When Zheng Qinglan walked into Luo Tianyin's office, Luo Tianyin didn't even lift her eyelids. She sat there without moving. Her face was as cold as ice. He didn't say to sit down, nor did he pour tea for Zheng Qinglan. This was something that had never happened before. Zheng Qinglan was stunned and froze. After a long while, she said,""Teacher, I'm back. Is there anything you need from me?”Luo Tianyin raised her eyes and glanced at Zheng Qinglan. However, the coldness on her face didn't diminish at all.
"If you want water, pour it yourself."
Zheng Qinglan looked at Luo Tianyin in surprise. She walked to the coffee table and poured a glass of water for Luo Tianyin and herself. Luo Tianyin sighed and said,"" Sit." Zheng Qinglan sat down on the sofa opposite Luo Tianyin. She lowered her head and looked at the teacup.
"Tell me about your work these days.”
"These few days…I haven't sorted it out yet. I'll report to you on Saturday afternoon when I'm done.”
Luo Tianyin suddenly flew into a rage. She slammed her palm on the table, causing a loud bang. Half of the tea that she had poured earlier splashed out. Zheng Qinglan didn't know why Teacher Luo, who had always been gentle and caring to her, was so angry. She looked at her teacher, not knowing what to do.
"Do we have to sort out the affair too, huh? Have you forgotten what I told you when you went down?”
"Teacher, I didn't have a romantic affair.”
"What's going on between you and the girl next door? She already told me clearly, but you still said nothing.”
"Teacher, that wasn't a romantic affair. We're in a legitimate relationship. I've already decided to marry her and spend the rest of my life with her.”
"You say that you're sure, but do you know her past? If you knew her past, would you still say that? What do you have to guarantee that you'll spend the rest of your life with her?”
"Teacher, I know everything about her past. It's precisely because I know about her past that I want to marry her.”
"What did you say? You clearly knew, but you still jumped in. Do you know how bad the rumors outside are? You will hear these words sooner or later. Can you accept it?”
"Those are all groundless guesses of boring people, and even malicious corruption. I don't listen to them, and I don't care.”
"Humph, what do you mean by speculation? What do you mean by malicious corruption? Zheng Qinglan, you think too simply. She wrote and said all these things herself. Others could make sense of it without any evidence. Now that she had admitted to these things and was spreading them everywhere, why didn't those boring people spread them out? They were spreading them everywhere. Let me ask you, would you be indifferent?”
"They are all making things up.”
"Making up nonsense? Do you know where those people got the news from? It was the government officials who had dealt with her affairs. They spoke with great interest and liveliness. The details were as if they had seen it with their own eyes. It was simply unbearable to listen to.”
"Despicable and shameless. Do they still deserve to be government officials? Were they still human enough to treat other people's pain and privacy as a topic of conversation?”
" What do you think? The relationship between men and women is not as tight as it used to be. Some people who are not self-disciplined are very popular. Some people may seem to be sanctimonious, but in fact, they have long become high-level hooligans whose lust and carnal desires have seeped into their bones.”
Zheng Qinglan's eyes reddened. She lowered her head and looked up at Luo Tianyin after a long time."Teacher, I've already promised her that I'll protect her and give her happiness. I can't take it back.”
"You haven't even solved your own problems. What right do you have to say that you can give her happiness? Let me ask you, can you really forgive her for everything in the past? Do you really not care about her relationship history at all?”
"Yes, I'm very upset about what happened to her in the past, but time can change everything.”
"You're still brooding over it, and you can't be sure. Instead, you're pinning all of this on the future and letting time dilute your pain. Yes, time could change some things, but there were two outcomes. One was to become better and reduce your pain, and the other was to become worse. As time passed, not only did your pain not reduce, but it would instead become more and more painful. Even if it developed in a good direction, it would not be a matter of one or two days. It might take ten years, twenty years, thirty years, or even a lifetime. How many decades or twenty years did a person have in their life? There would always be a lingering shadow in their heart.”
"Teacher, I understand what you're saying. In the face of hardship, there are always some people who have to pay.”
"But this doesn't include love and marriage. Love and marriage are pure and can't tolerate any impurities. Noble love and marriage were a combination of soul and flesh. What could a person who lived in pain all day bring to his lover? It was just an empty shell of marriage. Was this what she wanted? So, I advise you to give up. It's good for you and good for her. A person who didn't know her background was far better than a person who could see through her.”
"She was the one who took the initiative to tell me about her experience. For a girl to tell such unspeakable things to a man, she definitely wasn't repeating her suffering like Aunt Xianglin, but asking for help. Since I've already promised her, I have to keep this promise. If I go back on my word, won't I let her suffer again?”
"Stupid! Zheng Qinglan, it's true that you keep your promise, but this is a special situation. You have to stay together for a lifetime. You can't use a lifetime of happiness as a price to keep this unnecessary promise. It's better to break it as soon as possible. You've already made a mistake. You can't make any more mistakes. The more mistakes you make, the more serious it will be. That wouldn't be keeping his promise, but being stubborn.”
"She was too rash, but she has already been punished. I should give her this chance.”
"Zheng Qinglan, there are two mistakes in your sentence. First, you still haven't convinced yourself that you can't accept her from the bottom of your heart, but you're saving her. In other words, you can only play the role of a doctor at best. Second, you didn't treat her as an equal, but as a charity. In other words, this wasn't an equal heart connection, but a kind of sympathy. It was like seeing a beggar in rags on the road. You could give him food and drink, but you couldn't treat him as your own family. You can make a promise to her, but can you really say 'I love you' from the bottom of your heart?”Luo Tianyin's words had indeed struck Zheng Qinglan's heart. There were a few times when Zheng Qinglan had forced herself to say 'I love you' to Shang Liu Xin, but the words would turn into 'I like you'. In his opinion, there was a difference between love and liking on the spiritual level. Love was noble and pure, while liking was mundane and low-level.
"Teacher, it was just a mistake in my words. My heart is willing to say 'I love you'. For her, I am willing to give up everything.”
"Love and devotion are two different things. Indeed, love requires devotion, but devotion does not represent love. At first glance, you seem very noble. For a person who is suffering, you resolutely gave up the right to love her and walked together with someone you don't love or even dislike. You used your actions to prove what you said. This is not a problem. The topic has returned to the original point. You don't really love her, but you sympathize with her, worry about her, and fear that she will be hurt again. If the two of you had only come this far, this would undoubtedly be a good story. However, if the two of you continue to develop, the relationship between the two of you might be completely different. For a relationship that had delicate requirements for both parties, the foundation of your relationship was very fragile. It could not withstand the test of the wind and waves. Such a relationship could break down at any time. Even if you could keep this promise, you would not have true happiness. I don't think that she shouldn't be able to get true love, but for you, it's obviously not suitable. You can't give her true happiness, and you can't get happiness yourself. If I'm not wrong, I believe that she didn't tell you about her encounter these two days, right?”
Zheng Qinglan nodded.
"Why would she tell you such private things? She was testing you. If a person who is in extreme pain in her relationship hasn't reached the point where she would rather die than live, it's possible for her to seek comfort. At this time, you came to her side, and she wanted to get close to you. Of course, she also knew that she couldn't hide her matter because it was too big of a commotion. If your relationship was normal, perhaps no one would deliberately tell you about her past. If your relationship was going to develop in the direction of love and marriage, someone would definitely tell you. So she told you herself. This required courage. From this, it could be seen that she was shrewd and knew what to do. If she casually told others about her experience, she would be close to being shameless. Such a person was simply too terrifying. She did not care about the bottom line. I hope she is the former. This time, she was lucky to have met a person like you who was compassionate and sacrificed himself for others. If she met someone with bad morals, her ending could be imagined. She could be trampled on and abandoned again. This was her sad and hateful part. She had already made a mistake, but she still didn't learn her lesson. It was lust that controlled her. It was hard to guarantee that such a person wouldn't repeat it. Speaking of you, when she first told you about her experience, you only sympathized with her and were angry at that heartless man. You didn't have any love for her. Why did you make a decision in such a short time? It was completely forced by the situation. When you made this decision, did you have any love?”
"Yes, Teacher. I didn't think about love when I made the decision. Under such circumstances, it was impossible to have such romantic thoughts, but I still have feelings for her.”
"What feelings? Do I have no feelings for you? Don't you have any feelings for me?"
"Sympathy, admiration."
"Where does admiration come from?"
"She suffered such a huge blow, but she can still hold on. She must be very strong in her heart. She will definitely not give up easily in the future.”
"Sigh, in the end, it has nothing to do with love.”
"Teacher, this is related. There were all kinds of love in this world. There was love born from love, there was love born from resentment, there was love born from pity, and there was also love born from hatred.”
"Qinglan, I'm not trying to break you up. I'm not asking you to give up as a unit leader, but I'm advising you as a teacher, an elder, and an experienced person. If you do this, both of you will fall into endless pain. I don't know her personality, but I know that with your personality, you definitely won't be able to walk out of that shadow. A lifetime, not just two or three days. A lifetime of mental pain. You really have to think twice before you act.”
"Teacher, I can't return it. We're already husband and wife.”
Luo Tianyin stared at Zheng Qinglan, trying to see if he was telling the truth. Zheng Qinglan lowered her head, closed her lips, and clenched her teeth. Her cheeks bulged, showing her determination. Luo Tianyin realized that Zheng Qinglan had made up her mind. She couldn't help but sigh and say,""You're really going to throw yourself out. Fu Qian is such an innocent girl, yet you didn't even hold her hand when you fell in love with her. That girl who wrote the script, even if you say that you're just ordinary friends with her, I'll believe it. Indeed, you're different from the vast majority of young people nowadays. You're clean and self-disciplined, strict with yourself, and respectful of others. But how did you so quickly confirm your relationship with this Shang Liu Xin who caused a storm in the matter of love? Don't tell me that this was an impulse. This was premeditated. You wanted to tie yourself up with a fait accompli so that you wouldn't retreat. Zheng Qinglan, why did you do this? Was it really worth it? Aren't you afraid that you'll regret it in the future?”
"Thank you for your concern, teacher. I…I don't regret it.”
"What are you thanking me for? You didn't listen to a single word I said when you went down and now. What I said is nonsense. Your decision is still the original decision. Qinglan, you need to calm down. If you stay close to her, you won't be able to see clearly. How about this? You don't have to go today. You can think about this matter in the museum. You can also say that it's a reflection. On Sunday, when there's no one around, you can take the things back. You don't have to go there anymore. From now on, you can work in the museum like before.”
"Teacher, I…"
"What about me? It's better to have a short period of pain than a long period of pain. It's settled then. Be ruthless and I'll be the bad guy for you. You can push all the responsibility to me. By the way, these are Jin Ling's manuscripts. I've read them all and made some comments. I've already rejected two of them. Return them to her when it's convenient for you. This is a good seedling, just like you.”
What else could he say? His teacher had shouldered a burden that he should not have shouldered for him. How was this any different from his father? Zheng Qinglan returned to her office in a daze and sat on the chair in a daze. From a rational point of view, he believed that everything Luo Tianyin said was correct and was in line with the current situation. However, since the goal was noble, and the methods and methods did not intentionally harm people, he would let it continue to develop. As for the final result, he could only leave it to fate. No matter how perfect love seemed at the beginning, who could predict its final outcome? Teacher, I'm sorry. I have to disappoint you. At the same time, a tragic emotion rose in his heart. He could not help but feel a stinging pain in his nose, and tears instantly filled his eyes.
On the third day, Zheng Qinglan woke up very early. He spent most of the afternoon thinking about Jin Ling. He had already made up his mind about the matter with Shang Liu Xin. Even though he agreed with Luo Tianyin, he still felt uneasy. After that, he temporarily didn't need to think about Shang Liu Xin's matter. He focused his energy on Jin Ling. What was she doing now? Did he look after the shop and read a book as usual, or did he sit there in a daze, or did he close the shop and hide in his boudoir to cry, or did he meet three or five friends to laugh and play to relieve his boredom? How am I going to meet her tomorrow? How was he going to explain it to her? Even after dinner, he still couldn't figure it out. This made Zheng Qinglan's thoughts chaotic and she sighed. He walked around the street but still couldn't figure out why. This kind of thing was indeed difficult for him. No matter what he said, it might hurt Jin Ling's heart. She put down her girl's reservedness and took the initiative to express her love to him. However, she received a bucket of cold water. Moreover, this cold water was poured without any warning. It made no one feel good. He felt a little hungry, so he found a pancake stall and ordered two pancakes and a bowl of porridge. After eating, he suddenly thought of Jin Zhu and Xiang Lan. That's right, why not go to their place to take a look? Perhaps he could find a way to crack it through them.
Jin Ling had told him about the place where Jin Zhu and Xiang Lan did business. It was a small county town, a palm-sized place. In less than ten minutes, Zheng Qinglan appeared in front of Jin Zhu's shop. Jin Zhu and Xiang Lan were counting the day's harvest. Zheng Qinglan called out,"Brother Jinzhu." The couple looked up and saw Zheng Qinglan. They were surprised and happy."Come in and sit." Zheng Qinglan entered the shop and looked around. She couldn't help but exclaim,""What a big shop. It must cost a lot of money, right?”"It's okay. The rent is 30,000 yuan a year.”"The rent alone is 30,000 yuan. It's equivalent to the salary of an employee for many years.”"This place has a good dock. There are many people coming and going, and business is good. Therefore, the rent is expensive. There are places that only cost a thousand yuan a year.”"A thousand yuan is not a small amount. It's equivalent to a year's salary. I really can't imagine that you can earn so much money by doing business.”
"If you do well, you can earn some hard-earned money in a year. If you don't manage it well, it's quite scary to lose money. Although your salary isn't high, there are benefits. You get it every month. You can spend this month and come back next month. There's no risk. Many people want to enter the unit but can't.”Zheng Qinglan was speechless. She didn't want to belittle or praise herself. She just smiled.
"Brother, you often meet our Lingzi, right?" Xianglan suddenly asked.”Zheng Qinglan was delighted that Jin Ling was finally mentioned. "Yes, I pass by her place every week after work. I have to go in and take a look.”
"A few days ago, she called me and said that you guys often chatted and that you had a good time every time. She also said that you recommended her manuscript to your director. This sister-in-law of mine is beautiful and arrogant. This is the first time I've seen someone who can make her so happy.”
Jin Zhu said,"How can you praise your own family?"”
Xiang Lan said,"Originally, there were only a few people like Lingzi in this area.”
"Yes, she loves to read and write. I happen to work in this field too. I have something to say, so I chat happily every time.”
"She's even trying to find out what we think of you. This girl has also played tricks on us. Don't look at how she's laughing sometimes, but when she encounters such a thing, she still doesn't know how to speak up herself. Brother, do you want me to tie a red string with you?”
Zheng Qinglan was embarrassed. She was here to find a way to break the spell, but she didn't expect that she was here to help him. She quickly said,"Sister-in-law, thank you for your kindness. I already have a girlfriend.”Xiang Lan stared at Zheng Qinglan in shock and asked,""Oh, yes, yes. You told us when we first met. I forgot about it in a hurry. Sigh, what about Lingzi?"
Jin Zhu said," Don't listen to your sister-in-law's nonsense. That was her own decision. I know Jin Ling's personality. If she likes someone, she will definitely say it herself."”
"Yes... yes, oh, I don't know, maybe.”Zheng Qinglan felt uneasy and quickly left the shop.
Xiang Lan dialed her home number, and Jin Ling answered the call. " Sister," Xiang Lan asked," Zheng Qinglan came to our shop just now. I told him about your relationship. He suddenly felt uneasy, as if something had happened."”
"Who cares about him? It has nothing to do with me.”Then, he hung up the phone. Xiang Lan held the phone for a long time and muttered,"What's wrong? Lingzi has never been like this before.”
"Do you think she's still the child you were when you first married? She's spouting nonsense without asking for permission. How can you guarantee that she'll be a matchmaker? She didn't even ask around first and said so confidently. Isn't she making things difficult for herself? It's as if my sister can't get married and she has to ask others to want her.”
Xiang Lan stared at Jin Zhu and said," I see that you all like Zheng Qinglan. What's wrong with you today? One is mysterious, one is eccentric, and one looks like she wants to eat someone."”
Zheng Qinglan didn't manage to find a way to deal with Jin Ling from Jin Zhu. Instead, after hearing Xiang Lan's words, he had no idea what to do. After leaving Jin Zhu in a hurry, he wandered aimlessly on the street. In fact, he didn't see or hear anything. He kept thinking about what to say and do when he saw Jin Ling. However, it was like a dead knot that couldn't be untied no matter how hard he tried. He walked until there was no one on the street before he returned to his house. He washed up hastily and lay on the bed. He thought about a lot of things. He only slept for a while, which was two or three hours, before he woke up again. He looked at his watch and saw that it was only a little past three o'clock. However, he could not fall asleep no matter how hard he tried. He turned over and over on the bed like he was frying a sesame seed cake. At six o'clock, the sky was still dark. She couldn't stay in bed any longer, so she got up. After washing up, it was still dark outside. Zheng Qinglan pushed the cart to the street. Even the earliest breakfast shop in this area had just opened. She sat in a breakfast shop and waited for a while. After eating a bowl of vermicelli and two dumplings, she slowly set off. If this was in the past, he would have been in a good mood and would have sprinted all the way. Today was different. He didn't know what kind of awkwardness, pain, sadness, helplessness, and reluctance he would experience today. When the sun was high up in the sky, Zheng Qinglan arrived at Jin Ling's shop. The door was wide open, and no one was going in or out. It should still be early at this time. This should be a good opportunity for the two of them to communicate. Zheng Qinglan got out of the car at the entrance of the shop. She put the car away like a thief, afraid that it would make a sound. She listened to the noise inside while she put the car away. It was strangely quiet inside, as if no one was there. After a while, Zheng Qinglan swallowed and walked into the shop. Jin Ling didn't read like she usually did. Instead, she sat there in a daze. " Jin Ling…" Jin Ling raised her head. Her eyes lit up like a spark, but they dimmed again. She lowered her head and stopped looking at Zheng Qinglan.
"Jin Ling…"
"I don't know you. What are you doing here? Leave. I don't know you!”
"I…I…"
"I've already said that I don't know you. Leave!”Jin Ling's tone was very determined.
"I'll explain it to you later, okay?”
"I don't need to explain.”Jin Ling sounded like she was about to cry.
"Jin Ling, these are your works. Director Luo has already read them and made comments. He said that he has already recommended two of them. The things he recommended usually have a very high publishing rate.”Zheng Qinglan handed the notebook to Jin Ling. Jin Ling took it and tore the notebook into pieces without looking at it. She threw the pieces of paper out. The pieces of paper flew around like butterflies with injured wings. Zheng Qinglan's heart felt like it was stabbed by a knife. Tears flowed out of her eyes. He wiped his tears and picked up the pieces of paper that had fallen to the ground one by one. He put them into his bag and said to Jin Ling,"Jin Ling, this is your blood, sweat, and tears. How can you throw it away so casually? I'm the one who's sorry, not it. If you're angry, take it out on me. I'll bring these things back and glue them together before returning them to you. Don't destroy them again. These are your thoughts and thoughts. They are your mental journey. They will be useful in the future.”
Jin Ling didn't say anything. She didn't even look at Zheng Qinglan. She just cried silently.
"Jin Ling, apart from returning your notebook and telling you the good news, I'm here today to bid you farewell. My gathering activity in the Black King Village has ended early and I'm going back to the museum. I'll go over to get my things later and go back.”She felt that it was inappropriate, so she added," I'll come and visit you when I have time.”
Jin Ling took out a tissue from the drawer and wiped her tears."Brother Qinglan, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that.”
" Jin Ling, you don't blame me anymore. That's great. You're really…" She didn't know how to continue.
Jin Ling said," Don't praise me. I'm not narrow-minded. I won't get stuck in there, but I'm not that broad-minded either. I'll give up on what I've done. Let time change."”
"You're so outstanding. You'll find the happiness that belongs to you.”
"Don't flatter me, let alone talk about the future. If you have something to do, you can leave."
"Then I'll be leaving. Take care."
Seeing Jin Ling's attitude towards the end, Zheng Qinglan's heart relaxed a little. However, what she was going to say to Shang Liu Xin next made her upset.
When Zheng Qinglan entered the Kuangqu, the first person she saw was Baogen. Baogen was taking something from the back of the carriage. It seemed that he had just returned from the street. He might have come back before her. Bao Gen saw Zheng Qinglan and asked in surprise,""I thought you didn't have to work on Sunday. Why are you back?”
"I came back to get something. You just came back from the street, right?”
"Yes, the weather was cold, so I bought some clothes and called my family.”
"You went alone. Where's Brother Dong?”This was Zheng Qinglan's habit. Captain Dong had become a permanent part of her heart. Baogen put the things back on the shelf and walked to Zheng Qinglan's side. He said softly,""Brother, something happened to Big Brother Dong." "Ah, what happened? Is it serious?”"Do you still remember that Brother Dong asked for leave to go home a few days ago?”" Do you know why he asked for leave to go home?”"I don't know." "Her sister was in a relationship with someone else. That man lied to her sister and didn't want her anymore. Her sister was so angry that she took her own life. Brother Dong went back to deal with this matter, but that guy not only refused to admit his mistake, but also shamelessly said that it was voluntary and that he was not in the wrong. Brother Dong was furious. He picked up a stool and smashed the guy until his head was bleeding. If it wasn't for someone stopping him, he would have sent the guy to the King of Hell. He was still lying in the hospital. Brother Dong was also arrested by the police." Zheng Qinglan felt a huge wave in her heart, and the muscles on her face twitched involuntarily. Bao Gen glanced at him and asked," You haven't eaten in the canteen for a week. You eat with Shang Liu Xin every day. Are you two really together?"”
Zheng Qinglan didn't answer. Bao Gen continued," Shang Liu Xin is a capable person, but her reputation isn't good. Before you came, there was a man who would come to her place every now and then to stay for a night. After that, he didn't come. Everyone would tell her stories behind her back. They said all kinds of things, but not a single good thing. It was so embarrassing. If anyone had such a wife, they would be the scapegoat for the rest of their lives. Brother, you're an innocent person. Why do you have to get involved in this muddy water? Be careful not to ruin your life.”
" I know." Zheng Qinglan gritted her teeth and said," Don't say it. I know."”After saying that, he went back to his own house. It had only been a day, and nothing had changed in the room. However, to Zheng Qinglan, it felt like a lifetime had passed. He had experienced so much in the past two days, and his mood had changed greatly. Other than the promise he made to Shang Liuxin, everything else seemed very vague. He walked around the small house in a daze for a few times before he remembered the purpose of his trip. Hence, she put away a few books and clothes into her bag. Shang Liu Xin wasn't here, so she must have gone home and told her parents about the two of them. What should she do? Leave without saying goodbye? Perhaps it was just as Teacher Luo had said. It was best to withdraw as soon as possible while we were still at the beginning. Sigh, what am I thinking? I've already told others that we're already husband and wife, and now I still want to return it. Am I still a responsible man? No, I have to find her. Thus, Zheng Qinglan went out to look for Shang Liu Xin.
The signs of the places where the people lived in the mountains were very clear, unlike the people in the plains who lived in the same place, and unlike the people in the city who lived in all directions, so it was very easy to find them. Although Zheng Qinglan had only been to Shang Liu Xin's house once, he could still easily find her house based on his memory. Shang Liu Xin was sitting under the sunlight, sewing insoles. When she saw Zheng Qinglan, she asked in surprise,""Why are you here?" She then said happily," Look, these are for you. That one is already done, and this one is half done. You can finish it during the day. If you work overtime at night, you'll have new insoles by Monday.”
"Where are your parents?" asked Zheng Qinglan.
"They went to the fields and should be back by now. We'll have lunch when they're back. You're so lucky to have braised pork ribs and red lotus roots for lunch today. I made them.”
"I'm not hungry. Let's go to the mine. I have something to tell you.”
"What can't be said here? Why do you have to say it at the mine? I've already told my parents about us, and they didn't object.”
"It's hard to explain in one or two sentences. It's hard to say when your parents are back.”
Shang Liu Xin suddenly became nervous, saying,""Wait a moment, I'll close the door.”He closed the door and followed Zheng Qinglan. When they passed by the neighbor's house, Shang Liu Xin went in and said,""Third sister-in-law, I have something to do at the mine. Please tell my parents when they come back.”Third sister-in-law replied.
"Qinglan, what is it? Can you tell me now?”
"Let's talk about it at the mine."
"Is it important?"
"Yes, I am."
"No wonder you came today."
"Sit tight. I'm going to ride soon."
Shang Liu Xin used her right hand to wrap around Zheng Qinglan's abdomen. Zheng Qinglan felt that it was inappropriate and moved her hand away. Zheng Qinglan parked her bicycle outside the door and let Shang Liu Xin go in first. After he entered, he closed the door and locked it, then hugged Shang Liu Xin. Shang Liu Xin used her hand to block Zheng Qinglan's kiss, saying,""Qinglan, why are you here? You haven't told me yet.”
"I'm going back to the museum this afternoon. The leader has already arranged for me not to come tomorrow.”
"Why so sudden? Didn't you say that there's still some time?”
"It ended early."
"Have you finished your work here?”
"No, but the leader said that there's no point for me to stay here anymore and asked me to go back.”
"Is it because of me?"
"No, it's because of me."
"Qinglan, don't hide it from me. It must be because of what happened between us that the leader has an opinion of you, so he asked you to go back early, right? Qinglan, I'm the one who harmed you."
"No, Xin, I'm willing to do what we did. No one forced me, and I won't abandon you no matter where I go.”
Shang Liu Xin's eyes were hazy as she muttered,"Qinglan, where did I get this good fortune from? To actually meet someone like you, I feel so blessed.”As she spoke, she snuggled into Zheng Qinglan's arms. Shang Liu Xin's soft words and body aroused Zheng Qinglan's strong sense of responsibility and desire to protect her. Zheng Qinglan trembled as she went to untie Shang Liu Xin's belt. Shang Liu Xin grabbed Zheng Qinglan's hand and hurriedly said,""Qinglan, this won't do. These few days are a dangerous period.”Zheng Qinglan wiped away her tears and put her mouth next to her ear, saying gently,""Xin, if there is, then there is. I will marry you.”After the excitement, Shang Liu Xin said,"Qing Lan, this time it's very likely that you'll get pregnant. What should we do?"”
"Don't be afraid. If you're pregnant, so be it. I want to marry you.”
"But your parents don't even know about us. How can we get married?”
"I'll go back and tell him immediately. I'll leave my things here. I'll go back and tell my parents that I'll come back to get them. Then, I'll go back to the city.”
"That would take us dozens of miles."
"It's okay. I can walk."
"Then I'll wait for you here."
"Alright."
With the child, there was no way out. This was the clearest thought Zheng Qinglan had before entering Shang Liu Xin's body. As he walked on the road, his heart was filled with complicated emotions. He couldn't tell if it was regret, heaviness, or something else. He only felt that he needed to move forward and marry Shang Liu Xin. As for the words he said to Shang Liu Xin, he had forced himself to say them. Of course, it was also because of the situation at that time.
Hey, isn't that Lord Pangu? He rode closer and saw that it was Lord Pangu. Zheng Qinglan had a lot on her mind. She didn't want to talk to Master Pangu, but she still felt that it was inappropriate. She got off the bike and called him " Master Pangu ". Master Pangu was stunned. Zheng Qinglan said,""Master Pangu, it's me, Little Zheng, Zheng Qinglan. Little Zheng, who asked you to tell stories and sing. Don't you remember me?”
"Little Zheng, I remember, of course I remember. Although old people are forgetful, how could I forget you so quickly? I often wonder why you didn't come.”
"I've been elsewhere these days. My work here is about to end. I was going to go to your place to say goodbye to you. Thank you and welcome you to visit the cultural center when you have time.”
"Haha, you're welcome. You're doing a good deed. It's an honor for us to be able to help.”"Zheng, I heard that you have a girlfriend here. Is that true?" Master Pangu asked after a pause.”
"Who told you that?"
"Huang Si from our village is also mining coal in the mine. He came back and told us.”
"Yes," Zheng Qinglan said after a moment of hesitation.”
Lord Pangu said," Little Zheng, logically speaking, we've only met a few times. We haven't interacted much, and we're not that close. I shouldn't have said anything about you two, but I think you're an honest child. I feel sorry for you if I don't say something. After Huang Si told me about you guys, I was thinking about how I could give you a reminder, and I happened to bump into you.”
Zheng Qinglan's heart sank. She knew what Lord Pangu was going to say, so she said,""Lord Pangu, don't listen to other people's nonsense.”
Lord Pangu said," It's not nonsense. It's all well-founded. It's not just one or two people. As long as it's about Shang Nizi, there's no one on this side who doesn't know." The man she used to be with was indeed a bad guy, but was she not wrong? She was already in her twenties. Didn't she know what would happen? Allow me to say something unpleasant. She sent herself to someone else's bed and deserved to be robbed. I'm over seventy years old this year. I've experienced both the old society and the new society. I've more or less seen and heard about the things between men and women. If this woman doesn't have self-respect, even the gods can't do anything to her. As the old saying goes, a bad wife and unfilial son are incurable. She has already shed all pretense of cordiality. In the future, she won't take pride anymore. If she meets someone who seduces her a little, she might go down the evil path. I've seen more than one or two people like this. In the past, when the news was so tight, there were still shameless women who had sex with others. They could not be cured even if they hung up a sign and paraded through the streets. After a period of peace, they would still be like that when they got old. As the saying goes, half the grain is good, half the wife is good. If a man could marry a good wife, even if he could not do anything great, his life would be comfortable. If he married an unvirtuous woman, his life would be filled with sadness and anger. He would not be able to close his eyes even if he died.”
Zheng Qinglan's heart felt stifled. She didn't know whether to answer or not.
Master Pangu continued," Little Zheng, you have to think twice. Marriage is not a child's play. You can't be careless." The old fellow is a busybody. It doesn't matter if you listen or not. I'm only saying this because I don't treat you as an outsider. Think about it yourself and see if what I'm saying makes sense. If you were talking about someone else, I would congratulate you here. If you were talking about Shang Nizi, I wouldn't say this. I also want to tell you something. When you buy a horse, you have to look at the mother and son. This Shang girl's mother is called Wu Xiuchi. She's a well-known muddle-headed person in our village. She doesn't know what to say or do. With such a mother, how good can Shang girl be? Think about it yourself. I'm going back. My wife is still watching at home. If I'm late, she'll be anxious at home. It's like this when I was young. It's the same when I'm old. I'm afraid it'll be like this for the rest of my life.”
Zheng Qinglan was stunned. He never thought that an old man who never left his house would know about Shang Liu Xin. It really made him shudder.
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