I locked myself in the bathroom and leaned weakly against the door. Listening to Qiang Zi and Yao Zi's argument outside, my heart felt warm. I knew that whether it was Qiang Zi's comfort or Yao Zi's scolding, it was their concern for me. I knew that my brothers didn't want me to be manipulated by the sadness of the past, but I had greatly disappointed them. I still felt a strong sense of guilt towards Luo Xiaoqi. Until today, I finally understood what my feelings for Luo Xiaoqi were. It wasn't love, it was apology, it was guilt! Even though I don't want to admit it, this is the truth.
After the quarrel between Qiang Zi and Yao Zi subsided, I walked out of the bathroom and watched them walk to the window without saying a word and stare at the sky outside. Yao Zi stood behind me and said,""No matter how you feel right now, I'm telling you, if you want to continue being decadent, I won't care anymore. But don't let me see you!" After saying this, Yao Zi strode away. Qiang Zi waited for Yao Zi to leave before he walked over and held my shoulder. He looked at the sky and said to me slowly,"Don't blame Yao Zi, he didn't want to see you like this. But to be honest, I really don't think it's worth it for you to do this…" Hearing him say " not worth it ", I was about to retort when Qiang Zi immediately changed his words."I'm sorry, perhaps I shouldn't use the word 'not worth it', but I just want you to understand that some things are in the past, so let it be in the past. If you keep harping on it, it's disrespecting what happened in the past. Moreover, you're being even more irresponsible by being so obsessed with the past, do you understand?”I nodded slightly." I know. Maybe you're right."”Qiang Zi looked at me. He wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything. However, there was a hint of worry in his eyes. I clenched my fist and punched Qiang Zi's chest, my eyes filled with determination. Qiang Zi understood what I meant. The worry in his eyes gradually faded. At the same time, his fist heavily pounded on my chest. This is our way of encouraging each other. The meaning is simple: Brother, you can do it!
When exams were approaching, the school would always come up with a series of methods for us to revise more. They would also open a " 24-hour " self-study room and library. Of course, these measures were useless to all the "God of War" in our dormitory. It didn't matter if there was one or not. Anyway, we had never been there before. In contrast, we prefer to sit quietly in the dormitory and look at our computers. Even if it's just a daze, it's much better than revising.
On the night of December 10th, I accidentally saw this comment on Weibo:
In the blink of an eye, the first 100 days have passed for a long time…I wonder if you are doing well now? How many nights have I dreamed of you glaring at me with bloodshot eyes and roaring hoarsely on the bus? Everything seemed to have happened just now. Until now, every time I take the bus, I will think of that morning, that bus, and you at that time…I have never forgotten you. I'm sorry, I miss you. I can't bury all the memories about you. Those memories have long filled every moment of my life. Forgetting them is equivalent to changing my original way of life. Only in this way can I stop thinking about everything about you, including our love in the past...
The signature was Garfield.
It was Luo Xiaoqi! I read that message over and over again, just like that, over and over again, tirelessly reading it! She said that she still missed me. How could I not miss her? She said that she had not forgotten me. When have I ever forgotten her? 173 days after we broke up, I finally got her message again. I didn't know if I was happy or excited or sad! I completely lost my composure and my hands and feet were in a mess. Perhaps some people would say that I'm useless and spineless. However! This really had nothing to do with those things! Simply because I haven't forgotten her. Even though guilt was a major factor in his feelings for her, so what? I still can't forget her! When I see her message, I will still be excited and pleasantly surprised! I don't care anymore. I'm going to tell her! I haven't forgotten her either! I'm thinking about her too! If I can, I hope I can get her back!
My fingers quickly typed out a very short sentence on the keyboard:
If possible, come back! Actually, I've always been at the same place and never left…
"Are you sure you want to reply like this?" Just as I was about to press the reply button, Qiang Zi's voice drifted into my ears. I turned my head and saw Qiang Zi standing behind me with his arms crossed in front of his chest, looking at me with a serious expression.
"Can't I?" I asked him anxiously! I desperately want an answer! A correct answer! At this moment, I couldn't think normally at all. My heart was completely in a mess, completely in a mess…
Qiang Zi nodded his head affirmatively and said to me without any room for rebuttal,"Of course not! You took so long to let go of your sadness, and you're about to succeed! If you send these words, all your previous efforts will be in vain!”
"No, I can't! It won't happen!" I tried my best to quibble." I want her back! Qiang Zi! I want her back! I can do it! You saw it, she said she didn't forget me, she said she still missed me! I still have a chance! I didn't lose her completely. I still…"
"Bang!" Before I could finish, Qiang Zi's fist smashed into my face. I groaned and fell to the ground with my chair.
Qiang Zi grabbed my collar and pulled me up. He stared into my eyes."Wake up! That was just an ordinary greeting! You know that! Why did he have to deceive himself? Don't tell me you're so stupid that you can't even see through small talk!”I avoided Qiangzi's angry eyes and slowly turned my face. I looked at the message Luo Xiaoqi left me on the computer screen and closed my eyes in pain. Yes, Qiang Zi was right. Those were just pleasantries that had not been exchanged for a long time. I had long lost my sense of propriety and kept lying to myself. I just didn't dare to face my own failure! I don't dare to face the fact that I've lost Luo Xiaoqi forever!
"Listen up! Tell me you can do it! Then show me. Don't make me look down on you. It was just a message, and it made you so flustered. Was there a need to do that? Tell me, is there a need?" Qiang Zi roared hoarsely.
The other people in the dormitory didn't know what was going on and gradually came over to watch. Yao Zi sent them away. Then, he walked over and pulled Qiang Zi away. He looked at me in disappointment."Think about it yourself!" I sat on the floor weakly and lowered my head. In my mind, Luo Xiaoqi's message mentioned " glaring with red eyes and roaring hoarsely "…
During the summer break of my freshman year, I didn't go home. Instead, I went to Hohhotte to visit Luo Xiaoqi. At that time, she was already my girlfriend.
After a day and a night of travel, the train finally arrived at Hohhotte Station at 9:10 a. m. When I pulled my suitcase out of the train station, I looked at the unfamiliar city in front of me and looked for Luo Xiaoqi in the unfamiliar crowd.
"Baby!" Following this familiar voice, Luo Xiaoqi's tall figure entered my sight. That day, Luo Xiaoqi was wearing a purple Nadia sportswear and a blue baseball cap. She stood not far away and waved at me.
I waved my hand and saw Luo Xiaoqi jumping to my side like a happy bird. Standing in front of me, Luo Xiaoqi looked at me with a smile. She reached out and pinched my face. She said something that made me not know whether to laugh or cry."I finally see him in person again!”Then, he glanced at my long hair and raised his eyebrows. He said to me teasingly,"You look like my sister!”
"Sister?" I smiled bitterly. I couldn't compare to Luo Xiaoqi's way of thinking.
Luo Xiaoqi chuckled and didn't explain. She hugged my arm and rested her head on my shoulder."Let's go! Sister!" He pulled me towards the bus stop.
Not long after we got on the bus, I noticed that Luo Xiaoqi's face was pale. I supported her worriedly and asked with concern,"What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?”Luo Xiaoqi, who was leaning weakly in my arms, forced a smile.""I'm fine. I'm just a little carsick."
"Carsick? Why didn't you say so earlier?" I held her in my arms with one hand and used half of my body to protect her as I squeezed towards the back door. There were too many people on the bus that day, and Luo Xiaoqi and I were separated. She was squeezed behind me by a few people. When I looked back, Luo Xiaoqi could no longer hold on and her body slowly collapsed. I tried my best to squeeze through, but there were too many people. I couldn't move at all. I could only watch as Luo Xiaoqi fainted.
"Get the f * ck out of my way!" I'm anxious! I'm angry! He glared at her with bloodshot eyes and roared at the top of his lungs," F * ck! Get lost!" I pushed aside the few passengers in front of me with both hands and squeezed towards Luo Xiaoqi with a roar!
"Someone fainted! Stop the car!" Someone shouted, and the bus stopped with a squeak. Everyone was pushed forward by inertia. At this time, I had already squeezed to Luo Xiaoqi's side. In order to protect Luo Xiaoqi in the chaos, I didn't know how many times I was stepped on. I turned my head and saw a fat man's big belly bumping into me. I was afraid that he would bump into Luo Xiaoqi, so I didn't have time to think and used my shoulder to support the fat man's big belly. Fatty was knocked back two or three steps by me and knocked into many other passengers. At this moment, I couldn't care less. I picked up Luo Xiaoqi and squeezed towards the back door.
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