To whom do I say I love you?
14 I’m in a hurry to stop the merchant, and the woman’s heart is in a panic to reject the person she likes

Sha Fuping

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Zheng Qinglan felt like her soul had been taken away. She went back to her room and sat in front of the table in a daze. Suddenly, she saw Shang Liu Xin's key on the table. The roll of paper under the table flashed in her mind. She didn't know if she had taken these things away. What if her father saw them when he came to collect the things? Or if someone else saw them, they would talk about it for a long time. He hoped that she had already taken it. It was such an important thing and it concerned his reputation. She should be very cautious, but it was still better to take a look. Zheng Qinglan took the key, opened the door, and walked to the desk. She reached her hand in and felt a roll of paper. Zheng Qinglan was shocked and her heart pounded. She took it out and opened it. It was the roll of paper he saw when he was looking for the match last time. He rolled up the paper, put it in his pocket, and walked out. He locked the door and walked back to his room in a few steps. He opened the paper, held his breath, and read ten lines at a glance.

A Letter to a Minister

Respected Minister So-and-so:

My name is Shang Liuxin, I am a clerk in the coal mine of the village of Heiwang Village in Yangliu Town. I am 22 years old this year. The following is the process of my relationship with Chen Sanfu, the secretary of the party office in Yangliu Town. Please make a decision for the weak woman and punish this unpardonable heartless person.

One day, my classmate told me that a person had asked her to pull strings and said that he really wanted to make friends with me. On March 4th this year, I met the person she was talking about at my classmate's house. From that day on, I met Chen Sanfu. On March 7th, Chen Sanfu came to my house and we confirmed our relationship. On March 10th, Chen Sanfu came to the coal mine where I worked and said that their village was playing a movie. He came to pick me up to watch the movie, so I followed him to his house. After dinner, the whole family went to watch a movie. I went out with him. When I went out, I saw that he was wearing less, so I asked him to wear more clothes. It was cold at night, but he said that there was no need. Halfway there, he told me that he felt cold and wanted to go back to add more clothes. So we went back together. After entering the door, he said that the movie had already started and that he couldn't watch much back now. It was better to talk at home for a while. We chatted for a while. He said that he was tired and wanted to rest. He said that he had to make arrangements for me before he went to rest. He brought me hot water and let me wash my feet. When I washed my feet, he took my shoes out and said that he would bring clean shoes for me to change into. However, when he came in, he didn't take my shoes. Instead, he said that he would carry me to the bed. I told him not to do this, but he didn't say anything. He carried me to the bed and even kissed me. He said to me,"Take off your clothes and rest. I swear on my character that I won't do anything to you."”I listened to him, but I didn't expect him to hug me and kiss me desperately. He even reached out his hand…Just like that, that night, I turned from a young girl into a young woman.

On March 25th, he came to the mine and said that he was here to accompany me. I told him that I was not clean and asked him to leave, but he refused. He said that he only wanted to see me and accompany me. He would definitely respect me. In the end…

On April 10th, he drove me to the street and said that he wanted to see me. After dinner, he said that he wanted to go to a place to get something and asked me to accompany him. He told me that he couldn't drive there because he was afraid of being criticized by the leader. He wanted to walk there. I walked with him until ten o'clock before we arrived at the place he mentioned. There was a grassland in front of the place. He said that he was tired and wanted to sit on the grass for a while. After we sat down, he hugged me. I told him that these few days would be a dangerous period. He said that it was better this way. He had wanted children for a long time. Here, he once again vented his monotonous instincts.

……

On June 20th, I told him that I hadn't had my period for two months and that I might be pregnant. He took me to the hospital for a check-up and confirmed that I was indeed pregnant. He said to me,"I've just been transferred to work in the town. Now that I have a child before I get married, the leader must have a bad impression of me.”I didn't agree, so he begged me and promised that if I aborted the child, he wouldn't ignore me. He would come to see me every day and wash my clothes. He also said that we would get married when I recovered. Just like that, I aborted the child. But after he sent me back, he never came to my house again. I was angry and anxious. I suddenly fell ill and had a high fever. I was unconscious. My father called him to come and see me. He said that he wanted to accompany the leader to the countryside. He didn't have time. My mother asked someone to send him a letter saying that I was sick. I kept calling his name in my sleep. He was indifferent. My brother went to the town courtyard to look for him, but he hid and didn't see me. Later on, I found out that his relative had introduced him to a girl who was selling commercial grain. I once found him and begged him to take responsibility for a girl's reputation, but he said that he had lost his virginity and let me take advantage of him. I didn't expect to meet a beast worse than a pig or a dog. I went to complain to the director of the Women's Federation. The director told me that freedom of love and freedom of marriage are advocated now, and the Women's Federation can't interfere. Is my reputation and innocence going to be ruined in the hands of a hooligan who claims to be responsible for a girl with his party spirit? Shouldn't such a beast be punished? I admit that I was too rash, but I treated him sincerely and wanted to marry him. However, he lied to me, played with my body and feelings, and then mercilessly abandoned me. Such a scumbag is too hateful.

Respected minister, please listen to the cry of a weak woman who craves respect and true love but was heartlessly abandoned and humiliated. Give the wicked their due punishment and give justice to the weak woman who is in pain!!

Zheng Qinglan was so angry that her whole body was shaking. The papers kept shaking with his hand, making a buzzing sound.

Despicable and shameless! It was a despicable plan, a blatant toying, a heinous betrayal, a shameless quibble, and an extremely cruel and heartless act. He did not care about the reputation of others. He only had animal desires in his bones and only had his own interests in his eyes. He did not care about friendship at all. The so-called promise was just a lie without any sincerity. Where was the justice if such a thing was not punished? What bullsh * t freedom? What bullsh * t law? Wasn't this kind of behavior destroying a person's second life? Why was the law indifferent?

Shang Liu Xin, oh Shang Liu Xin, you brought this upon yourself, why did you hand over everything to a guy who didn't even know the details? Why should he listen to the manipulation of a hooligan with ill intentions? Why didn't he grasp the bottom line that a woman should have?

But in the end, his sympathy for Shang Liu Xin won over his blame for her, and his anger towards that treacherous man won over the excuse that it had nothing to do with him. No, I have to help her and comfort her wounded heart. But how can I help her? Find that guy and tell him about Shang Liu Xin's current situation. Make him change his mind. He works in the town, so it shouldn't be hard to find him. But who am I? Even Shang Liu Xin's advice was useless, so what effect would my words have? Such a dog had long fed his conscience to the dogs. His heart was as black as hell. This path would not work at all. He might as well stab that dog and throw him into the mountains to be torn apart and eaten by wolves. Not to mention that he didn't even dare to kill a chicken, even if he killed that dog, he would lose his life. It was indeed not worth it to exchange his life for that filthy dog's life. Using his own pen to write something and expose the despicable actions of that lowly person would definitely cause Shang Liu Xin to suffer a second time. What he needed now was not to make a big fuss but to put down the flag and let people slowly forget about this matter. The only thing he could do now was to let Shang Liu Xin settle down and give her some comfort, to let her walk out of that shadow. Zheng Qinglan was shocked by the sudden thought. What are you doing? Are you trying to fill yourself in? Why should you compensate for the sins of others? No, you only plan for yourself and put Shang Liu Xin's pain aside. If you let her go like this, will you feel at ease? Aiya, why are you so wishy-washy? You think so much and look ahead and back. You want to save the person struggling in the water but care about your own safety. You can only watch the drowning person drown. Accept your fate. Who asked you to not watch the weak suffer and the evil get complacent? This is your life, go quickly, if you're late, Shang Liu Xin will leave and you might not be able to find her in this lifetime. It's decided. Don't hesitate anymore. I have to put this thing back to its original place. I can't let Shang Liu Xin know that I've seen it. Otherwise, she will feel inferior. Trembling, Zheng Qinglan rolled up the papers and put them back in their original places. Then she locked the door and quickly rode to the station. Seeing a bus coming from afar, Zheng Qinglan's heart jumped to her throat. Hurry, you must overtake the bus. He pedaled quickly. The bus bumped on the road full of stones and made a squeaking sound from time to time. When he rode on the main road, the bus was still far ahead. There were still a few miles to go before the bus could get on and off passengers. There was still a chance to catch up. Zheng Qinglan chased after him like a madman. The bike almost fell several times, but she couldn't care less. When they were about to reach the station, there was a long slope. In the past, Zheng Qinglan would only ride the lowest part of the road. This part was the slowest, less than one-tenth of the entire slope. The rest of the road was pushed up. But today, Zheng Qinglan rode with all her might. When she was about to reach the top, she couldn't ride anymore. She was afraid that she would break the chain, so she jumped off and pushed the bicycle up. When she went up the slope, she didn't have time to step on the pedal and jumped into the seat. The bicycle shook a few times, but he didn't stop. He used the last of his strength to rush forward. When he saw the bus, the bus had already started. It rolled up a gray fog and blocked his sight. It was over. Zheng Qinglan's heart fell into the abyss, and her vision turned black. In just a moment, Zheng Qinglan's heart turned cold. She got off the bicycle and leaned on the bicycle head to catch her breath. After a while, she felt better. She pushed the bicycle slowly to the station. She was already disheartened. When she reached the station, she found many people standing there. Almost everyone was complaining about the broken bus. It took a long time to get here, but they couldn't squeeze in. It seemed that they had to wait for another one or two hours. He was really behind. Zheng Qinglan was secretly delighted. She looked around. Oh my god, Shang Liu Xin was still there. She was standing in front of Jin Ling's shop and talking to Jin Ling. Zheng Qinglan walked over and pretended to ring the bicycle bell as if nothing had happened. Jin Ling turned around first and smiled when she saw Zheng Qinglan." Ah, Brother Qinglan, what a coincidence. We were just talking about you and you came. What are you doing here? Are you here to see us off?" Look at you, your head is covered in sweat. It's such a cold day. Be careful not to catch a cold. Come in. I'll pour some hot water for you. Wipe your sweat and drink a cup of hot tea.”" No need," Zheng Qinglan said." I'm very hot now. I'll dry up in a while."”Finishing, he pulled Shang Liu Xin to the side and said to her,""You can't leave." "Why?" Zheng Qinglan was stuck. He had been focused on riding the bike and hadn't thought about this problem. He said,""Your father…your father happened to be at the mine. When he knew that you were leaving, he was so anxious that he cried. I told him not to be anxious and to wait at home, so I rode my bike to stop you.”Shang Liu Xin asked suspiciously,"Why did my dad go to the mine? He usually doesn't go."”"Maybe it was a coincidence, or maybe he saw the note you left and rushed over.”Shang Liu Xin sighed and kept silent.

"Wait here for a moment. I'll go talk to Jin Ling and we'll go back together.”

When Zheng Qinglan arrived at Jin Ling's shop, a few people had just bought something and left. There were only the two of them in the shop. Jin Ling took out an envelope from her pocket and blushed. She handed the envelope to Zheng Qinglan and said softly,""Brother Qinglan, I wrote this last night.”"Oh, okay, okay. I don't have time to look at it now. I'll take it back and look at it.”Zheng Qinglan walked to the door and Jin Ling called out,""Brother Qinglan, do you have anything else to say?"”"Yes, yes. Before you came, I was talking to your sister next door. She said that she was going to a very far place. Her mood seemed very low. She said that she might not come back in her lifetime.”"Yes, that's why I'm here to pursue her.”"You know about her? Why is she like this?" "I can't explain it in a few words. I'm going to call her back now.”"Will she listen to you? I heard her say that she was very determined to leave this place.”"I didn't ask her to go back. Her father knew that she was leaving and was extremely anxious. He asked me to chase after her. Is there anything else? I'm going back with her." "No…no, that letter…”"Don't worry, I'll take a look when I get back. It's here.”As he spoke, he patted his pocket.

"Little Zheng, so this girl lives here. I was wondering why she looked a little familiar. You're so lucky. We were just talking about you, and you came. From her tone, I know she likes you. No wonder you had such a good chat last time.”

"We haven't known each other for a long time, and we haven't talked much. In total, we've only talked two or three times.”

"It doesn't take long to like someone. Perhaps a glance is enough, but it might take a long time to understand someone.”

"Yes, I am." Zheng Qinglan answered absent-mindedly, but she was nervously thinking about how to deal with the upcoming situation.

They were both on the same road, but at this moment, Zheng Qinglan felt that it was particularly short. She was in a mess and had yet to figure out what was going on, but she was already at the door. "Where's my dad?" Shang Liu Xin asked. "I don't know. It might have been transferred elsewhere. Go inside first.”He took out the key that Shang Liu Xin gave him in the morning and opened the door. He let Shang Liu Xin in before he went in and closed the door. After a moment of silence, Zheng Qinglan seemed to have spent a lot of effort and said to Shang Liu Xin,""I tricked you into coming back. Your father didn't come to the mine.”"Why did you lie to me?" "Liu Xin, let's be friends. I'll marry you.”Shang Liu Xin stared at Zheng Qinglan for a few minutes before saying in disbelief,""Why didn't you say that you wanted to marry me earlier? Why did you wait until I left before you said that?”"I need time to think about it. You're leaving today, so I'm afraid I won't have the chance.”"Is what you said true? Hmm…To be honest, I had this thought before, but when I saw that you were unwilling to even enter my house, I gave up on it. Now that you suddenly said this, I feel like I'm dreaming. You're not talking in your sleep, right?”"It's not sleep talk, it's true. Let bygones be bygones. We won't mention it anymore. We'll bear the burden of the future together, okay?”"It's easy to say, but I'm afraid it'll be difficult to do. After all, I'm that kind of person. You won't accept me.”"Don't be afraid. I won't care about your past. Trust me.”"What about Jin Ling? She likes you very much. Besides, she's beautiful and pure.”"Jin Ling is a good girl. Just like you said, she's beautiful and pure.”"You already know about me. Aren't you afraid that others will talk about you?”"It's inevitable to talk about it. As time passes, it'll be fine. Besides, I won't be here for long. I'll probably go back in two weeks. When we get to the city, not many people will know us.”"What should I do when you return to the city?”"Come with me. Anyway, you don't have an iron rice bowl here. Find a shop in the city or a factory to work. You can support yourself no matter what.”"Qinglan, this came too suddenly. I feel so illusory. I can't feel anything real. I feel like I'm floating on a cloud now. It looks very beautiful, but it suddenly floated away, just like when it came. Don't leave me behind. I'm so scared. I can't take any more torture.”As she spoke, tears flowed out. Zheng Qinglan held her face and wiped her tears. She said gently,""I've made up my mind and I won't change it. Don't worry. Think about it carefully and tell me when you've decided.”With that, he walked out of the door and returned to his room.

Although she said that, Zheng Qinglan was still conflicted. The reason why she said it so resolutely was not only to comfort Shang Liu Xin, but also to pressure herself. She wanted to calm herself down and not go back. He realized how much opposition he had to face. He might be fighting alone. He had to defeat not only others, but himself. He leaned weakly against the quilt. Those ugly images kept flashing in his mind. Every time they flashed, his heart ached. If it wasn't related to Shang Liu Xin, these scenes would have faded from his memory very soon. But now, he had already expressed his attitude to Shang Liu Xin and she had accepted his attitude. This scene would definitely cause him a strong stimulation. Why should I look at those things? How good would it be if I didn't know that they existed? I could imagine her to be perfect. Although she had told me some things, it was still very vague. But now, even the details were in front of me. How could I get rid of them? Annoyed to death, he smashed his fist on the bed, making a loud sound. Shang Liu Xin pushed open the door and asked him,"What's wrong?" "Ah, it's nothing. I saw a mosquito. I swatted it, but I didn't catch it.”"What time is it? There are still mosquitoes. Are you seeing things? It's time for dinner. Let's go eat.”"There's still a lot left in the morning. Let's eat at home.”"Okay, we'll cook our own food in the future. We won't eat in the canteen anymore. The big pot of food in the canteen can't compare to the food we make ourselves.”It went without saying that Shang Liu Xin had already agreed to Zheng Qinglan's request to be friends with her.

After dinner, Shang Liu Xin washed the dishes and went back to her room. Zheng Qinglan lay on the bed, thinking about what had happened since the morning. It felt like a dream. She fell asleep as she thought about it. It was true. In this half a day, whether it was physically or mentally, he had put in a lot of effort. He was indeed tired. When she woke up, it was almost two o'clock in the afternoon. It was the time when she usually went to work. Although she hadn't been to work for a while, her biological clock was still working. Zheng Qinglan got out of bed, washed her face, and sat in front of the table. Suddenly, she realized something. She reached into her pocket and took out the envelope that Jin Ling had given her. Why did he put it in an envelope? It looked like an important piece of work.

To the messenger

Brother Qinglan:

Hello!

Who am I? I don't think I need to introduce myself.

The night was even quieter. I couldn't suppress my longing for you. Under the lamp, I used my 20 years of passion as ink to write this paragraph for you to express my love for you.

Ever since I graduated from high school, matchmakers have come to my house to talk about matchmaking. Of course, these people's conditions are not bad. They're either professional or business families, or families with status in the local area. However, these are not what I want. I've loved reading since I was young. I'm often moved to tears by the characters in the books, and of course, I'm also angry at the bad guys in the books. When I entered puberty, I had some understanding of the matters between men and women. At that time, I had a dream. This dream has continued from then until today. It has continued until now. It has become clearer and stronger. I want to find a boyfriend who has the same hobbies as me. I want to study with him, share, communicate with him, observe society with him, experience life with him, and then write, revise, and taste together. We can live in poverty, but our lives are as colorful and rich as the sea. However, there were no such people around me. Those people were busy acquiring wealth all day long, so I rejected all matchmakers. My parents didn't understand me and criticized me. Fortunately, my brother and sister-in-law understood me.

I've been waiting for the God of Fate to finally open his eyes and send you to me. From the first time I saw you, I've decided that you're my friend for life, both in my heart and in my life. Although we haven't dated much in this period of time, you've deeply attracted me. Every time we meet, you make my heart feel great joy. Brother Qinglan, can you feel my love for you? I feel that you know because you are just as happy as me, but you didn't confess to me. What are your concerns? Didn't you break up with that girl called Fu Qian? There were still many things that he wanted to say, but he didn't know where to start. If the God of Fate was fair, he would give us time to share the joy of life. I am waiting for the blessing of the God of Fate. Brother Qinglan, will you laugh at my recklessness and straightforwardness? I'm waiting to hear your answer.

Jin Ling who loves you

December 18th

Zheng Qinglan felt like she had been hit by a stick. Her head buzzed. She never thought that Jin Ling would confess her love to her first. If it wasn't for Shang Liu Xin, she would have confessed to Jin Ling. In his heart, Jin Ling should be his favorite girlfriend. Putting aside everything else, he was the most relaxed, free, and happy when he was with Jin Ling. It was also what he wanted to express the most. How should he explain this to Jin Ling? She knew that I liked her, so she took the initiative to write me a letter. Now, I'm giving her a bucket of cold water. Where should a girl's self-esteem go? Can I go back on my word with Shang Liu Xin? It was impossible. She also knows that Jin Ling likes me. She has already reminded me, and I have also answered her clearly. Moreover, I have already made a promise to her. If I go back on my word, I will be no different from a beast who should go to hell. On one side was the ice blade and frost sword that I could see, and on the other side was the spring flowers that I could anticipate. Comparing the two, it was so clear. It was human instinct to seek benefits and avoid harm, but I was in a dilemma. There was a big "righteousness" in between. I couldn't forget "righteousness" and couldn't do anything like a beast. He repeatedly stressed in his heart that even he himself could not guarantee that he would not run away. The happiness of a lifetime, the happiness of a family, this matter was too big. If they lived happily, their life would have meaning and value. If they lived in humiliation, they would be worse than the grass on the ground. It was just a wasted trip to this world. They did not even have the most basic meaning. Even they would hate themselves. If you said that you sacrificed yourself to help others, who would believe you if you said that? Perhaps you would only attract the ridicule of others. Taking a step back, even if others admitted it and believed it, what was the point? Were you trying to gain others 'sympathy or to win others' praise? None of that was worth mentioning for a lifetime of happiness.

There was a knock on the door. Shang Liu Xin had gone out. Zheng Qinglan quickly folded Jin Ling's letter and put it in an envelope. Then, she put it in the innermost pocket. However, Shang Liu Xin didn't come in. She must have gone to work. Zheng Qinglan sat in front of the table and opened the letter. She was about to write a reply to Jin Ling, but she couldn't finish it after she started. Jin Ling was such a beautiful girl. Her soft hair, gentle and handsome face, her smiling eyes, and her tall and well-proportioned figure all appeared in Zheng Qinglan's eyes. The giggles and the enchanting " Brother Qinglan " rang in her ears for a long time. Zheng Qinglan seemed to feel that it was real. She raised her hand to grab it, but her hand touched the cold and hard wall.

He wrote Jin Ling, like, give up, Shang Liu Xin, what to do. Staring at it, he tried to use this method to stabilize his emotions and decide what to do, but it was useless. It was still the same as before, he was leaning towards Jin Ling, but in reality, he could not abandon Shang Liu Xin. It was better to ask for his life. He took out a coin from his bag and wrote on a piece of paper: He placed the coin between his hands, closed his eyes, and thought for a moment before tossing the coin high up. The coin landed on the table, bounced twice, and then stopped. It was a flip. Zheng Qinglan held the coin in her hand, rubbed it twice, and tossed it out again. This time, the coin landed steadily on the table. Zheng Qinglan sighed, picked up the coin, rubbed it a few times, blew on it, and threw it into the air. This time, the coin landed on the table and spun around. Zheng Qinglan stared at the coin and suddenly felt nervous. Finally, it stopped. Zheng Qinglan looked at it and saw that it was the other side. The ratio was 1:2, Shang Liu Xin won. No, three times was too little. It was the best of five games. Zheng Qinglan tossed twice, both heads. The head-to-head ratio became 3:2, and Jin Ling won. Zheng Qinglan was caught in a dilemma. Sigh, what can the heavens do for you? It's so boring. Zheng Qinglan crumpled the paper with the results and slammed it on the table. He couldn't hesitate any longer. Jin Ling had just started, and there wasn't any substantial progress. Shang Liu Xin was right beside him, so it was impossible for him to go back on his word. However, he felt that he had to use some form to stabilize this relationship, or else it might go backwards. At this moment, he realized that he was not a pure idealist. In fact, he was just an ordinary person. It was just that he still held fast to his principles and did not harm others.

It was time for dinner. Shang Liu Xin should be back. Zheng Qinglan cleaned the table and the bed. She spread the blanket and stood at the door to wait for Shang Liu Xin. Shang Liu Xin had returned. She didn't go into her room but went to Zheng Qinglan's side. Shang Liu Xin smiled at him and Zheng Qinglan smiled back. However, he felt that his smile was very forced. Shang Liu Xin entered the room. Zheng Qinglan closed the door and bolted it. Before Shang Liu Xin could say "no", Zheng Qinglan had already hugged her tightly. Shang Liu Xin grabbed Zheng Qinglan's hands and said,""Qinglan, don't be like this, okay? Listen, there's someone outside." Sure enough, there was the sound of footsteps outside, and Zheng Qinglan's passion disappeared. Shang Liu Xin said,"Let's eat, I'll come back when it's dark."”

Shang Liu Xin went to the back to prepare dinner. Zheng Qinglan opened the door and walked out. She stood outside the door for a while. Nothing seemed to be wrong. She turned around and left the door ajar. The two of them finished their dinner. Shang Liu Xin put away the bowl and boiled some water before leaving. Zheng Qinglan closed the door and walked out of Kuangqu. She slowly walked around the mine. When the sky turned dark, she walked back. She didn't see anyone along the way. Shang Liu Xin's room was dark. He returned to his room, closed the door, and sat in front of the table, waiting for Shang Liu Xin to come. A sense of nervousness and excitement struck his nerves. He did not think about anything else. He just wanted to release the passion that was surging back and forth in his body. Suddenly, he heard a series of soft footsteps, followed by a creak. This sound made Zheng Qinglan's heart jump. He stood up and saw Shang Liu Xin walking in. She closed the door and locked it. He went up to her, took her hand, and brought her to the bedside to sit down. He gently held her face with both hands. At this moment, several images appeared in Zheng Qinglan's mind like ghosts. Zheng Qinglan's arrogance disappeared in an instant. He stood there without moving. Shang Liu Xin raised her hand as if she was summoning. Zheng Qinglan was confused and didn't respond. Shang Liu Xin lightly said,"You are really stupid."”Shang Liu Xin's words aroused Zheng Qinglan's desire. He went up to her in confusion. After it ended, Shang Liu Xin said,"You should rest, I'm going back."”Zheng Qinglan turned off the light and walked Shang Liu Xin to the door. She watched her walk out and heard her return to her room before turning on the light again.

Extreme pleasure was followed by extreme relaxation. Zheng Qinglan simply washed up and went to bed. He wanted to reminisce about the enchanting scenes, but he fell asleep before he could do so. That night, he slept exceptionally soundly. Everything was set. There was nothing to consider anymore, and there was no room for retreat. He used such a tragic method to cut off his retreat.

There was nothing much to do for the next two days. Shang Liu Xin went to work. After work, she went to Zheng Qinglan's place to cook. This place had become their little home. As for Zheng Qinglan, she didn't go out. After eating, she thought about her experiences in the past two days and wrote some other things. Shang Liu Xin didn't see what he was doing. If Shang Liu Xin saw what he wrote, she would probably throw it into the furnace.

On Thursday afternoon, Zheng Qinglan was reading when she suddenly heard a knock on the door. He thought it was Shang Liu Xin, so he said,""Come in yourself." The door opened and Lan Guiying walked in.

"Sister-in-law, what's the matter?" Zheng Qinglan stood up and gave her seat to Lan Guiying.

"It's nothing much, but to be honest…there's something. I just want to ask, are you really dating Shang Nizi?”

"Yes, I am."

Lan Guiying stared at Zheng Qinglan for a while as if she didn't know her. "Your answer is so straightforward. You didn't even hide it at all. I think you've already made up your mind. I warned you not to have a deep relationship with her in the past, but you said it was impossible.”Zheng Qinglan didn't say anything. He was really amazed by Lan Guiying's detection ability. She was a super spy.

"Since you admit that the two of you are already together, I'm being a busybody. As the saying goes, it's better to tear down ten temples than to destroy a marriage. I won't commit such a sin. Brother, forget about what I said in the past. I wish you both happiness.”After saying that, she walked out of the door. After walking for a long time, she even heard her sigh, as if she was extremely regretful.

The next morning, Shang Liu Xin had just gone to work. Zheng Qinglan had just opened her book when she heard someone knocking on the door. Zheng Qinglan opened the door and saw that it was Lian Gouzi. Lian Gouzi said,""Author Zheng, your director called and asked you to rush back immediately.”

"Did he say what he wanted?"

"He didn't say anything. He just told you to put down everything you're doing and hurry back. He has something important to tell you.”With that, he left.

Zheng Qinglan thought for a while and put the things she wrote into her bag. She pushed the cart out and locked the door. She went to Shang Liu Xin's office and put the key on the table."The director called me and asked me to go back. He said that there's something urgent. This is the key to my room.”

"When are you coming back?"

"I don't know. It's Friday today. He might be back in the afternoon or tomorrow.”

"What if you don't come back?"

"You can look for me in the city. I live in the cultural center. Do you know that place? It was just beside Dongfanghong Square, about 100 meters to the south. It was easy to find.”

"I'm not going. I want to go back and tell my parents about us.”

"Why are you in such a hurry? Can't you say it later?”

"No, the earlier the better."

"Then do as you please. I'm leaving."

Zheng Qinglan thought as she walked, Should I tell Jin Ling today or later? In the future, if Shang Liu Xin followed me, it would be inconvenient. I might as well say it today and let Jin Ling know my thoughts earlier, lest she keeps it in her heart. Zheng Qinglan got off the bike when she arrived at Jin Ling's shop. She pushed the bike to the side of the shop. She heard a few people talking inside, including Jin Ling's voice. He stood there and pretended to look at the road as if nothing had happened. After making sure that all the customers had left, he walked into the shop nervously. Jin Ling had just picked up a book when she saw Zheng Qinglan and shouted in surprise,"Brother Qinglan, why is it you?" Her face immediately turned red. She wiped her hair to cover her blushing face, but she still stole a glance at Zheng Qinglan. " Ah!" Zheng Qinglan exclaimed. "Don't you usually return to the city on Saturday afternoons? Why did you bring it forward today?”

"There's something special, so I brought it forward.”

"What…what special thing?" Jin Ling's face turned even redder. She lowered her head, and her hands seemed to have nowhere to put them. She kept rubbing the book in her hands, and her body kept twisting. Zheng Qinglan knew that she had misunderstood, and she felt even more upset. The determination she had made before entering the shop suddenly collapsed. But he knew that if he didn't make it clear, the misunderstanding would continue. He coughed and swallowed hard. He heard the sound of his throat moving with difficulty. He took out the envelope from his pocket and said,""Jin Ling, I…I'll give it back to you. I'm…I'm sorry, I can't accept your feelings.”Jin Ling widened her eyes and looked at Zheng Qinglan in shock. After a while, she asked,""Why?"

"I…have a girlfriend."

"You're lying to me. You've already broken up with your girlfriend.”

"It's true. It was ordered two days ago. It's the one who spoke to you that day.”

"Why didn't you say so earlier?"

"I didn't know what was in your envelope. I thought it was a new draft you wrote, so I accepted it. It's my fault. Originally…Originally…"

"Tell me the truth. You don't like me, right?”

Zheng Qinglan stood there, speechless.

"Jin Ling, let bygones be bygones. You see, we haven't known each other for a long time, and we don't know each other much. I might not be suitable for you at all.”

"Don't find excuses to belittle yourself. I know what kind of person I like. If you don't say it, it means that you like me. The last time we went to the military stockade and the poem you wrote made it very clear that you like me. But only a few days later, you let someone else become your girlfriend. Tell me, why?”

"I can't say. In the future, you can treat me as your brother.”

"No, I have a brother. I don't want a brother like you. You are Zheng Qinglan, so I want to call you Zheng Qinglan.”

"Jin Ling, that's impossible. I've already promised him. I can't go back on my word. You don't want me to be a person who goes back on my word, do you?”Zheng Qinglan handed the envelope to Jin Ling and walked out of the shop. He heard Jin Ling crying. He turned around and saw Jin Ling covering her face with her hands, her shoulders shaking. Two people walked over. Zheng Qinglan turned around and walked into the shop. He said to Jin Ling,""Jin Ling, don't cry. Someone is coming.”Jin Ling ignored him. He tugged at Jin Ling's sleeve. Jin Ling waved her hand and blocked his hand. She stood up and ran to the back. When the two of them entered the shop, Zheng Qinglan walked in and shouted,""Jin Ling, we have guests." After shouting, he walked out without looking back.

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