It was no longer needed.
I'm already a little tired of it.
This kind of constant game has no meaning to me anymore.
Or rather, it was because of the stimulation of Yang Nai Under the Snow that I felt that this game was meaningless.
Such a change is very wrong for me.
They were existences from two different worlds. Forcefully bringing them together would only cause damage and pain. If the two completely extreme individuals wanted to come into contact, they would only bring about curses and incomprehension. Under the Snow was already a woman who was about to become an adult. It was a little too overbearing of me to interfere with her future life. This kind of thinking was already too contemptuous.
It was already enough. Forget about this kind of life. I might really not be suited to be a bad person. When I saw Under the Snow trying to learn to be tactful, the shock and fear in my heart exceeded my expectations.
What did I do? Am I trying to change someone's life? If it was something I said normally, I might just say that I don't mind. However, when such a change really happened in front of him.
I feel like I did something wrong.
No, I did many things wrong.
What position did I have to be so arrogant to change someone's life?
In the beginning, it was just out of disapproval and anger. But what am I doing now? Was it a despicable revenge? Let this world revolve with me? Thinking like this was a little too terrifying.
Especially when I really did it and it yielded results.
Am I helping the snow? Or was he harming her? I let her have a very good life, but I restricted her even greater possibilities. As a push, as a manipulator, hiding behind the scenes, was that enough? Ah, he was so great than Kiya Hachiman-chan, toying with everyone in his hands. Was this good?
No, this was not good at all. I seem to be turning into the state I hated the most. In the name of the so-called enemy, in the name of the so-called help, I am completely destroying the possibility of a person. I have indeed realized this point.
"…I'm sorry, I need to go to my teacher's place first.”
I bid farewell to the snow with a slightly unpleasant expression and quickly walked towards the teacher's office.
I feel like both I and Hirazuka Shizu-sensei are in a state of extreme arrogance. We are like a chess player, an invisible hand pushing everything forward. Let these things operate according to his own thoughts. But was this behavior really correct? Looking at the slightly changed snow, I felt that my thoughts all along might have been wrong.
Was this really the right thing to do? I want her to follow the path that I, Shizu-sensei, and the future that I, Shizu-sensei, have chosen. It may seem like she is free, but in reality, all her actions are under the control of others.
Wasn't this me creating a puppet with flesh and blood but no freedom?
So disgusting.
The feeling of being controlled was really disgusting.
There was nothing more disgusting than this kind of behavior.
"Shizu-sensei Hiratsuka."
I took a deep breath and calmly opened the door to the teachers 'lounge.
Behind the door, the beautiful teacher with a cigarette in her mouth looked at me in surprise. She seemed to have just enjoyed a pleasant afternoon. After a few seconds, she immediately revealed a surprised smile at me.
"Compete in Qigu? Why did you come over directly? This was not the time to eat pork chop rice.”
"No, I want to discuss something with you.”
"What's wrong? Do you want me, your teacher, to discuss the love story of a young man? I'm sorry, but I don't have any information for you. You might as well go back and ask your sister.”
"It's about the problem under the snow."
"…Under the snow?"
Shizu-sensei Hiratsuka lit up her cigarette and revealed a puzzled expression for the first time.
"Did something happen under the snow? Didn't you say that everything is under control? What happened to her again? Or do you finally want to do something under the snow?"
"It's not that there's a problem under the snow.”
I took a deep breath.
"We have a problem."
The smile on Hiratsuka-sensei's face instantly froze.
I silently looked at the teacher in front of me, waiting for her to reflect on the true meaning of my words.
That's right, there was no problem with Snowfall, Yui Yubihama, Yino Under the Snow, and even Saiki Yoshiteru. Isn't the real problem with me, Teacher Hirazuka Shizuka, who treats people like chess pieces? The real problem can only be the two of us.
He put himself into the role of a god and pushed the development of the so-called 'plot' bit by bit, keeping everything in his palm. Because they had different interests, they were divided into two factions to manipulate each other's chess pieces.
Yangno Under the Snow's warning didn't mean that he had done anything to Yukino Yukino, but that he had done something to himself.
I am changing. He could clearly feel the changes.
It wasn't for the better, but for the worst.
Unlike everything that I could control in that dream, I could clearly feel that I was stepping into the abyss. An abyss built by arrogance and complacency. Because of the difference in status and position, because of the difference in standpoint and thoughts, my thoughts, Shizuka's thoughts, and everyone else's thoughts began to distort in this service department.
It began to distort, to change for pleasure, to turn for my personal will.
The society that should have been created out of goodwill gradually became distorted into this state under my personal will. Malice filled the air, hypocrisy filled the air. I was already aware of this, I was already aware of it.
"I've already realized it, so I have to make changes.”
Sweat oozed out of his forehead, and he felt a chill run down his spine at the change in his body.
If it wasn't for the slight change under the snow, how long would it take for me to realize the fact that my position had started to change?
How long would it take for Shizuka Shizu-sensei to realize the fact that she was starting to change?
What do we have to do to realize this?
Just thinking about it made him feel terrified.
That might be a sin that we can't pay for in our entire lives. Just because it was interesting, he was able to manipulate a person's thoughts and life. The terrifying demon that resided in a person's heart was enough to make my hair stand on end just by slightly blooming the flower of evil.
The one who really needs to be changed should be me, Teacher Pingzhong Jing. In their youth, those people's actions were correct, but we were wrong. Changing the lives of others without authorization and forcing others to choose a life they did not want could only be called evil. It was the worst form of coercion.
And we, the two of us, Hachi Kiya and Hirazuka, are threatening the chess pieces in our hands like this.
"The real problem is us.”
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