The next few days were not easy for the three of them.
To Hao Yun, his happiness was completely in Chao Yan's hands. A word from Chao Yan could decide whether he would go to heaven or hell.
He did not meet Chaoyan at this sensitive time because he was afraid of giving her pressure. No matter how much he wanted to get an answer from Chaoyan immediately, he still endured it and let Chaoyan have time to think about their future.
Haoyun was like this, and so was Chaoyan.
However, Chao Yan had to consider more and the pressure on her was heavier. Because she still had to think of her beloved sister, Xiyan.
To Chaoyan, everything was a mess. The thing that she thought was the most impossible had happened. Her feelings for Haoyun…Sigh, she didn't know what she wanted anymore.
She was actually moved by Haoyun, what did this mean? Did she mean that she was wrong and that she had always loved Haoyun? She should not have given Haoyun to Xiyan, which resulted in their relationship becoming so complicated? Or was it that she had been deceiving him and avoiding the true feelings in his heart?
Heavens! How did things turn out like this? Things shouldn't be like this!
She was completely at a loss. She did not know what role she should play among the three of them. She was even more confused about her own feelings. This was the first time she felt that everything was so chaotic since she was born. She couldn't make sense of it and couldn't do anything about it.
Because she was so confused and helpless, coupled with her guilt and guilt towards Xiyan, she did not notice her sister's abnormality.
She did not know that Xi Yan was now in hell.
Ever since she saw Haoyun and Chaoyan kissing, the intimate scene between the two made Xiyan, who thought she could still challenge her fate, completely accept her fate.
She buried her feelings for Hao Yun deep in her heart, planning to bury this feeling forever.
She locked her heart and endured the pain alone.
She chose to wish Chaoyan and Haoyun well. They were the most compatible. As for her, it was all her own wishful thinking from the beginning to the end. It was already a very good ending for two of the three of them to be happy, wasn't it?
As for what would happen to this extra her, no one would care!
It had been five days, and Xi Yan had not left the house. She locked herself up and licked her wounds alone.
This wound was so deep and heavy. It was impossible for her to completely take back her six years of love and longing in a short period of time. As she tasted what it felt like to be in so much pain that she wanted to die, she began to doubt whether she had the courage to survive this period of time.
How long would it take for a wound that could not be healed in a few days to return to its original state? One year, two years, or six years?
If it really took six years, she would rather die than die.
This was too painful. She was afraid that she wouldn't be able to withstand it and just wanted to be free from this pain.
When she was in the most pain, it was also when the rain was the heaviest. It had been three days and three nights, and the heavy rain in Beijing had not stopped.
The heavy rain continued to fall, just like Xi Yan's tears, as if it would not stop for a day.
Did the heavens sympathize with her? When she hid and cried, the sky cried with her.
In the middle of the night, the rain that knocked on the window woke Xi Yan up. She touched her wet cheeks and laughed to herself that she was even in her sleep. Her tears were still flowing.
Her eyes were tearing up, and so was her heart. She felt so tired. When would she be able to free herself from this pain?
In a daze, as if a force was guiding her, she opened the door and walked out barefooted.
The heavy rain that carried the raging wind hit her mercilessly. She was soon drenched in thin clothes. The cold rain seeped into her skin, making her feel as if she was in an ice cellar.
It was so cold! Although it was summer, it was raining heavily late at night. Walking barefoot on the wet ground was no different from walking on snow.
On such a rainy day, why did she have to come out of the warm room to get wet? To be honest, she didn't know either.
Perhaps, she would only wake up a little if she was drenched from head to toe!
However, even if she was awake, what could she do? Wasn't the pain when he was awake even deeper and clearer than when he was muddleheaded? If that was the case, why did she need to wake up?
She didn't know, she really didn't know. She only knew that she had to move forward, move forward…
"Ge Ge, you…Why are you here?”When the guards at the back door saw Xi Yan running out in the rain in the middle of the night, they were all shocked.
Xi Yan ignored the guards and continued to walk forward with a confused expression.
" Ge Ge…" The guards wanted to stop her, but they didn't dare to. They could only send someone to report to Prince Yi.
Ge Ge, please return to your room!" Two guards stood in front of Xi Yan, blocking her way.
"Move aside!" Although Xi Yan was not very conscious, she stubbornly pushed the person in front of her away.
"Ge Ge…"
"All of you, get out of my way!" Xi Yan, who rarely got angry, still had the dignity of Ge Ge when she got angry. She said sternly to the two of them,""No one is allowed to obstruct me or follow me. Otherwise, I'll bite my tongue and commit suicide in front of you!”
The guards were shocked by Xiyan's words and immediately stopped moving. After all, if anything happened to Ge Ge, they would not be able to bear the consequences.
Hence, Xi Yan left Prince Yi's residence without any hindrance.
When she realized where she had gone, it was already a long time later.
This was a small river behind the Prince's mansion. She still remembered that when she was young, she would often cling to Hao Yun and ask him to bring her here to play.
Because of the heavy rain that had been pouring for days, the river that was usually flowing slowly was now surging like the sea. The momentum was very shocking.
Xi Yan stared blankly at the rapid river, thinking that if she jumped down from here, she should be able to immediately relieve all the pain!
A strong attraction led her to the river. The closer she got, the more frightening the sound of the river was. He would be free soon. As she thought of this, a smile appeared on her face, and her hesitant steps quickened.
When both her feet were immersed in the river at the same time, the rapid river water almost made her fall because she could not stand steadily.
Thus, she staggered towards the center of the river. As she watched the river water under her feet gradually rise up to drown her legs, her heart was extremely calm.
He was about to throw away all the pain and be free.
Just as the river water was about to reach her thighs, a powerful external force suddenly hugged her from behind.
" Xiyan, what are you doing?!"
Was it Chaoyan's voice? Xi Yan still looked back with a dull expression. The person who hugged her was Chao Yan.
"Sister, why are you here?"
Seeing that Chaoyan was as wet as she was, Xiyan, whose face was as pale as paper and mind was blank, still could not figure out the situation.
However, she immediately woke up because Chao Yan had slapped her hard on the face.
"You idiot!" Chao Yan immediately hugged her tightly and in pain.
"It hurts, sister…"
"What are you doing? You almost scared me to death, do you know that?”
Chaoyan's sweet voice sounded a little hoarse because she kept calling Xiyan by the river. She hugged Xiyan tightly, afraid that she would do something stupid again if she let go.
"Why are you so stupid? You actually want to die!？Why? Just because Hao Yun said he didn't want you?”
" Sister..." Xi Yan was completely awake now. She could not help but wail. "I'm in so much pain! My heart hurts. I don't want to continue suffering for him. I'm really tired…"
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" Chao Yan hugged her sister and the two of them cried. It was all her fault! Putting aside the entanglement between her and Haoyun, as her elder sister, she had been too negligent towards Xiyan recently. If she had discovered her pain earlier, Xiyan would not have done anything stupid today.
At this time, the rain was getting heavier. Even if the two of them hugged each other, their four feet were still unable to withstand the rush of the river. It looked like they were about to lose their balance.
If this continued, she and Xiyan would definitely be washed away by the river. Thinking of this, Chao Yan pulled Xi Yan to the shore.
"No!" Xi Yan started to struggle and shouted,""Sister, don't worry about me! Let me stay here!"
"How can I let you stay here alone?”Chao Yan hugged her tightly. "If you want to die, I'll die with you! Let's stay here together."
Seeing Chao Yan's determined expression, Xi Yan's throat tightened and tears fell from the corners of her eyes.
" Sister, don't be like this…" She cried sadly. "If anything happens to you, Brother Haoyun will be very sad.”
Chaoyan stared at her intently." If anything happens to you, not only will I be very sad, I don't think I'll be able to live either.”
" Sister..." Xiyan was speechless. After all, God had treated her well. Although she could not get the sincere response of the person she loved the most, she did not lose her brothers and sisters who loved her the most and took care of her the most.
She stopped crying and nodded." Alright, I'll go back with you."”For the sake of her sister who loved her so much, she should cherish herself.
Chao Yan hugged her in relief. Then, the two of them supported each other and carefully walked to the shore.
At this moment, their father, Prince Yi, finally arrived with his men.
Seeing his precious daughters standing in danger in the river, Prince Yi was shocked but did not forget to remain calm.
"Chaoyan, Xiyan, stay where you are and don't move. I'll come and save you immediately!”After Prince Yi shouted, he immediately went into the water himself. The guards at the side saw this and quickly followed him to save them.
"Ama is here to save us!" Chao Yan said happily to Xi Yan.
"Sister, I'm sorry!" Xi Yan looked apologetic.
" Don't say that…" Chao Yan smiled gently at her sister. She still wanted to say something, but God did not give her the chance.
It was unknown if it was because Chao Yan's feet slipped or the river water became more rapid, but just as Prince Yi was about to grab onto Xi Yan's hand, Chao Yan's body suddenly fell backward. Then, she let go of Xi Yan's hand and was washed away by the river!
This sudden turn of events made everyone present dumbfounded. Xi Yan was the first to come back to her senses. She screamed and reached out to grab Chaoyan.
"It's dangerous!" Prince Yi reached out and caught Xi Yan, who was almost washed away by the river. Unfortunately, he was too late. He could not save his other daughter.
"Sister! Sister!" Tears welled up in Xi Yan's eyes.
As she shouted, Chao Yan was drowned by the raging river.
"No!" She cried out in despair, unable to believe this cruel reality.
Unable to take the blow, her body went limp and she fainted in her father's arms.
When Hao Yun arrived at the scene, it was already two hours later.
The river in front of them was illuminated by dozens of torches as if it was daytime. Countless people were looking for Chao Yan in the river.
The rain had stopped, but the cold and damp air after the heavy rain still made people shudder.
He wanted to rush over and join them in their search, but when he saw Xi Yan crouching at the side, he rushed over and pulled her up without thinking.
"Xiyan, why are you here?”Hao Yun didn't know what had happened at all. The news he received was only limited to Chaoyan falling into the water.
" Haoyun..." Some of Xiyan's wet hair was still stuck to her face. She looked haggard and helpless. Although she was wrapped in a clean robe, her drenched body could not help but tremble violently when the wind blew.
When she saw Haoyun, Xiyan, who had finally calmed down, instantly broke down! She grabbed Hao Yun's hand and cried,""Brother Haoyun, hurry up and save sister, she's gone!”
"What exactly happened? How did Chaoyan fall into the river?" Xi Yan's crying made Hao Yun's heart tighten. He, who was usually calm, lost control and shouted at Xi Yan.
"It's all my fault! If it wasn't for saving me, my sister wouldn't have been washed away by the river!”Xi Yan said as she cried.
What? Hao Yun was stunned. He looked at the sobbing Xi Yan and muttered,""Chaoyan did it to save you? Are you saying that Chaoyan fell into the river because you ran here?”
" Brother Haoyun..." Xiyan did not know how to face Haoyun." Wu…Sister did all this to save me. I should be the one who was washed away, not Sister. It's all me. It's all my fault…"
Hao Yun couldn't stand it anymore. He left Xi Yan behind and ran to the shore as fast as he could.
Although it was no longer raining, the river was the most turbulent he had ever seen. His eyes were red as he looked at the surging river. His pale face made people's hearts ache.
" Brother Haoyun..." Xiyan staggered to Haoyun's side weakly. Seeing Haoyun staring at the river with red eyes, she felt an unspeakable apology and heartache.
She knelt down in front of him. "Brother Haoyun, I'm sorry. You can scold me and hit me!”Xi Yan cried at his feet. If Haoyun could hit and scold her, she would feel better.
Because her sin was unforgivable, she caused Haoyun to lose the person he loved the most.
Hao Yun's black eyes were still staring at the river. He could not see Xi Yan crying.
" Brother Haoyun..." Seeing that Haoyun ignored her, Xiyan felt as if her heart was cut by a knife.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry. There were thousands of apologies in her heart that she wanted to say to Hao Yun, but she knew that Hao Yun wouldn't listen. Because Hao Yun hated her, just like how she hated herself.
She had never hated herself so much. Why wasn't she washed away by the river? If Chaoyan was really killed by her, then she…God, she didn't dare to think about it anymore.
"I won't forgive you!" Hao Yun finally spoke.
Xi Yan looked at Hao Yun blankly, feeling suffocated.
Although it was just a short sentence, Hao Yun's grief could be heard. At this moment, Xi Yan really wished that she could exchange her life for Chaoyan's.
Chaoyan couldn't die. If she died, Haoyun's smile would disappear forever!
Hao Yun, who was originally motionless, suddenly grabbed Xi Yan who was kneeling on the ground. His angry face burned her heart, and the nails on her arms made her moan in pain.
"Brother Haoyun?"
"I won't forgive you!" Hao Yun fiercely said word by word. "If anything happens to Chaoyan, I won't forgive you for the rest of my life!”
After saying that, Hao Yun threw her to the ground. The already weak Xi Yan could not help but faint from the heartache.
Hao Yun did not look at Xi Yan anymore. He rushed into the river and slapped the water crazily.
"Chaoyan, where are you? Come back!" His painful cries echoed in the valley…
Chaoyan did not return in the end.
Prince Yi and Hao Yun Bei Lei had mobilized hundreds of people to search the river for more than ten days, but in the end, it was all for naught. Chao Yan had disappeared from this world like thin air.
No one knew if Chaoyan was alive or dead. Logically speaking, she should have died because based on the situation at that time, her chances of survival were really slim. She did not know how to swim, so it could be said that she had no chance at all.
However, in the absence of Chaoyan's corpse, the people who loved and cared for her were unwilling to believe that she was dead. Everyone held onto a glimmer of hope and believed that she was still alive.
However, a month had passed, and this hope was getting slimmer and slimmer.
One afternoon, Prince Yi's residence seemed to have guests, and they were important guests. Ever since Chaoyan's disappearance, Prince Yi's residence had never been so lively.
The kitchen was extremely busy. The servants in the residence came and went, all busy with these sudden guests.
However, no matter how busy the Prince's mansion was, it had nothing to do with Xiyan.
Xi Yan only knew that these seemed to be uninvited guests because Prince Yi and his wife were still immersed in the pain of losing Chaoyan. It was impossible for them to entertain guests at this time.
However, no matter who it was, Xi Yan was not interested in knowing.
As long as Chaoyan did not appear, she would not be able to return to the innocent and lively Xiyan of the past. After losing Chaoyan, her heart had also died!
Finally, the noise outside stopped. The guests seemed to have left.
Not long after the noise stopped, a servant girl reported from outside her room,""Ge Ge, wangye and the Fujin invite Ge Ge to the main hall immediately.”
Ama and Mother were looking for her? Xi Yan did not think too much and immediately got up to follow the servant girl who came to report to the hall.
"Ama, Mother." When Xi Yan arrived at the living room, she realized that her parents had a heavy expression on their faces, as if something had just happened.
"Xiyan, do you know who just came?”Prince Yi asked Xiyan.
Xi Yan shook her head. "Ma, is it someone I know?”
"It's Prince Rong." Prince Yi sighed.”
Is it Hao Yun's Ma? "Why did Brother Haoyun's mother come to our house?" Xi Yan asked in surprise and confusion.”
"He's here to propose marriage." The Fujin looked at Xiyan and said,"Xiyan, Prince Rong is here to propose marriage to Haoyun because he wants to marry you."”
Upon hearing this, Xi Yan's already big eyes widened even more, and her small mouth also opened wide because she was too shocked.
Haoyun wanted to marry her? Did she hear wrongly?
She had not seen Hao Yun for a month. From the day Chaoyan fell into the water, they had not seen each other again.
Hao Yun's words,"I will never forgive you in this lifetime!"”It was constantly ringing in her ears. To Haoyun, it was no different from killing Chaoyan. How could she still have the face to face Haoyun?
Hao Yun must hate her to death. This was an ironclad fact.
She thought that she and Hao Yun would never meet or talk again, but now, Hao Yun wanted his Ma to propose marriage. This…How could she believe this?
She thought that Hao Yun must want to kill her. If Hao Yun really did this, she would be very happy to die in his hands. If doing so could make Hao Yun feel better, she could give him her life at any time.
Haoyun should have done this. This was Haoyun's style! In the end, it had nothing to do with her guess. Haoyun actually wanted to marry her? What was going on?
" Ma, Mother…" She looked at her parents in confusion.
Prince Yi sighed again. "Sigh, your mother and I are also confused. To be honest, we are still confused until now.”
Prince Rong's sudden visit had already shocked them enough. They did not expect him to come for their only son's marriage. Prince Yi and his wife were truly shocked!
Just like Xi Yan, they did not believe it!
Haoyun clearly loved Chaoyan. Now that Chaoyan's life was uncertain, he wanted Xiyan to be his wife. What was his intention?
"Ama, did you reject the marriage?”Xi Yan asked softly.
"No, I haven't. Since he came to propose marriage personally, I have to give Prince Rong some face!”Prince Yi said helplessly.
"Yes, yes!" The Fujin held Xiyan's little hand and said gently," Xiyan, don't worry. Your mother and I will handle this. We'll go to Prince Rong's residence tomorrow and we'll meet…"
"Mother, I want to marry Brother Hao Yun.”Xi Yan interrupted the Fujin and said firmly.
What?
Xi Yan's shocking words stunned Prince Yi and his wife. They looked at each other with a puzzled expression.
"Xiyan, what are you talking about?" The Fujin asked nervously. You're going to marry Haoyun, it's not like you don't know Haoyun…"
"I know that brother Haoyun likes sister.”Xi Yan unexpectedly said calmly. "However, you should also know that I have always liked Brother Haoyun, right? My biggest wish in my life is to marry brother Haoyun. Now that brother Haoyun is willing to let me be his wife, I am too happy. How can I reject him?”
"Is what you said true?" Prince Yi looked at his daughter sternly.
"Yes!" Xi Yan nodded at Ama.
" But, this..." The Fujin still couldn't understand."Mother knows that you have feelings for Haoyun, but it's different now! Chaoyan, she…Logically speaking, he should have waited for Chaoyan to come back, but he wants to marry you at this time. This…"
Xi Yan's beautiful face was twisted in pain. Thinking of her poor sister, her heart felt like it was being stabbed by thousands of needles.
"Chaoyan won't come back!" Prince Yi said in pain.
"Your Highness…"
"Chaoyan is already dead." Prince Yi looked at the Fujin."We can have hope for Chaoyan, but we can't expect Haoyun to be like us. Who Hao Yun wants to marry is his freedom, how can we interfere with him?”
"I can interfere if he wants to marry my daughter!”The Fujin was trembling with excitement. "Both of them are my daughters. How can I not care? Don't you find it suspicious that he's doing this now? I've already lost one daughter. I don't want to lose another!”
The Fujin hugged Xiyan and cried on her shoulder.
"Mother, don't cry!" Xi Yan patted the Fujin's back to comfort her. "You and Ama will not lose me and sister. I believe that sister is still alive. We have to have confidence in her!”
" Xiyan..." The Fujin caressed her daughter's thin face.
"When sister comes back, I will return brother Haoyun to her!”
Prince Yi and the Fujin were shocked.
"Xiyan, do you mean you still want to marry Haoyun?”Prince Yi asked anxiously.
"Yes." Xi Yan knelt down slowly. "Please Ama and Mother, I want to marry Brother Hao Yun.”
" You…" Prince Yi and the Fujin looked at each other, speechless.#
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