Xi Yan looked at Hao Yun, who was sitting opposite her, with a blissful smile.
Although her hand injury had not fully healed and would hurt if she used a little strength, she still felt very happy.
During the past few days when she was injured, Haoyun had come to visit her every day. In fact, she knew that he did this because she was injured because of him. Even so, she was still very happy because this was the first time Haoyun cared about her so much! If she wasn't injured, he would still ignore her like before.
Therefore, although she had no choice but to stay in her room these few days, she was very happy every day. The days that should have been very difficult turned into anticipation every day, anticipating Haoyun's appearance.
The only fly in the ointment was that Haoyun always stayed in her room to read books. He never played chess with her or talked to her. It made her very bored and almost bored to death.
She seemed to be too greedy, right? Actually, as long as she could see him and know that he was by her side, she would be very happy. People couldn't be too greedy. If he didn't want to talk, she would just look at him quietly.
How could someone be so good-looking! Xi Yan praised in her heart. This was a face that she could never get tired of looking at.
Ren Xiyan's undisguised passionate gaze stopped on his face for a long time. Finally, Hao Yun admitted defeat.
Who could stare at the same thing for two hours without getting tired?
He put down the book in his hand and looked into Xi Yan's eyes helplessly. "Tell me, what is it?"
"What is it?" Xi Yan blinked her big eyes and asked.
"You've been staring at me. Don't you have something to say to me?”
"I want to talk to you! But since you're not saying anything, I want to see you!”Xi Yan said innocently.
Looking at her pitiful appearance, Hao Yun shook his head and smiled. "Don't pretend to be pitiful, as if I'm bullying you.”
"You didn't bully me. You're so good to me! You've been accompanying me for the past few days. You don't know how happy I am!”
Hao Yun looked at Xi Yan's sweet smile. For some reason, his mood suddenly became heavy.
How could this girl be so innocent? He was so cold to her, why couldn't she understand?
Xi Yan had never hidden the fact that she liked him. No matter how cold he was to her, her attitude towards him had never changed. She had always been chasing after him.
Facing Xi Yan like this, Hao Yun was really helpless.
To be honest, he did not know what he thought of Xiyan. He was cold to Xiyan because that was his personality. He would only be warm to the person he liked, so he did not deliberately treat her coldly.
It wasn't that he didn't like Xi Yan, but he was sure that he liked someone else. How could he be close to Xi Yan? If he acted too much, wouldn't Chao Yan misunderstand that he was trying to kill two birds with one stone?
Because he felt the need to draw a clear line between him and Xiyan, in the eyes of Chaoyan and the others, he was too cold to Xiyan. He knew this, but he could not change his attitude. If he changed, Chaoyan would misunderstand. What he was afraid of was that Xiyan would think that he was interested in her. Then, wouldn't he be even more unable to get rid of her?
Because of this, he always felt that he owed Xi Yan, but he could only hide this feeling in his heart and treat Xi Yan coldly.
Unexpectedly, Xi Yan still did not change her attitude towards him. She always let him know that she liked him and always made him feel guilty.
The colder he was, the better Xiyan treated him, and then he was even colder to her. In this vicious cycle, the distance between him and Xi Yan grew further and further.
"I really don't understand." "What's so good about me that you'd risk your life for me?" he asked emotionally.”
"I don't know either!" "I didn't think too much about it then. I just didn't want you to get hurt." I didn't think about what would happen to me. All I could think about was you.”
"Sigh!" Hao Yun sighed and looked at her weakly." Why would you think that? Don't you know that you are the most important?”
"That's not true! To me, brother Haoyun is a hundred times more important than me.”Xi Yan said without hesitation.
Hao Yun felt as if his heart was being pulled by an invisible string. He couldn't tell what it felt like. Was it love, sympathy, or touching? He couldn't tell. He only knew that he seemed to be moved by this little girl.
In such a complicated mood, his hands involuntarily reached out. For the first time, he used his hands to embrace her.
"Brother Haoyun?" Xiyan felt like she could barely breathe. Haoyun was hugging her! Heavens, this was his hand, his chest, and his body temperature. How could such a thing happen! She couldn't believe that she was so "lucky" that she almost fainted from excitement.
Hao Yun hugged this unexpectedly soft body tightly and sincerely said to her,""Thank you. Xiyan, thank you."
What did he mean by Xie Xiyan? Was he thanking her for getting hurt while protecting him? Or should he thank her for her unwavering love for him? He didn't know either.
In short, he just wanted to thank her. This was his current mood.
That was the case for now, but what about in the future?
No one would know what would happen to him in the future. It would depend on the arrangement of the heavens…
"Sister, what is it?”After dinner, Chao Yan took Xi Yan's hand and went to her room. Xi Yan felt strange when she saw Chao Yan's mysterious expression.
Chao Yan closed the door and pulled her sister's hand to sit down at the table.
Sister is so strange! It was the first time Xiyan had seen Chaoyan acting so mysteriously.
Holding her sister's hand, Chao Yan gently touched the wound on Xiyan's left wrist. "Does it still hurt?"
"A little." Fortunately, the scar was not dark. If one did not look carefully, one would not be able to tell!
Chaoyan looked at her sister with heartache." Has Haoyun seen this scar of yours?”
"No, I haven't." Xi Yan smiled nonchalantly. "It's good that he doesn't look. I don't want him to feel guilty about me!”
"Xiyan, tell me, how much do you love him?”This scar was actually the answer, but Chaoyan still wanted to hear it from Xiyan herself.
"Sister!" Xiyan blushed. Chaoyan's question caught her off guard. "You know, I've always liked Brother Haoyun…"
"Do you like him so much that you can even give up your life?”
"Yes." Xi Yan nodded shyly. "I really like him! I think even if I marry someone else in the future, I definitely won't forget him!”
"Marry someone else?" "Why do you say that?" Chao Yan asked anxiously. Didn't you always want to marry Haoyun?”
" I do, but…" Xiyan looked at Chaoyan sadly. "Sister, I am no longer a child. Of course I know who Brother Haoyun likes. He likes you. He has always liked you! Don't worry, I won't snatch Brother Haoyun from you. I know he's yours…"
"Wait!" Chao Yan hurriedly interrupted her. "What do you mean? What Haoyun is mine? I never thought so."
Xi Yan's eyes widened. Chao Yan's words really shocked her. "But Brother Haoyun likes you!”
"It's his business that he likes me. I've never said that I like him!”
What? Xi Yan could not believe what she heard. Did she hear wrongly?
Chao Yan held her hand tightly and smiled."Xiyan, I'm not lying to you. I've always treated Haoyun as a good friend and a reliable big brother. I've never thought of staying with him forever.”
Xi Yan gulped and asked in confusion,""Don't you like Brother Haoyun?"
"How should I put this?" Chao Yan pondered for a while and said," I like Haoyun, but not like what you say. I like him purely. There's no love between men and women. Do you understand what I'm saying?"”
In fact, what Chao Yan said was half true and half false.
If it weren't for Xiyan, she would have accepted Haoyun.
She really liked Haoyun. It had started from the first time she saw her when she was twelve.
She couldn't remember when she started to stop thinking about Haoyun. Now that she thought about it, maybe it started when she found out that Xiyan liked Haoyun too!
She did not think that she could not win over Xiyan, and she had no reason to give in because everyone knew that she was the one Haoyun liked. She could be with Haoyun in a legitimate way and would not be criticized by others.
The reason why she chose to quit was because she realized that her love for Haoyun was far less than Xiyan's.
Everyone loved themselves the most. This was human nature, and she was no exception.
However, there was someone who was different, and that person was Xi Yan.
Ever since she met Haoyun, she only had eyes for him. Haoyun was the most important person to her, more important than herself.
Chaoyan knew that she could not be like Xiyan. Compared to Xiyan, her feelings for Haoyun could be said to be insignificant.
She didn't love Haoyun enough, at least she thought so.
Therefore, she chose to withdraw and truly treat Haoyun as a friend. As time passed, she was even more certain that she had made the right choice.
It was right to give Haoyun to Xiyan because she would never love him as much as Xiyan did.
Xiyan's injury explained everything, didn't it?
Chaoyan's words made Xiyan want to cry and laugh at the same time. She never knew that Chaoyan did not treat Haoyun as a lover at all. She felt guilty and felt that she was really bad because at this moment, she was very happy that Chaoyan looked at Haoyun like this.
" Sister, you…" Could it be that Chaoyan pitied her and wanted to give Haoyun to her?
"Don't let your imagination run wild!"
After all, she was her younger sister. Chaoyan knew what Xiyan was thinking.
Chao Yan touched Xi Yan's confused face and smiled gently.""He should be yours, shouldn't he? Because you love him with your life!”
" Sister..." Xiyan blinked her teary eyes and said,""Are you really willing to give him to me?”
"This isn't giving in. It's fate, understand?" Chao Yan smiled.”
" But..." Xiyan's eyes were filled with worry. "Even if you don't love Brother Haoyun, the person Brother Haoyun loves is still you! He won't give up on you just because you don't love him. We all know that he's not that kind of person, right?”
"Are you so sure that it's impossible?”Chao Yan shook her head. "Why don't you have any confidence in yourself? Since you see him as more important than your own life, why don't you give yourself a chance to try?”
Xi Yan looked at Chaoyan, her clear eyes filled with tears. "I…I gave myself many chances!”
"Sister, you know it very well, don't you?" she said sadly. Brother Haoyun knows that I like him, very, very much, but he never looks at me again. His eyes are always chasing after you. In his heart, I might not even be comparable to a passerby…"
"Don't say anymore!" Chao Yan hugged Xi Yan, her heart aching. "I'm sorry. I didn't know you were in so much pain.”
It was her negligence as an elder sister. Because Xi Yan always used her cute smile to hide her true feelings, she made everyone think that she did not care and that she would not be hurt. Poor Xiyan, she must be in pain!
"Sister, what do you think I should do?”" I love him so much, but he won't even spare me a glance," Xi Yan said faintly." Am I that annoying?"”
"Don't think that way. You're cute and beautiful. You can't have no confidence in yourself!”
Xi Yan raised her head, and two streams of tears flowed down slowly. "Sister, do you know? I often think that if I were you, it would be great. Then brother Haoyun would like me and I wouldn't have to suffer so much.”
"Xiyan, don't say such depressing words.”Chao Yan wiped away the tears on Xi Yan's face. "Listen to me. You have to try. Find a day to make things clear with Hao Yun, tell him how much you love him, and that you can't lose him. Perhaps he will change his opinion of you and reevaluate you.”
"But sister, Haoyun already knew that I liked him, didn't he?”
"I know that, but liking and love are different. Haoyun knows that you like him, but have you told him that you love him?”
" This..." Xi Yan tugged at the corner of her shirt helplessly. "How could I say this to him face to face? Which girl would take the initiative to say this to a boy?”
"This is it." Chao Yan said with certainty. "Liking and loving are different. Maybe Hao Yun thought so because he often heard you say you liked him. He thought you were joking and not serious. In other words, he didn't take your words seriously.”
"Is that so?" Xi Yan had no reason not to believe Chaoyan's words, but she was still skeptical.
"Brother Haoyun will think that I'm not serious? It had been six years. Could it be that he had thought so for the past six years?”
"Don't forget that when you first told him that you liked him, you were still a little girl who didn't know anything in his eyes! Although this is my one-sided guess, I think it's possible, isn't it?”
Xi Yan nodded. The more she listened to Chao Yan, the more she felt that Chao Yan was right. If Chaoyan's analysis was correct, did that mean that she still had hope?
"Sister!" She grabbed Chao Yan's hand and said anxiously,"Then what should I do? Teach me!"
Chao Yan's expression was so serious. "Go on, Xiyan. Confess to him and tell him that you love him.”
"Can…can I really do this?”
"Silly girl, of course you can." Chao Yan encouraged the uneasy her. "No matter how Haoyun will react, you must let him understand that you love him. If you can't even take this step, he will never take your words seriously.”
"Yes." Xi Yan nodded.
Chaoyan was right. At this point, she had no choice but to do this.
She did not want to wait another six years.
The next day, Xi Yan came to Prince Rong's residence alone with an uneasy, nervous, and excited heart.
"Xiyan, what's the matter?" Seeing Xiyan, Hao Yun was a little surprised under his usual cold expression because Xiyan looked especially different today.
Her face was unusually red, and her black and round eyes were especially bright. Her red little mouth squirmed and trembled from time to time, as if she wanted to say something but did not dare to say it.
" Brother Haoyun..." Xiyan held her breath and looked at him. She had clearly practiced it many times at home, but once it was real, she was so nervous that she couldn't say anything.
"Just say what you want to say." Haoyun did not show any impatience, perhaps because he thought that Xi Yan, who was gasping for breath, looked too cute!
Xi Yan took a deep breath again and told herself not to be afraid. She looked at Hao Yun and mustered her courage to say,""Brother Haoyun, I want to tell you something.”
"What is it?"
"I…I love you…"
"I know that."
What? Xi Yan was stunned. Hao Yun's answer was so straightforward and cold. It was completely not what she and Chao Yan had guessed.
"You…you know?" She couldn't help but stutter.
Hao Yun's face was expressionless, which made Xi Yan panic.
Why didn't he react at all? If he didn't react, how would she know what he thought of her?
"Of course I know." Hao Yun looked at her emotionlessly as usual. "However, you should also know that the person I like is Chaoyan, right?”
"I know." Xi Yan replied while holding back her heartache. "But, sister, she…she…"
She couldn't bring herself to say it. She couldn't bear to hurt him. She couldn't hurt him the way he hurt herself.
Xi Yan's stuttering made Hao Yun's cold expression turn even colder. "Chaoyan asked you to come, right?"
Xi Yan was shocked. She shook her hands and denied in a panic," No, I wanted to come..."
"Do you think I'll believe you?”Hao Yun suddenly grabbed Xiyan's wrist, his tightly clenched fingers pinching Xiyan's wound, making her clench her teeth in pain.
However, she didn't show her pain. She just looked at the angry Hao Yun with a sad expression.
That's right, Haoyun was angry. He was angry at Chaoyan and at Xiyan.
What did Chaoyan say to Xiyan? What did these sisters take him for? Should he let his younger sister accept things that his older sister did not want? What were they thinking? Did he still exist in their eyes?
"Go back and tell Chaoyan that I won't let her off. You have to prepare her mentally, understand?”
Hao Yun vented all his anger on Xi Yan. After he finished speaking angrily, he shook off Xi Yan's hand forcefully.
Haoyun's merciless swing not only hurt Xiyan's hand but also broke her heart.
"And you!" Hao Yun glared at her with a cold gaze that he had never seen before. "You forced me to say it. The person I love is Chaoyan, not you. Whether Chaoyan and I end up together or not, it has nothing to do with you. I've already made it so clear. You can do whatever you want!”
What should he do? Xi Yan could not see Haoyun clearly anymore because her tears blurred her vision. Before she could cry, she dragged her weak body and left Hao Yun.
Hao Yun did not see her off. He thought that he had finally angered Xi Yan to run away.
Although Xi Yan had left, her crying face was deeply imprinted in his mind, and a deep sense of guilt lingered in his heart.
He was cruel, he was heartless, but he had no choice.
In order to make Xiyan give up on him, he had no other choice!
Chaoyan had been waiting for her in her room while Xiyan was gone.
Chao Yan's nervousness and uneasiness continued until Xi Yan returned.
Chao Yan was shocked and angry when she saw Xiyan crying so hard. "Why are you crying like this? Was it Haoyun? Did he bully you?"
However, no matter how Chaoyan asked, Xiyan did not say a word. She just kept crying.
Chao Yan let go of Xi Yan and ran to the door angrily. "I'll go find him and ask him!" This was too much!
"Sister!" Xi Yan rushed forward to hug her. "Sister, don't!"
"Xiyan…"
" I beg you..." Xi Yan knelt on the ground and cried.
"Xiyan." Chao Yan also cried. She hugged her sister's trembling body. "What happened? What should I do if you don't speak?”
"I don't want it anymore, I don't want it anymore…"
"Xiyan?" Chao Yan looked at her younger sister, who was shaking her head vigorously, in surprise. "What do you not want?"
"I don't want him anymore!" Xi Yan cried. "I'm in so much pain. I don't want to be in so much pain anymore.”
Chao Yan hugged Xi Yan with heartache.
God, what did Haoyun tell Xiyan? The optimistic and lively Xi Yan had never cried so sadly before!
That hateful Haoyun had actually made Xiyan so sad. She must find him tomorrow and ask him about it.
No one could predict what would happen tomorrow.
Chao Yan was the same. She didn't expect Hao Yun to come to Prince Yi's residence early in the morning and specifically wanted to see her.
When Hao Yun arrived, Xiyan, who had cried the whole night, was still sleeping. Chaoyan had to face Hao Yun alone.
Chao Yan led Hao Yun to the back garden. Very few people would pass by here. It was a secret place where they could talk.
"What did you mean by doing that yesterday?”Hao Yun spoke aggressively.
"I'll help you and Xiyan." Chao Yan replied straightforwardly.”
"Help me and Xiyan?" Hao Yun glared at her angrily and gritted his teeth.""What a good girl, Chaoyan. You're really thinking too much about me! Don't you know who I love?”
Chao Yan looked apologetic. "I'm sorry, I can't accept you.”
"What did you say?" Hao Yun approached her, his handsome face twisted. "Say it again!" He wished he had heard wrongly.
"I'm sorry." Chao Yan muttered in pain. "I can't accept you because I don't love you!”
Chao Yan's mouth, which could not be closed in time, was suddenly blocked. She widened her eyes and looked at Hao Yun's face, which was above her.
A pair of tearful eyes watched this scene from under a big tree not far away. More and more tears gathered in her eyes, and she finally couldn't help but let out a soft sob and ran away.
No one knew when she came, and of course, no one noticed when she left.
Perhaps, among the three of them, she had always been a dispensable character! Without the attention of the person she loved, she was small and humble.
The two of them were still hugging each other.
Chao Yan was dumbfounded at first. Her mind was blank, and she did not think of pushing Hao Yun away. When she finally came back to her senses and pushed Haoyun away, this short kiss might have been just a few blinks to her, but to Xi Yan, who had secretly followed her, it was the most painful moment of her life.
"What are you doing!" Chao Yan was so angry that she slapped Hao Yun's face hard.
Hao Yun did not care about being beaten at all. He looked at Chao Yan eagerly. "I've wanted to do this for a long time! If I had kissed you earlier, perhaps things wouldn't have become so complicated.”
"You're wrong!" Chao Yan said angrily. This has nothing to do with time. It's a question of whether I love you or not!”
"I will make you fall in love with me." Hao Yun reached out to hug her, but Chao Yan hurriedly retreated.
"Don't touch me again!”Chao Yan looked at him angrily. "Why don't you understand? I can't love you as much as she does. The person who can give you happiness is not me, but Xiyan!”
"Don't make your own decisions, okay?"
Chaoyan's resistance to him made even the most cultured person angry.
"You want me to marry someone I don't love? Do you think that will make me happy?”Hao Yun asked sternly.
"Do you really not love Xiyan?" Chao Yan asked. "If it weren't for me, you would've fallen in love with Xiyan, right?”
"What about you?" Hao Yun looked at her deeply. "If it weren't for Xiyan, you would've fallen in love with me, right?”
Chao Yan was immediately stunned.
Hao Yun had stumped her. She had never thought about this problem. If it wasn't for Xiyan, then her feelings for Haoyun…
Her confused eyes met Hao Yun's passionate black eyes. Under his gaze, which did not hide his feelings for her, her body became very hot and her heart beat very fast.
This man loved her so much! Like Xi Yan, he was in pain because he could not get a response from his sweetheart.
At this moment, the love that she had buried deep in her heart suddenly surged into her heart.
The feelings that she had deliberately avoided and tried hard to convince herself that she had given him to Xiyan because she did not love him enough emerged again at this moment.
She…might still love this man!？
When she focused her gaze on his face again, she realized that his handsome face was right in front of her.
"No!"
She hurriedly wanted to escape, but he was one step ahead and hugged her tightly.
"Please, we can't do this!”Xi Yan's crying face seemed to be right in front of her. Chao Yan desperately wanted to push Hao Yun away.
She could not let Xiyan down!
But Hao Yun didn't let go of her. "I won't let you go again." He greedily sniffed her hair.
"No, Xiyan…"
"Don't mention Xiyan anymore!" Hao Yun grabbed her shoulder and shouted. "Why can't you see my pain? I love you so much that I'm going crazy. I miss you so much that I'm going crazy!”
Chao Yan desperately resisted his hug and every word he said. "I can't let Xiyan down. Xiyan can't live without you!”
"I can't live without you!"
Chao Yan instantly forgot to struggle. She looked at the man who was hugging her tightly in shock.
Seeing that she had finally stopped struggling, Hao Yun released her slightly. His slender fingers gently brushed past Chao Yan's trembling lips and gently cupped her face.
"I love you! Chaoyan." He sighed. "Please don't run anymore. When you give Xiyan a chance, give me a chance too, okay? I love you. I don't want to lose you! Can you try to love me? Tell me you can."
Chao Yan felt like her heart had been captured. He had captured her heart, and she was shocked to find that she could not say no to him.
She admitted that he had never touched her heart, but at this moment, he did.
His gentle gaze seemed to be telling her his feelings for her. He was passionate and sincere, and he held her deeply.
She looked at him, her eyes no longer showing any signs of resistance. When he reached out to her, she did not reject him and let him hug her.
She leaned against his warm chest and apologized to Xiyan in her heart. She couldn't reject him now, so she'd just let them be like this for now, for now…
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