She would return Brother Haoyun to her sister, so before her sister came back, she would take care of Brother Haoyun on her behalf!
With this thought in mind, Xi Yan's mood was as calm as the surface of the water during the 20 days from the marriage decision to the wedding.
Although this was something she had dreamed of, her biggest wish since she was ten years old, she did not feel the slightest joy or emotion in her heart. This was because she, as a bride, was marrying the person she loved the most with the intention of atoning for her sins.
She knew better than anyone else that Haoyun didn't marry her because he loved her. He had never loved her, right?
Then why? Only Hao Yun himself knew the answer!
Although she wasn't Hao Yun, she could guess most of it.
Other than his hatred for her, she really couldn't think of a reason why Hao Yun wanted to marry her.
Prince Yi and his wife had also thought of this, so they had opposed this marriage from the beginning.
How could parents bear to let their daughter marry a husband who hated them when they knew that they would not be happy if they married him?
But Xiyan still got married! For Haoyun and Chaoyan.
She had lived on behalf of Chaoyan. She had the responsibility and obligation to make Haoyun, who loved Chaoyan deeply, happy.
Regardless of whether Haoyun could accept it or not, she had to do this. For Chaoyan, she would work hard.
Finally, on this day, she married the man of her dreams.
In the huge bridal chamber of Prince Rong's residence, she could only hear her own breathing.
Logically speaking, a bride should not be left alone in the bridal chamber. However, from the moment she entered until now, she did not seem to have seen any servants or indispensable bridesmaids appear.
Could it be that Hao Yun didn't want them to come in to accompany her? Or were these people never involved in this wedding?
Time passed slowly. Xi Yan, who had not eaten since morning, was so hungry that she felt dizzy.
She didn't know what time it was, but she guessed that it should be late at night because she felt that she had been sitting on the edge of the bed for several hours.
The phoenix coronet on her head hurt. She was tired, hungry, and thirsty.
There were a few times when she wanted to lift the veil herself, but in the end, she held back. She still hoped that her lover would lift the veil for her.
But why did he make her wait so long? Where did Hao Yun go?
Didn't he know that she had waited so long and was tired? Was there something important that was holding him back, or had he forgotten about her?
She waited and waited. Finally, she fell asleep, exhausted and hungry. After an unknown period of time, the wedding veil on her head was suddenly lifted, and she was immediately woken up by shock!
"Ah!" She could not help but scream. When she saw the person in front of her clearly, she was so frightened that she quickly closed her mouth. "Brother…Brother Haoyun?"
It was her Brother Haoyun. He was looking down at her, making her face heat up and her heart beat wildly.
This was how he attracted her, no matter when or where.
Hao Yun did not let her think too much. He pulled her up from the bed. Her delicate brows furrowed slightly because his actions were a little rough.
"Take off your clothes!" After saying that, Hao Yun took off her phoenix crown and moved his hand to her chest.
Xi Yan instinctively used her hand to protect her chest, but Hao Yun pushed her away mercilessly.
"Don't you want me to help you undress? Alright, do it yourself!" Hao Yun let go of her, took a few steps back, and then began to take off his clothes in front of her.
Xi Yan did not dare to look at him. Her head hung low.
Hao Yun quickly took off his clothes. When he saw that Xi Yan did not do as he said, his cold voice rose.
"Don't you want to do it? Alright, I'll go then!" Hao Yun bent down and picked up the clothes that he had just taken off.
When Xi Yan heard his words, she quickly looked up. When she saw that Hao Yun was about to put his clothes back on, she quickly called out in panic," Brother Haoyun, don't go. I'll do it, I'll do it…" Because she didn't want him to abandon her, she said something that she didn't dare to hear.
Hao Yun looked at her expressionlessly and then took off his clothes.
Xi Yan looked at Haoyun's naked body with a red face and a heartbeat. She had never seen other men's bodies, so she could not compare them. But even so, she thought that there shouldn't be a man in this world who was more fit and tall than Hao Yun.
His tight lines and strong muscles were evenly distributed throughout his body. When her gaze moved to his crotch, she immediately closed her eyes and did not dare to look anymore.
How embarrassing! After all, the real thing was different from what she had heard and imagined. Although she had only taken a look, her body felt strange. She felt that she was very strange!
"If you keep looking, the sky will be bright!" Hao Yun urged her impatiently. "Are you going to take it off or not? I don't have so much time to waste with you.”
Xi Yan's trembling hands quickly moved on her clothes. Her heart ached so much that she held back her tears.
This was her wedding night! However, she did not feel the slightest bit of sweetness. To Hao Yun, sharing a room with her was just an obligation that he had to fulfill. That was why he was so impatient. Perhaps, he was not willing at all.
Perhaps seeing that Xiyan was too slow, Hao Yun came over and pulled off her undergarment, then took off her underwear.
He pressed her naked body against the bed, and Xiyan, who was bearing his entire weight, panted uncomfortably.
Seeing Xi Yan's pained expression, Hao Yun's face revealed a cruel and cold smile.
There was no caressing, no sweet talk, no foreplay, as if he was in a hurry to complete something.
" Ah!" Xiyan's scream did not stop Hao Yun.
"It hurts!"
Xi Yan couldn't help but scream. The pain of being penetrated made her wish she was dead.
"No! No!" She kept beating Hao Yun's strong chest, and every time he moved, she would cry in pain.
Hao Yun completely ignored her cries and struggles, but instead moved even faster in and out of her body. He used all his strength to go in and out.
" No…" Unable to stop him, Xi Yan could only cry bitterly. The warm and moist liquid flowing out of her lower body was like the tears on her face. At this moment, she was in so much pain that she could not think of anything and her consciousness was gradually blurring.
Hao Yun's gaze never stopped on Xi Yan's face from the beginning to the end. He only cared about getting satisfaction from this body. As he did not slow down, the sound of flesh colliding echoed in the room.
Blood slowly flowed down her fair thighs. Her trembling legs seemed to be telling the owner of this body the pain.
Xi Yan cried until her voice was hoarse. The pain of being torn apart again and again made her feel as if she was in hell.
After an unknown period of time, a warm current burst into her body. Then, everything seemed to have stopped.
The thing that was no longer hard in her body was roughly pulled out. She thought that it would no longer hurt, but she felt the pain of being torn apart.
In the midst of the pain, she seemed to hear something.
Although she couldn't open her eyes due to the pain, she could clearly hear Hao Yun's voice.
"You deserve this. You can't blame anyone else!”
She deserved it? Xi Yan could no longer think about it and could only let herself fall asleep.
Xiyan had been bedridden for three days.
Because of Haoyun's merciless treatment, she was physically and mentally exhausted. It was also because the pain was unbearable when she moved. In order to avoid the pain, she could only lie on the bed and not move.
In the past three days, Haoyun had not appeared at all. Without Haoyun, the gorgeous bridal chamber seemed rather deserted. This made Xiyan understand why people said that it was difficult to live alone.
Physical pain was nothing, because it would heal one day. What really made her feel pain was the wound in her heart. As long as Haoyun didn't forgive her, her heart would never recover.
On this day, she felt that her private part injury was no longer a problem, so she walked out of the room to take a walk and get some fresh air.
As she walked, she met someone who was beyond her expectations.
"Ge Xi Yan!" The person who called out to her was Yuanheng Bei Zi. He ran towards her in a hurry.
"Yuanheng Bei Zi, why are you here?”Xi Yan still remembered the grudge between Yuan Heng and Haoyun. Because of Yuan Heng, the scar on her left wrist was still there. It seemed like it would never disappear.
This scar was proof of her love for Haoyun, and she would never forget it for the rest of her life. As for Hao Yun, she thought that he definitely didn't remember!
Seeing Xiyan's sad expression, Yuan Heng thought that she was unhappy to see him. He said embarrassedly,""I'm really sorry about what happened last time. Your injuries should have recovered, right?”
"Thank you for your concern.”Xi Yan smiled gratefully at Yuan Heng.
Yuan Heng looked at her cute smiling face and said with a smile,"" Actually, I really wanted to visit you at that time, but it was my subordinate who injured you. I was afraid that Prince Yi would not welcome me, so..."
"I've long forgotten about that." Xi Yan didn't want him to blame himself anymore, so she immediately changed the topic.""By the way, why are you here?”Wasn't he afraid of having a conflict with Haoyun again?
"Oh, it was Haoxue who asked me to come. We only met recently because Haoxue kept asking me to come to the residence of Prince Rong. Originally I didn't want to come, you also know that Baylor Haoyun might still have prejudice against me, but I couldn't persuade her, so I could only come here to disturb her.”
"So that's how it is!"
Yuan Heng suddenly sighed. "I didn't expect that after not seeing you for a few months, you would actually become the Fujin of the Haoyun Baylor. It's really a little out of my expectations!”
Yuan Heng quickly explained when he saw Xi Yan's confused eyes,""Xiyan, don't misunderstand. I didn't mean anything by it. I heard that Haoyun has feelings for your sister Chaoyan. I always thought that he would marry your sister.”
Hearing this, Xi Yan thought of Chaoyan's fall into the river and could not help but show a sad expression.
Yuan Heng knew that he had misspoken again and hurriedly said,"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you sad. You must be very upset that such an unfortunate thing happened!”
Xi Yan shook her head and forced a smile."It's okay. I'm fine."
How pitiful! Yuan Heng looked at Xi Yan in fascination.
Before they got married, Xi Yan was lively and cute. After they got married, Xi Yan had become gentle and elegant. She even had the charm of a young woman. If it wasn't for the slight worry between her eyebrows, Xi Yan would definitely have the capital to charm men now.
Sigh, he was really careless! He originally thought that Hao Yun's target was Chaoyan, but he didn't expect that he wouldn't even let his sister off when Chaoyan was gone. If he had known earlier, he would have snatched Xi Yan away earlier. He was too careless and it was too late to regret now.
It was not easy to meet the person he liked. Yuan Heng had a lot to say to Xi Yan, but unfortunately, someone came to disturb them at this time.
Haoxue came here because she found that Yuan Heng was missing. "Yuan Heng, so you're here!”
Yuan Heng smiled apologetically at Haoxue, who was panting for him. "I'm sorry, Haoxue. I couldn't wait for you, so I walked around alone.”
In fact, Yuan Heng had sent Haoxue away on purpose. It was not easy for him to get this chance to enter Prince Rong's residence. If he could not see Xiyan, then wouldn't his trip be in vain?
Haoxue's expression was very ugly, but it was not directed at Yuan Heng, but at Xi Yan who was standing beside Yuan Heng.
As she walked, she saw the two of them chatting happily from afar, as if they were good friends who had not seen each other for a long time.
This made her even more disgusted with Xiyan. She was already married, yet she was still flirting with other men. She didn't care if Xi Yan wanted to seduce men, but she actually dared to do it to Yuan Heng! Yuan Heng was the person she liked. She had created an opportunity to get to know him with great difficulty. No matter what, she would not give Yuan Heng up to this fickle woman.
"So you're with my sister-in-law!”Haoxue walked to Xiyan's side and smiled maliciously.""Speaking of my sister-in-law, her body is really delicate! Yuan Heng, do you know? This is the first time Xiyan has shown her face ever since she married into my family!”
"Ah?" Yuan Heng really didn't know whether to listen or not. This was a family matter and he had no right to interfere. However, Haoxue was going overboard. He saw that Xiyan's expression had changed, turning pale and solemn.
"Yuan Heng, let Haoxue accompany you! Sorry, I'll go back to my room first." Xi Yan did not want to argue with Haoxue at all. She just wanted to leave.
She wanted to leave, but Haoxue, who hadn't vented her anger enough, didn't want her to leave. She stood in front of her and continued to mock her in an exaggerated tone. "Yo, can't I say a few words as your aunt? My good sister-in-law, you don't have to vent your anger on me! My big brother doesn't want to come back to this house. I think it must be because he can't stand your face that's no different from a dead person. Sigh, my poor big brother is really pitiful! It was no wonder that she married someone she didn't like at all. How could she teach him to be happy? If it were any other man, he would definitely be like him. How pitiful!”
" Xi Yan..." Yuan Heng looked at Xi Yan in a daze. His position prevented him from asking his question.
Xiyan was naturally angry. Even if she did not want to argue with Haoxue, who was difficult to deal with, she believed that anyone who heard these words would be angry. She looked angrily at Haoxue, who smiled smugly at her.
"I didn't know you cared so much about Haoyun until today. If Haoyun knew you cared so much about him, he would probably be moved to tears!”Xi Yan could not help but mock Haoxue.
"No, no!" Unfortunately, Haoxue's simple brain could not tell. She wanted to embarrass Xiyan even more and continued smugly,"You're really pitiful! You and my big brother have only been married for a few days, and my big brother is already sleeping in another room. Yes, I'm a girl, so it's not good for me to make random guesses, but I still can't help but think, is there something going on between you and my brother? Is it because you didn't satisfy him as his wife tonight?”
Xiyan's face turned even paler. She asked Haoxue in a trembling voice,""You mean Hao Yun has been sleeping alone these past few days?”
Ha, make her even sadder! "Yeah!" Hao Xue said proudly. Your new house is in the east, right? She didn't know if it was intentional or not, but Yang had moved to the guest room on the west side.”
Xi Yan immediately ran to the west.
"Xiyan!" Yuan Heng watched her leave with heartache. He turned around and said to Haoxue with anger,""I know that an outsider like me shouldn't speak, but please forgive me for being presumptuous. Haoxue, you're really too unkind to your sister-in-law.”
" I..." Haoxue was stunned. She didn't expect Yuan Heng to blame her.
"Please forgive me for saying goodbye." Yuan Heng turned around and left without looking at Hao Xue again.
"Yuan Heng!" Yuan Heng walked so quickly and anxiously that Haoxue could not catch up even if she wanted to.
"Damn it!" She stomped her foot in exasperation. "It's all your fault, Xiyan, remember this!”
Xi Yan soon found the house Haoxue mentioned.
It was a house with a front hall and a backyard. It was a little smaller than the house she was living in now, but it was just as comfortable and luxurious.
It didn't look like a guest room. Haoxue wasn't lying. Hao Yun should be staying here.
The closet was full of Haoyun's clothes, and there were inkstones and brushes on the table with dried ink. Her husband, who never stepped into the new house again, lived here.
Xi Yan sat weakly on the chair. Her heart felt like it had a big hole, and despair gripped her deeply.
Did he hate her that much? Not seeing her face, not talking to her, not sleeping with her. Was he planning to torture her like this when he married her?
Xi Yan hugged her body with her arms. She suddenly felt cold. She had always been optimistic, but now, she only had despair and no hope for her future.
Her tearful eyes looked around helplessly. Suddenly, she saw something very familiar.
This was…She had seen a golden hairpin in a book. She recognized this exquisite and beautiful golden hairpin as Chaoyan's at a glance.
She couldn't be wrong, because this golden hairpin was a gift from Ma to Chaoyan for her sixteenth birthday. About half a year ago, she accidentally lost this golden hairpin when she was traveling with Hao Yun. She couldn't find it no matter how hard she tried. For this, Chaoyan was very distressed because this golden hairpin was her favorite hairpin.
No wonder Chaoyan couldn't find it no matter how hard she tried. It turned out that it was with Haoyun!
Holding the golden hairpin carefully in her hand, Xi Yan muttered with tears,""Sister, I miss you so much!"
She really missed Chaoyan! She did not believe that Chaoyan was dead, but where was she? If she was still alive, why hadn't she come back yet?
Where was his sister? How was she? Did she still remember her sister? Did she know how much she missed her?
Once the tears flowed out, they could not stop. Xi Yan could not help but cry. Crying might mean that he would never be able to see Chaoyan. It was useless to cry. Not only could she not comfort Haoyun who had lost Chaoyan, but she was also hated by him to this extent.
What should she do? Haoyun didn't let her get close to him at all. How could she make Haoyun happy for Chaoyan and herself?
"Who allowed you to come here?"
A cold voice suddenly sounded behind Xiyan. She quickly turned around.
"Brother Haoyun?" Standing behind her was Haoyun, whom she wanted to love but could not.
"You haven't answered my question!" Although Haoyun tried his best to maintain his usual coldness, Xi Yan could tell that he was angry because she knew him so well. She could tell his mood just by his voice.
" I... because..." Xiyan bit her lip and gathered her courage."I'm your wife, aren't I? Can't I come into your room?”
Hao Yun sneered. "You're right. You can come in, but what if I don't want you to?”
Xi Yan looked at him silently, her heart aching so much that she did not want to say another word.
The silence between the two did not last long because Hao Yun saw the thing in Xi Yan's hand.
"Give it back to me!" Hao Yun grabbed her hand and snatched the golden hairpin away.
"This is big sister's…"
"It's Chaoyan's, not yours!" "You don't have the right to touch Chaoyan's things. You're not worthy!" Hao Yun said coldly.”
Xi Yan's body started to tremble, and her face was as pale as a piece of paper.
"Why?" Xi Yan looked at him with tears in her eyes. "Since you hate me so much, why do you still…"
"Why did she marry you?" Hao Yun first laughed softly before his gaze suddenly turned cold.
"What do you think?" he asked. "You're not smart enough, but you're not so stupid that you can't guess it! Chaoyan died because of you. Do you think I married you for any other reason other than to punish you?”
As expected! Xi Yan no longer had any doubts in her heart. Poor her, she still had a glimmer of hope.
She hoped that he still had feelings for her, even if it was friendship. Even if he treated her like a little sister like before, it was fine. As long as he still had a little bit of feelings for her, she would accept it with a smile no matter how he treated her.
So all of this was just her wishful thinking! Now, she could give up.
"I'm sorry." She knew that she deserved to die, but she still had to make things clear. "I know that no matter what I do, I can't get my sister back…"
"You can't!" Hao Yun interrupted her with a rough voice. "Do you want to be Chaoyan's substitute? Hmph, you're too naive!"
He suddenly grabbed her shirt and Xi Yan was shocked by his sudden action.
Hao Yun held her so tightly that she could barely breathe.
"Do you want to be Chaoyan's substitute?”Hao Yun asked again.
" No…" Xi Yan panted,""I…I just want to give you happiness on behalf of my sister.”
"Give me happiness?" Hao Yun laughed loudly. "Haha…this is the funniest joke I've ever heard.”
Haoyun's laughter made Xiyan's heart ache even more, and tears fell down her face.
She suddenly realized that she had become a crybaby. The tears she had shed in the past few months were more than the tears she had shed in the past 16 years combined.
Hao Yun laughed for a while, then stopped and glared at her fiercely.
"You want to give me happiness in Chaoyan's place? I didn't expect you to be so overconfident! You can't even be Chaoyan's substitute. What else can you do?”
Hao Yun pushed Xi Yan away after he finished speaking. Xi Yan lost her balance and fell to the ground.
" Brother Haoyun..." Xiyan stared at him helplessly. Did he know how much her heart hurt?
Hao Yun probably didn't know because he continued to say words that hurt her. "Do you want to know what you are in my eyes? I'm sorry, I don't even know myself. Because I only have eyes for Chaoyan. Your existence is dispensable to me. I only cared about you because of Chaoyan. If you weren't Chaoyan's sister, I wouldn't even look at you!”
Enough! Enough! Xi Yan covered her ears tightly. He had hurt her badly.
She struggled to get up from the ground, wanting to immediately escape from this man who had completely broken her down.
"Where are you going?" Hao Yun grabbed her wrist, not letting her leave.
"Let me go!" Xi Yan cried. "I'll only make you feel uncomfortable if I stay by your side! You'll feel better if you don't see me, won't you?”
She didn't want it anymore. She had given up. She was too naive and stupid to think that she could comfort his hurt heart on Chaoyan's behalf. Now that she knew that it was impossible, what was the point of staying here?
"You want to leave? No way! Haven't you always wanted to marry me?" Hao Yun read her thoughts from her eyes. Everything she said was right, but he would not let her go.
Xi Yan tried hard to stop her tears and looked at him sadly. "I know this is all my fault. I've given up. Just let me go. This is good for both of us.”
"What are you talking about!"
Hao Yun's big hand tightened around her wrist, and the pain from the scar he left behind rushed straight into Xi Yan's heart.
"Didn't you hear what I said just now? I said I would punish you, didn't I? Before I punish you enough, you want to leave just like that? I'm sorry, I can't do it!"
" You..." Xi Yan gasped. She looked at the man in front of her who refused to let go.
"What do you want?"
Although Haoyun's handsome face was smiling, Xiyan felt a chill run down her spine.
He finally smiled for her, but it was not the kind of smile she wanted. This smile was born from his hatred for her.
"Come on!" Hao Yun did not say anything else and pulled Xi Yan to the bed.#
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