Zheng Qinglan didn't want to ask Jin Ling about the manuscript, so she couldn't calm down. She didn't have the mood to do anything else. To kill time, Zheng Qinglan would occasionally chat online. Once, he accidentally heard Xiao Danian's QQ number and wanted to play a joke on Xiao Danian. After returning home that night, he added Xiao Danian's number and chatted with him. Xiao Danian didn't know that it was Zheng Qinglan, so his words naturally made Zheng Qinglan laugh so hard that she couldn't breathe. Shang Liu Xin asked him what he was laughing about and Zheng Qinglan told her. Shang Liu Xin also sat beside the computer and watched the two of them chat. She also laughed until she was out of breath. Zheng Qinglan couldn't hold back her laughter anymore, so she told Xiao Danian the truth. Xiao Danian was also laughing so hard that tears came out of his eyes. He sent over dozens of laughing emojis in a row.
Shang Liu Xin was also chatting. She used her computer to chat online and also used her phone to send messages. Moreover, she often chatted happily. Recently, Zheng Qinglan felt that Shang Liu Xin liked to run outside when she was on the phone. Zheng Qinglan thought that she was afraid of waking her up, so she didn't think too much about it.
One day, Zheng Qinglan's tooth disease acted up again. Half of her cheek was swollen. It hurt so much that he couldn't sit, stand, or lie down. She bought medicine to clear the heat and took the methonidazuron, but it didn't have any effect for more than a week. For the past week, he could only stuff a few grains of rice into his mouth and swallow them. Sleep. Only when she was too tired to take it anymore would she sleep for a while and then wake up in pain. In this way, he could not endure it anymore. He could only go to the hospital. Shang Liu Xin also followed him to the hospital. The doctor on duty that day was a male doctor. Zheng Qinglan had met him a few times before, so they knew each other. The doctor examined Zheng Qinglan and said that she had wisdom teeth and had to remove them. "Can I not?" asked Zheng Qinglan. "If we don't pull it out, it will become inflamed at any time. Currently, the most effective way to deal with wisdom teeth is to pull them out.”Zheng Qinglan was already scared of the pain, so she agreed. Zheng Qinglan sat on the operating chair after the anesthetic was applied. The doctor used a pair of forceps to hold the wisdom tooth. He tried to pull it out several times but failed. Zheng Qinglan still felt very painful even though she was injected with anesthetic. It felt like her hand was cut by a piece of bamboo when she was young. "The root of the tooth is quite firm. We have to loosen the root of the tooth before we can pull it out.”The doctor took a long handle. Zheng Qinglan hesitated and said vaguely,""Is this okay?" "Try it. If it doesn't work, use another method.”Zheng Qinglan was a little angry, but since the person standing in front of her was someone she knew, she couldn't say anything more. She reluctantly sat on the operating chair again. The doctor placed the elevator on the wisdom tooth. It was as if he was twisting a rusty screw or using it to make a hole. He turned the elevator with all his might. Heavens, if the opener slipped, wouldn't it pierce through her cheeks? She lay there and did not dare to move. She had to stiffen her neck and cooperate with the doctor. Only when the pain was too unbearable did she squeeze out a " painful " sound from her throat and the doctor stopped. Blood flowed out of Zheng Qinglan's mouth and onto the ground. Taking advantage of the doctor's rest, Zheng Qinglan spat out the blood in her mouth into the trash can, then took out a tissue to wipe her mouth. Shang Liu Xin said in disgust and walked out of the room. After another half an hour, Zheng Qinglan almost fainted. The wisdom tooth was pulled out along with the blood and flesh.
After hanging up the anti-inflammatory drip, Shang Liu Xin came over and carried the drip to the injection room. Beep, beep, beep. Shang Liu Xin's phone rang. She handed the IV drip to Zheng Qinglan and walked out while taking out her phone from her bag. Zheng Qinglan hung the IV drip on the IV stand and sat on the bench. He only felt dizzy and didn't have any strength left in his body. Blood kept flowing out of his mouth. He had already used up all the tissues in his hand and the remaining tissues were in Shang Liu Xin's bag. He wanted to call Shang Liu Xin over, but Shang Liu Xin's shadow was nowhere to be seen, so he could only endure it. After a while, Shang Liu Xin came back. Zheng Qinglan was like a mute. She pointed at her mouth and wiped it. Shang Liu Xin took out a tissue and handed it to him. Zheng Qinglan put the tissue into her pocket and pointed at a trash can in the distance, signaling Shang Liu Xin to bring it over. Shang Liu Xin didn't understand. Zheng Qinglan had to take the IV drip from the IV stand and walk to the trash can to spit out the blood in her mouth. Before Zheng Qinglan could come back, Shang Liu Xin's phone rang again. She walked out while answering the phone. It was raining outside, so she couldn't hear her voice in a while.
The medicine in the drip was gone. Zheng Qinglan turned the switch to the minimum so that she could wait for Shang Liu Xin to come back and call the nurse to change the medicine. However, after waiting for a long time, she didn't come back. Zheng Qinglan felt that the injection site started to hurt. A person happened to pass by, so Zheng Qinglan asked him to call the nurse to change the medicine. The new medicine was almost halfway done when Shang Liu Xin came in with an umbrella. She walked in front of Zheng Qinglan and looked at the IV drip, saying,""You know how to get someone to change the dressing." Zheng Qinglan frowned and didn't want to say a word. Her mood was extremely gloomy.
After the injection, she returned home and asked,""What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you." The anesthetic had worn off, and Zheng Qinglan was in more pain than before. She was not in the mood to eat, so she mumbled,""Nothing." "How can you not eat? If you can't eat, I'll cook a bowl of noodles for you. You don't have to chew it, just swallow it.”" I already said I don't want to eat," Zheng Qinglan said irritably." You insist on eating. It hurts so much that I can't even open my mouth. How can I eat?"”Shang Liu Xin said,"Forget it if you don't want to eat, as if I want you to eat." You should rest at home. I have something to do, so I'll go out for a while.”"What is it?" "If there's something, then there's something. Why are you asking so many questions? You said your mouth hurts, and you asked so many questions.”As he spoke, he walked out. Zheng Qinglan felt cold all over when she thought about what happened today. The rain outside was still pattering, and it seemed that it would not stop for a while.
Shang Liu Xin came to the hotel and pushed open the door of a guest room. Du Bo Lao was the only one inside. "Didn't you say there was a gathering? Where are the people?”"No, it's just the two of us." "It's broad daylight. It wouldn't be good if others saw it.”"Don't be afraid. We'll go our separate ways later. It's useless even if anyone sees us.”"My husband is still a patient lying at home. Isn't this too much?”"Aiya, why are you so nosy? Since you're here, let's just take it as it is. Since you're here, let's just have fun. Don't think about anything else.”Then, the two of them got entangled. When they were done, Du Bolao pulled Shang Liu Xin into his arms and said,"I might have to go to the south in a few days.”"Is it studying?" "No, I have an uncle who went to Taiwan before the Liberation and then went back to the mainland to do business. He's now in Shen Zhen, so he asked me to go over and help.”"Doesn't he have any children?" "Yes, they all have their own businesses and can't take care of them. My uncle said that if I do well, he will let me run the factory in the future.”"Then you won't come back?" "How can that be? With you here, I'll definitely come back. When I come back, I'll call you.”Yes, this is my baby.”He then turned around and pressed on Shang Liu Xin's body.
When it was almost time for dinner, Shang Liu Xin returned home. Zheng Qinglan had been holding back her anger. Seeing her return, she asked angrily,""Where did you go?" "Didn't I tell you that I have something to do?”"What is it? Can you be more specific?”"Why are you asking so much? I can't count on you anyway. What's the use of telling you?”"Whether or not you can help is one thing, and whether or not you should know is another. I won't talk about you normally. Today, I wanted to find someone to help me call the nurse in the hospital, but there was no one. Speaking of which, you went to the hospital, but what did you do? You either ran in and out to answer the phone, or you didn't see your shadow.”Hearing Zheng Qinglan's words, Shang Liu Xin also felt that she had gone too far. She eased her tone and said,""I had no choice. I couldn't ignore the call. I was afraid that it was urgent. I didn't do well and let you suffer. You just had your tooth pulled out, so don't talk too much. I'll go make dinner for you two.”With that, he walked out of the room. Zheng Qinglan still felt uncomfortable. She fell heavily on the bed and stared blankly at the ceiling.
After burning some incense for Xiang Lan, Jin Ling started to focus on Zheng Qinglan's manuscript. Some time ago, because she was sad, she knew that Zheng Qinglan wanted her to finish reading the manuscript quickly so that she could give him some suggestions. However, she couldn't continue reading the book because she could only see Xiang Lan's shadow in front of her, so she simply put it aside. As time passed, she realized that this was an unchangeable fact. The pain in her heart lessened a little, but she immediately fell into another kind of sadness. Of course, this sadness came from Zheng Qinglan's manuscript. The male protagonist in the manuscript was an elegant and modest gentleman. He had a compassionate personality and would rather sacrifice himself for others. However, fate was unfair to him and he could not succeed in anything. His wife also looked down on him and fooled around with other men behind his back. The male protagonist clearly felt that his wife had betrayed him, but out of respect and self-esteem, he did not expose his wife. Instead, he let himself live in extreme pain. The more she read, the more Jin Ling felt that the male protagonist was Zheng Qinglan herself. At least, it was quite a match. Jin Ling knew more or less about Zheng Qinglan's marriage because she had always had feelings for Zheng Qinglan. Therefore, she paid special attention to information about Zheng Qinglan. She even asked her cousin Pei Tianwen about Zheng Qinglan's marriage. Jin Ling still remembered the situation clearly. At the mention of Zheng Qinglan's marriage, Pei Tianwen shook his head and said,""I'm not the only one who doesn't think highly of this marriage. Many people don't think highly of this marriage either. I can't understand why Zheng Qinglan would marry Shang Liu Xin.”"Cousin, why do you say that?”"Shang Liu Xin has a bad reputation. Ever since she was in middle school, people have been gossiping about her. She has a bad temper and doesn't know how to respect others. Zheng Qinglan looked like a scholar. They didn't have the same temperament. How could they live well? Also, it was fine if Shang Liu Xin was muddle-headed, but her mother was even more muddle-headed than her. If a young lady did something wrong, it would be better if her maternal mother was there to take care of her. If her maternal mother doted on and protected her, wouldn't that be even worse?”Later, Jin Ling asked Zheng Qinglan many times how she was doing. Zheng Qinglan either said vaguely that it was okay or didn't say anything at all. It was obvious that she had something to hide. From this manuscript, Zheng Qinglan's life could be described as " a bunch of bitter tears, completely in the middle of water and fire." As she watched, Jin Ling's tears fell. Her heart ached as if it was being pricked by needles. When she finally finished reading it, she fell into a dilemma. Should he tell her his intuition? Should she use this opportunity to clarify her feelings for him? She couldn't make up her mind about the latter question, and she couldn't ask anyone else about it. If Sister-in-law was still around, he could ask. But now that Sister-in-law was gone, there was really nothing he could do. After all, this is not a small matter. He has a family and a daughter now. Logically speaking, I shouldn't disturb him. However, he really lives in pain, and I care so much about him. Am I being selfish? Yes, but no. Destroying a family would definitely bring harm to all or some of the members of the family. From this point of view, it was selfish. However, it seemed right to save him and even accept his daughter completely. Am I looking down on myself? Although I like him, what if he rejects me? Back then, I had already confessed to him, but he still chose Shang Liu Xin. Now that they have been married for more than ten years, and their daughter is already in her teens, it is entirely possible for him to reject me again. Sigh, this is really difficult. Forget it, I don't want to think so much. I'll see when the time comes. I'll see how I feel. If I still can't let go, I'll tell him clearly. How should she tell him her suggestions and ideas? She was afraid that she would miss something and that she would not be able to express herself clearly. It was better to write a letter and leave it with her brother in two days. She would ask him to get it himself or send it directly to the cultural center. Having made up her mind, Jin Ling began to write a letter. In order to have a more accurate grasp of the work, Jin Ling read the work from beginning to end regardless of day or night, and made some notes as she read.
Five days later, Jin Ling arrived in the city. Her mother also came with her. The old lady was worried about her son and said that she had to come down to see him no matter what. As soon as she got out of the car, the old lady rushed to the Jinzhu store. Jin Ling couldn't keep up with her and kept shouting. Only then did her mother slow down a little. Jin Ling grabbed her mother's hand and said," Mom, slow down. Why are you walking so fast? There are people and cars on the street. If anything happens, won't you make my brother worry again?”"I'm paying attention. Why is it so easy for something to happen?”"It's always better to be careful. It's not far anyway. You'll be able to see my brother in a few minutes.”When they were far away from the shop, the old lady said," Look, I haven't seen your brother's shadow even though we're so close. He must be busy. It's not easy for a person to take care of his business and his own life. It's hard on him."”"Then you can stay at my brother's place for a few more days to take care of him.”"What about your dad and you?" "We'll take care of ourselves." "I'm still worried. If you have a family, I'll be relieved.”"Mom, we're here. Look, isn't that my brother? He's busy.”The old lady called out,"Zhu 'er." She couldn't continue speaking, and her tears fell. Jin Zhu quickly welcomed the mother and son into the shop and said,"Mom, don't be sad. Aren't I fine? She could eat and sleep, and she was not sloppy in her work.”"Zhu 'er, don't lie to me. I know you're feeling bad too. Look at you, you've lost a lot of weight. I really don't dare to say that such a good wife left just like that.”Jin Ling said," Mom, this is something that people don't want to do. It's in the past. It's useless to say more. Let's think of something happy."”"You two sisters, one of you has lost your family, and the other hasn't even started a family yet. How can I be happy as a mother?”
The siblings fell silent. After a while, Jin Zhu said,"Lingzi, it's time for you to start a family. You're a good person who's not stupid, stupid, or ugly. You can't be an old lady forever, right?”"Brother, Mom and I are here to see you today. Why are you talking about me?”"Don't talk about other things. It's true that your brother is not lying. It's not an off-topic to talk about you. Just tell me what you plan to do today.”"Mom, it's not easy for you to come and visit my brother. Just tell him whatever you want to say and do whatever you want to help him with. It's not too late for us to talk about my matters when we get back. Anyway, I'm under your nose every day, so I can say it anytime. You're the Buddha, and I'm Sun Wukong.”After saying that, she laughed first. Jin Zhu also laughed a few times, but the old lady did not laugh at all. She said with a dark face,"I'm not Buddha. Buddha is the one who controls all living beings in the world. His ability is boundless. I can't even control the two of you.”Jin Zhu said," Mom, don't say these angry words. Everyone knows that you're a good person. Which family hasn't received your care? You're the Buddha on our side."”At this moment, a guest happened to arrive. Jin Ling said,"Brother, go and greet the guests. Mom and I will help you clean up inside and out.”Jin Zhu went to greet the guests. Jin Ling pulled her mother aside and whispered,"Mom, do you still feel sorry for your son?”"Look at what you're saying. How can I not feel sorry for my son? If I don't feel sorry for him, why would I come all the way to the city?”"I don't think you care about my brother. Instead, you're deliberately making him sad.”"You're talking nonsense again. My heart hurts so much that I can't even handle it. You even made him sad.”"My sister-in-law has only been gone for a few months. My brother is so sad. Why don't you say something happy at this time? Why do you keep talking about things like losing a family?”"I'm so anxious that I'm confused. Then I'll say it in front of you if I don't say it in front of your brother.”"Anyway, you can't say it today. Think about it. If the two of us were to whisper at the side, my brother would definitely be suspicious. What are these two women talking about behind my back? It definitely isn't something good. Otherwise, they wouldn't be afraid that I would hear them.”"Don't use these tricks to shut my mouth. You're even playing tricks on me.”"I'm really not playing tricks on you. Think about it carefully and see if what I said makes sense.”"Then I'll be a mute today to avoid trouble.”"Mom, you're thinking about the wrong thing again. If you suddenly don't say anything, my brother will be worried about you. You have to tell him about the happy things like our family's income so far this year, my uncle's grandson, and new things from far away.”"No matter how happy the matter is, it doesn't drink your wedding wine.”"Mom, why are you so stubborn? How about this? When we go back, even if you shout into my ear with a loudspeaker, I won't hide. I'll let you talk for three days and three nights.”"I don't want to put up a loudspeaker, nor do I want to talk about it for three days and three nights. I just want you to agree as soon as I say it.”Jin Ling laughed for a while before she stopped. She coughed and said,"Mom, you're getting more and more humorous. I'm dying of laughter.”"You're so heartless. You don't know what's so funny.”"It's just funny."
The mother and son cleaned up the inside and outside and wiped the utensils clean. As they talked, it was time to cook lunch. The mother and son cooked a few more dishes, four meat and two vegetables. When Jin Ling saw that there were no more customers, she brought the dishes to the table and walked to the door to shout,"Brother, it's time to eat." Jin Zhu replied,"I'm coming." When he walked into the house, his eyes lit up and he said,"Ah, it's so clean. It looks like the new year is coming again.”"Then we'll come over to help you collect them once in a while in the future.”"No need, no need. You guys haven't been idle at home. I'll collect them myself in the future.”"Brother, you're the only one taking care of such a big shop. You have to do business and take care of your own life. It's really impossible without someone to help. Why don't you hire someone to help? Come, let's talk while eating. Aren't you drinking?”"I don't want to drink. I haven't had any wine since your sister-in-law left.”"Find someone to help. One person can't handle it.”"Yes, I'm also thinking about finding someone to help. I've already asked someone to help me. I might get a reply in a few days. Maybe I won't be the only one who comes to this shop next time.”"No matter how close the person is, he's still an outsider.”"Mom, let's not talk about this anymore. There's nothing we can do about it. It's useless to say more. The people who left have already left.”"How is Xiao Rui now?" "I often call him. He said that he has thought things through now. He also often calls home and asks about this and that. He talks much more than when his mother was around. I know that he's afraid that I'll be lonely and wants to talk to me more.”
After dinner, Jin Ling said to Jin Zhu,""Brother, I'll help you take care of the shop.”"Forget it. It's been a long time since I took an afternoon nap. I'm used to it. You should go rest. After you're done resting, bring Mom out for a walk.”"I've never had a lunch break before, and I'm used to it. I'll do the same as you. When you wake up, I'll go to the cultural center and give Zheng Qinglan's manuscript to him. I don't think he's in the museum now. I won't be able to find him even if I go.”Jin Zhu said," That's right. He should be home for dinner at this time. He has to go to work after two o'clock. Then I'll go and lie down for a while. Thank you for your hard work."”"Go, it's not hard."
Jin Ling took out the manuscript and casually flipped through it. As she read it, her heart surged with sorrow. She was also wondering if the letter she wrote to Zheng Qinglan was appropriate. It wasn't too late to give him the suggestions about the manuscript and leave the part that involved her feelings for him. However, once it was handed to him, it would be another matter. If it were to spread, I would become a third party. Was it glorious to do so? How will he react? How will he look at me? Can I still be with him in this life? Aiya, what am I doing? I clearly know that she has a family and a child, but I still have to confess to her. Isn't this too selfish and shameless? He wasn't shameless. Although he had a family, he and his wife were like strangers. He didn't have her in his heart, and she didn't treat him as her husband. But even so, I can't just interfere like this. Thinking back, I've already made it clear, but he still married Shang Liu Xin. What's the point of me doing this now? I'm just asking for trouble again. But if I don't do this, will he live like this for the rest of his life? This was too cruel to him. He was such a gentle and loving person. Why did he have to endure such a long period of emotional torture? He should have a sweet love life. I believe I can give him such a life.
"Lingzi, what are you thinking about?”It was Jin Zhu who woke up and asked when he saw Jin Ling sitting there in a daze.
"Ah, no…nothing. Brother, do you have any starch?”"Yes, I opened a bottle two days ago and used it. There's still some left. I'll give it to you.”"I'll wrap Zheng Qinglan's manuscript before giving it to him so that it won't be ruined.”"Weren't you going to give it to him soon? How could it be ruined?”"In short, it's more prudent to wrap it up. This is the fruit of his hard work. I have to show my respect, don't you think so?”"I don't know about other things, but it's never wrong to take others seriously.”
Jin Ling wrapped the manuscript and the letter she wrote to Zheng Qinglan together and said to Jin Zhu,""Brother, I'm going." She then said to her mother," Mom, let's go together. I found Zheng Qinglan and gave her the book. We'll go shopping together and buy some clothes for you and Dad to wear in June."”"Girl, you're talking nonsense. It's only been a few months, why are there clothes for June so early?”"There is. This city isn't like our countryside. When we were still wearing down jackets, people were already wearing skirts. The weather is getting hotter now. There must be clothes for summer, right, brother?。”"You're right, but why would you need to go to the street to buy it? There are many shops around us, and we're familiar with people. The price will definitely be much cheaper than buying it on the street.”"That's right. If I wanted to buy clothes, I would have bought them nearby. Why would I go out to the streets to buy them?”"In that case, I'll go. I'll look for clothes nearby when I come back.”
After Jin Ling walked away, her mother turned around and said to Jin Zhu,"Zhu Zi, why don't you try to persuade your sister? She's already in her thirties and still hasn't started a family yet. Look at how happy she was just now. She was so happy when she talked about Zheng Qinglan. If she's unhappy, she'll be fine as long as Zheng Qinglan persuades her. I used to think that Zheng Qinglan wasn't married and that they were fine.”"Mom, we often talked about Sister when Xianglan was still alive. Xianglan tried to persuade her a lot, but she always said that there was no suitable person. Even if I try to persuade her now, she will definitely still say the same thing.”"Then what should we do? Let her be single for the rest of her life?”"No matter what, she has to wake up on her own. No matter what we say, it won't work.”" I think she's completely devoted to Zheng Qinglan. She doesn't even know that she has a family and a business now. She's a complete family. I'm afraid that if this goes on…sooner or later…"”The mother and daughter were still discussing Jin Ling's matter. Jin Ling had already arrived at the cultural center. She had been here before, so she naturally found Zheng Qinglan's office.
Jin Ling stood at the door and called out,"Qing Lan." Zheng Qinglan was writing something on a piece of paper when she heard someone calling her. She looked up and saw Jin Ling. He couldn't believe his eyes. He looked carefully again and confirmed that it was indeed Jin Ling. He was overjoyed and quickly asked,"Why are you here today?" "Why didn't you invite me to sit down?" Jin Ling said with a smile.”Zheng Qinglan smiled too." I was so happy to see you that I forgot. Please don't take offense."”"Who's blaming you? I'm not petty.”"I don't think you'll blame me. You, you're a good person.”"I don't want to be a good person anymore. I want to be a bad person.”"You really know how to joke. You can't be a bad person just because you want to. You're such a good person.”"I've had enough of being a good person. I don't want to be a good person anymore. I want to change my profession and become a bad person.”"Why do you have such a strange idea? Did you encounter some problem? Oh, I know. You must want to experience the role, right?”"If you say so, it's not wrong. However, this role is mine. I'm playing it myself.”"Isn't it good to be a good person? Why do you want to be a bad person? Aren't you afraid that bad people will be criticized?”"Good people are submissive, while bad people are unrestrained. Good people lived cowardly lives, while bad people lived carefree lives.”"Your thinking is so scary. How did you become like this after not seeing you for a few days? Are you really determined to be a bad person?”"I'm just joking with you." Jin Ling chuckled.”"I was wondering how an angel could become a devil. You haven't answered me yet. Why did you come here today?”"Sister-in-law left. My mother was afraid that my brother would be alone and left alone. She was worried and came down to take a look, so I accompanied her. That's right. This trip really happened. He was alone. My brother was busy with this and that. The shop was still decent, but the place where he lived and the place where he cooked and ate was not in good condition. My mother said it was similar to a pigsty. My mother and I helped him clean it up for a long time before it was acceptable.”"Yeah, there were a lot of things to do, and I was in a bad mood, so I was too lazy to do anything. When Sister-in-law was around, every time I went, the shop was cleaned up. It was pleasing to the eye. Sigh, if only sister-in-law hadn't left. How have you been these days?" "When Sister-in-law left, I couldn't let go. After a while, I knew that it was irreversible, so I slowly wanted to wear it. However, he still hoped that this was not the truth. He hoped that his sister-in-law would come back. He kept feeling that she was not dead. I also know that this can only be thought of. It's impossible for it to come true. By the way, I've finished reading all your manuscripts.”"Ah, so fast. I thought you hadn't started reading yet.”"I wasn't in the mood to watch it for a while, so I only watched it later.”"Any suggestions? Tell me." "It's not really a suggestion. It's just some of my immature opinions. I've already written them down and put them together with the manuscript.”Jin Ling took out a tightly wrapped manuscript from her bag and handed it to Zheng Qinglan. She said," You go ahead. I should go. My mom is still waiting for me at my brother's place. I'll ask her to take a ride with me."”"I'll ride my bike to send you there." "No need, I'll walk over. It's still early anyway, so there's no hurry. I don't have any skill. Some things I say are definitely wrong, or even nonsense. Don't laugh at me.”"How could that be?" "Then I'll be leaving."
Zheng Qinglan sent Jin Ling downstairs and watched her leave until she disappeared into the crowd. Then, she turned around and ran upstairs. She knocked on the door and gulped down a glass of water. Before she could catch her breath, she opened the package. When she saw Jin Ling wrapping the manuscript so carefully, she had a strong feeling that there must be something else in it besides the manuscript, and it must be something that she couldn't express in person. What could this be? This question had been stuck in his heart since the first time he saw the package. He held the manuscript tightly in his left hand and pulled a corner of the wrapping paper with his right hand. With a rip, the wrapping paper was torn in half, revealing a few folded letters and manuscripts. Zheng Qinglan opened the letter, and the handsome handwriting reflected in his eyes. He read ten lines at a glance.
Qing Lan:
I'm sorry for taking so long to hand over the manuscript to you and making you wait. You know my situation, so I won't say much.
First of all, I like this manuscript very much. As soon as I opened it, I couldn't put it down. I almost finished reading it in one go. What attracted me was not only the plot but also the unique language. What moved me the most was the feelings of the male protagonist.
The plot of this novel was not very complicated and dangerous. It was like a quietly flowing stream. It was gentle and elegant, bringing you to appreciate the stories of the book and into the heart of the protagonist. The language of this novel is just like its plot. It's clean, bright, gentle, and smooth. It also reflects the author's personality very well. I think this language is so consistent with you, so appropriate. This language should be unique to you. There's a hint of melancholy in the bright, but there's no lack of humor in the heavy.
The male protagonist was a person with a broad mind and delicate emotions. On the one hand, he was willing to give everything for others, but at the same time, he longed to enjoy pure and beautiful love. Originally, this was not a contradiction, but because he married a person he did not love under a specific environment, his love life was extremely painful. His own pursuit of pure and beautiful feelings and his loveless marriage that he had to stick to formed a pair of contradictions. His loyalty to marriage and his wife's betrayal of marriage formed another pair of contradictions. The fall of society and his persistence formed the third pair of contradictions. Of course, this was only the most important contradiction among the many contradictions. From these contradictions, it was not difficult to see that the male protagonist was almost isolated and helpless, and his opposition was so powerful. Living in such an environment was his personal sorrow and the misfortune of this era.
Although every corner of this society was filled with material desires, the protagonist did not necessarily encounter a sad emotional life. The reason why he was sad was caused by himself. He did not have to fall into such misfortune. He had a chance to avoid it before he got married, and he also had a chance to avoid it after he got married. However, he still refused to escape from the unfortunate marriage. His persistence seemed meaningless. It was cruel to himself and hurt others. However, from a personal point of view, this seemed to be reasonable. However, in a larger context, this kind of persistence seemed very meaningful. In fact, people were obsessed with the pursuit of pure love, especially in China. This was not a bad thing. In love life, we should have a strong sense of responsibility. This sense of responsibility was not only for ourselves, but also for your future partner. It could even be raised to the level of being responsible for society and humanity. A relationship can make a person's life beautiful, and a relationship can also cause a person's life of misfortune. This is the most intuitive impression I got from this novel.
The male protagonist's talent was admirable, and the male protagonist's experience was lamentable. The reason for the male protagonist's tragedy was not only the social factors and his own reasons, but also the heroine's shamelessness. She was a bad woman who was unclean before marriage and unfaithful after marriage. Such a woman was too shameless. She should go to hell.
I'm worried that this novel is too realistic. It's like a true record of society. If this book is released to the public, people will definitely fly into a rage and attack the author in all kinds of ways. Of course, this kind of attack will also include personal attacks. At that time, you will fall into endless trouble and won't be able to avoid it. I don't know if you've thought about it.
As mentioned before, the male protagonist should obtain the pure and beautiful feelings he pursued. If there was such a person in this world, I was willing to give up everything for him.
Don't blame me for my shallow views!
Jinling
15 April 2001
Zheng Qinglan read it again. Like a primary school student reading a book, she pointed at each word with her finger and read it again until she was sure that she didn't miss a single word on the paper. Then, she folded the letter according to the original crease. It was not that he did not know Jin Ling's inner thoughts. He was often troubled by this matter, but he could not convince her, so he left it there for so many years. Now Yaya was already in her teens, and Jin Ling was still alone. It was time to settle this matter with her. He picked up the pen and wrote a letter to Jin Ling, but after a few lines, he couldn't continue. Such matters were complicated. How could they be explained through letters? They had to communicate face to face for a long time. It was impossible today. Tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, the sooner the better. He placed Jin Ling's letter at the bottom of the drawer and placed two thick and heavy books on top of it. He locked the drawer after thinking that it would not be lost or seen by others.
Jin Ling and Luo Tianyin had the same opinion about the manuscript. The plot of the novel was too close to their own reality, which might be detrimental to them. If they wanted the readers to think that it was just a novel and not a real event, they had to make major changes. However, this went against their original intention and could not achieve the effect they wanted to express. In this way, the impact of the novel would be greatly reduced. What should he do? Do you want the effect or your future life? If it only involved me, I could disregard everything, but if it involved Shang Liu Xin, then I had to consider it carefully. Back then, I had made up my mind to give her a happy life, but now not only did I fail, I might even put her in front of everyone again. Doing this is immoral. Even though she deserved to be condemned, she couldn't do this. Especially Yaya. If this matter attracted the attention of others, it was impossible for Yaya not to be affected. She was still a child, so cute and innocent. How could she bear such a blow? It was worth it even if he had to sacrifice a little.
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