
"You've already made your choice, so why bother? In the end, you're already hers. After saying these words, Lin Xiaoyu calmed down and let go of me dejectedly. Look, it was so many years ago, but I still remember the details so clearly. The past was too unforgettable. The more vigorous it was, the more scars it would be. Why bother?”
"However, he didn't let me go or let himself go. He left and came back. I don't know how he opened the door. Anyway, I went back to the apartment. I went back inexplicably. There were more bodyguards outside the apartment than before. This time, they were clearly afraid that I would escape. What a joke. I'm a cripple, and I'm just a cripple.”Xu Ziang couldn't bear for him to use such a self-deprecating expression and such cruel words to describe himself. He couldn't help but hold his hand. Chu Yin shook his head and smiled bitterly, indicating that he was fine. He continued,"It was a real nightmare after that. Lin Xiaoyu became irritable and uneasy." One second, she was throwing a tantrum at me, and the next second, she was hugging me and saying sorry. In the beginning, as soon as I said let me go, he instantly became gloomy. He even took my phone and made me stay in the apartment. I couldn't go anywhere. She couldn't even contact her parents. At that time, she would quarrel with him all day long. No matter what, she just couldn't do it. I couldn't step out of that door. I was like a sparrow that was locked in a cage and shackled, isolated from the world. No matter if it was soft or hard, he would not be swayed. In the end, she suffered from mild depression. Once, when I was on the verge of breaking down, I started to self-harm. When the knife cut through my artery, Lin Xiaoyu came back. He was frightened when he saw me like that. He hugged me and roared at me heartbreakingly. I actually felt a slight pleasure when I saw him like that. From then on, I started to hurt myself from time to time. In the end, I tried to commit suicide many times. The more Lin Xiaoyu was in pain, the more he provoked me. But even so, even if both of us were covered in wounds, he still refused to let me go and gave the two of us a way out. He always told me that no matter how much I torture myself, how sad I am, or how he tortures himself, I can only be his.”When he said this, Chu Yin could not help but tremble. Xu Ziang thought that perhaps it was the memories in the apartment that caused Chu Yin to have that kind of reaction every time he saw Lin Xiaoyu.
"Just like that, two years passed. Other than Lin Song, I haven't seen anyone else other than Lin Xiaoyu in the past two years. That loneliness is like a vine that tightly entwines me. Every night, it will tightly clutch my throat until I suffocate. No one would ever understand that feeling.”
(Lights out time again. It's so painful to have no stock ~~ I already said that I'm asking for opinions, so why is everyone paying attention to me? Humph ~)
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