It was nine o'clock in the morning when he saw Qin Yue. The sky was covered with a thin layer of clouds, blocking the warm sunlight.
I handed her the piece of paper that was filled with words."Take a look. Can you understand what I mean?" Qin Yue opened the paper that I had folded and read the words carefully. She was silent for a while. When she looked up at me, I saw the tears in her eyes. Does she understand what I mean? I waited nervously and excitedly. I really hoped that she could understand the meaning of my Naxi language. With tears in her eyes, Qin Yue reached out to caress my thin face. It was as if every word came from the depths of her heart."Little girl, I didn't expect you to be hurt so deeply by a relationship. I don't dare to imagine how much pain that relationship has caused you, and I can't sense how deep the scar is in your heart, but…but, little girl, I can really feel your sadness, your pain. He could really feel it. I can feel it so clearly." Qin Yue cried as she hugged me and continued,"Little girl, your pain has been magnified many times. Now you only see the pain in love and ignore the only sweetness. You're scared, aren't you? You're afraid of getting hurt because you can't get hurt again, or you'll break down, right? Am I right?"
I didn't say anything. My Adam's apple bobbed. The most fragile nerve in my heart was precisely pulled by Qin Yue's words. It hurt. Qin Yue is right. She knows what I mean. She understood what I meant. I hugged her tightly and pulled her into my arms. Qin Yue cried in my arms."Little girl…I'm sorry. I didn't know you were going through such pain. I didn't force you to accept me. I can wait for you, I really can wait for you…"
"No, there's no need. I'm already very satisfied that you can understand me. It's true." I said,"Thank you for understanding me." Qin Yue, thank you." I sincerely expressed my gratitude to Qin Yue. Finally, there was someone who could understand me. Finally, I found it. Even though many people didn't understand my pretentiousness, I was still satisfied. Wasn't it?
I whispered in Qin Yue's ear,"
If there was such a day.
I stood by the nameless river, looking at the fishing fire on the river, sleeping alone.
At that time, would there be a pair of worries by my side?
He reached out and held my trembling hand.
Use a small amount of force to let me know that I'm not alone?
If there was such a day.
I sat on the boundless grassland, watching the wild geese flying south and crying quietly.
At that time, would there be an embrace to hold me?
A warm and direct hug.
Tell me that I still have someone to rely on?
If there was such a day.
I lay on the soft beach and looked at the horizon.
At that time, would there be a figure lying beside me?
There was no need for too many words.
Just to let me know that I'm not alone with silent companionship?
If there was such a day.
I can go back to the past, back to the happy and blissful moment.
Would there be other gains at that time?
An outcome that was completely different from the current situation?
If there was such a day.
I picked up my luggage and chose to wander.
Would there be a heart at that time?
Pray for my safety in an unknown direction?
If there was such a day.
You don't remember me at all.
At that time, will I silently watch your back as you leave?
He told himself that he had once loved that person…
If there was such a day.
In an unfamiliar city.
At that time, would he remember the familiar streets and bus stops?
And the familiar figure who had once accompanied him?
If there was such a day.
If that day really came.
Those who loved me and those I loved have forgotten me.
I think I will choose to forget, not forget the past.
Forgetting himself!
Throw yourself into the dust of memories.
Perhaps I will be sealed in my memories.
Perhaps I will be completely forgotten by myself in the mortal world!
I will cry.
But!
At the same time.
I will also smile…
If there was such a day.
I really laughed and cried.
At that time, would there be a you, silently wiping away the tears at the corner of my eyes?
She stood on her tiptoes and kissed the corner of my lips.
You won't ask me why I'm crying.
You won't ask me who I'm crying for.
Because…
You understand me.
After I finished reading this, Qin Yue stood on her tiptoes. Her lips were just enough to touch the corner of my lips. When Qin Yue's slightly cold kiss landed on the corner of my lips, a drop of tear flowed down her cheek and soaked my lips. It was slightly salty, but it had a different kind of sweetness.
"Little girl, can you stop writing such sad words? Your world shouldn't be filled with cold colors.”Qin Yue gazed into my eyes affectionately.
I didn't answer Qin Yue. Instead, I said to her,"Girl, I had a nightmare. In the dream, you were sucked into a huge black hole, while I was entangled by countless vines and could not move. I've never acknowledged your place in my heart. But today, I don't think I need to hide anything. I'm really afraid of losing you, very afraid.”
This is the first time I've admitted to Qin Yue that she has a very important and irreplaceable place in my heart. It was also the last time. I'll never forget Qin Yue's happy and joyful eyes after hearing my words, and the beautiful smile on her lips. All of that indicated that my acknowledgment would be a great blessing for her. I really didn't expect that I would have such an important weight in Qin Yue's heart. At that time, I also officially understood that in the world of love, I am not humble, nor should I be sad. At least, Qin Yue's love and care made me feel this way, even though I had just lost faith in love. I, thank her.
Because she cared about me, I no longer gave up on my happiness…
I originally planned to spend Christmas with Qin Yue. However, Qin Yue left after receiving a call and didn't tell him anything. However, seeing how she left in a hurry, it should be an urgent matter, so I didn't ask.
I walked alone on the noisy street, looking at the couples passing by. I seemed to be infected by the happiness on their faces, and my originally depressed mood became happy and relaxed. Bored, she walked and walked. When I got tired of walking, I sat on a chair by the roadside waiting for the bus. I lit a cigarette and placed it casually on the chair with my left hand. There seemed to be some words carved under the chair. I could vaguely feel the marks. I had nothing to do anyway, so I lowered my head to take a look.
He loves her." These three words were engraved under the chair. It was a very simple word, a very ordinary word. However, what I saw was enough to bring out the sadness buried deep in my heart. Luo Xiaoqi and I carved those three words on the wall during the summer vacation a year ago. Only Luo Xiaoqi and I know the meaning of those three words. These three simple words instantly opened the floodgates of my memories. All the memories about Luo Xiaoqi that I had locked in the depths of my heart instantly surged out like a flood, and I couldn't stop it…
Wasn't the sadness over? Didn't I cut off all ties with Luo Xiaoqi? Why did her heart still ache? Why did her heart ache? What right do I have to feel heartache? I tried my best to suppress the sadness I felt in my heart. I lied to myself over and over again. But the final result told me that everything was futile. Sorrow rose in my heart bit by bit. The pain was like needles pricking my body. Then, it connected together and gradually spread to my entire body. The pain was clear and direct. The conversation he had with Luo Xiaoqi seemed to ring in his ears again.
"Sister, shall we carve a few words?”
"Girl, what do you want to carve?"
"Hmm…I'll carve 'He loves her!”
"Why? Who knows who loves who?"
"Idiot! This is called knowing between you and me, and between heaven and earth…"
"Hehe! You're so smart. How did you think of that?"
"I saw it on TV before.”
"Oh…I said it!"
……
I got up and ran! Right now, I just want to get away from that place as soon as possible! The further he ran, the better.
Panting, I leaned against a big tree and panted heavily. The bus stop was already out of sight. And those memories became clearer and clearer.
" Ding…" The phone suddenly rang. I glanced at the caller ID: After hesitating for a moment, I answered the call."Hello, Sister Fatty."
"Mo Chen! Hurry up and come to Hohhotte."
"What's wrong?" I heard Tao Li's anxious tone, as if something had happened.
"Yes…yes…"
Tao Li stammered, making me anxious."What is it? Hurry up and say something!”
"Something happened to Little Seven. He's in the special care ward of Ews Hospital.”
"What?!" My mind went blank. Luo Xiaoqi…something happened? "What happened?" I shouted hysterically into the phone," Tell me what happened!”
" Stomach cancer…" Tao Li was already sobbing.
This news was like a bolt from the blue to me! Stomach cancer? How was this possible? How could Luo Xiaoqi have stomach cancer? My vision went black and I almost fell. Fortunately, an aunt helped me up."Young man, what's wrong?" I couldn't hear him at all. I didn't even say thank you and rushed to the roadside to take a taxi to the station.
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