Chapter 17 The Dilemma of Love
I fell in love with Miss Hui, and the two of them were immersed in beauty.
The girl's parents also think that my family is poor, advised her daughter to choose another, and for her to choose a rich family handsome guy.
Even though Miss Hui likes me, she doesn't say anything even if I don't bring her home.
I feel very painful: I have been haggard and frightened recently. There is no way to solve the problem of love. Is it a debt of love in a previous life? A kind of hard work, often after the end of the song, the feelings are not exhausted, the struggle to ask is not a brush and ink. There's nothing in the world that can help you. How can I rely on the wind to know your face? What did it mean to be a beauty and a talented scholar who knew each other, but the night was long and tasteless? I'm afraid that when the dream comes, the two will never end. A few bitter tears, no one thought about it, in the end also asked Yi see how is, originally is it you?
I, Jian Qidi, advised my elder brother, Miss Bai has been pursuing you, why are you unwilling?
I Jian said: I regard Miss Bai as my younger sister.
In my heart, I thought,'Because I'm not a perfect person, I'm hot-tempered.' Because love is a kind of injury, and I don't want to hurt her.
I heard this and said,"Brother, why do you choose the difficult and refuse the easy?" Especially when it was so hard to love someone, it was better to choose to be relaxed and honest. It was difficult to love someone, but it was easy for someone to love you. There is a saying: a man loves a woman, a thousand mountains; Women love men, separated by gauze. Why bother if you love with uncertainty? Women were like the clouds in the sky, fickle and unpredictable.
I don't speak, my mind is ethereal.
Since Wo Xing had already said this, there was nothing else he could say. After all, love was a personal matter. It was related to one's own happiness. No one else could replace it.
I was angry at Miss Hui's behavior, so I often hung out with Miss Yu from the neighboring village. I really liked Miss Yu, but because I was in love with Miss Hui now, Miss Hui always gave people the feeling that she was immature.
This day, when Miss Hui saw that I, Jian, was always with Miss Yu, she left in tears.
I hurried to find Miss Hui, but I still care about her.
All of this was seen by Miss Bai who was walking together with the Miss Hui. Miss Bai was very happy in her heart, but she stopped me who was chasing the Miss Hui and said with a laugh,"You've really angered her this time."
"What did she say?" Wo Jian asked Miss Bai hurriedly.”His gaze was following Miss Hui's back.
Miss Bai almost clapped her hands and said with a smile,"Ask her!" You might know, you might never know.
Wo Jian knew that he wouldn't be able to get any answers from her, but he could understand Miss Bai's words and actions, so he left Miss Bai behind to chase after Miss Hui.
Miss Hui walked away as if nothing had happened. She still had a smile on her face, and her eyes were obviously red from crying.
Seeing that I couldn't ask and the other party refused to talk, I felt very painful. Can pity, can sigh, cloud sorrow rain hate, what is the limit of love? I've come back and forth more than a thousand times. How do I know? How can I fight to see you? I'm all alone. Rain evening clouds in the morning to see two souls disappear? How can I be sad for a moment? Sometimes the soul and dream are broken, what kind of emotion is it? only then do I know where my lover is. Cold mood, slow difficulty, empty lock full courtyard flower rain. I lean alone on the carved railing, looking at each other for thousands of miles, where can the sound and dust point to? I have a feeling of pity, don't be annoying, love to a piece of idle sorrow. I always sleep alone at night, but it's the most unreasonable place. Often sad autumn, suddenly feel the taste of parting? Many things have not been solved, but also thousands of thoughts. Only lonely and lonely, but also disgusted with the world tied to the heart of life, but also let people down thousands of tears? The flowers of the year are fleeting, why worry about the clouds and hate the rain? The clouds and smoke are only that day, and the romantic atmosphere has become a sorrow for thousands of years. Why?
Miss Bai asked me with concern," What else did the person you love say?
I Jian said,"She didn't say anything, she just gave up on me."
Miss Bai said," Once, Miss Hui and I were called over by Miss Ao. Miss Ao even said," I, Jian Ren, am quite good. Don't miss this opportunity. Otherwise, I'll chase after you." I didn't expect Miss Ao to fail to negotiate with you. She even said," Don't be happy. If I can't negotiate, you won't have a chance either." I can see that Miss Ao still has you in her heart, why can't you?
" The past is the past. Even if you love her, you will give up." Wo Jian said firmly. Even though there was a lot of reluctance in her heart, she was willing to spend it in her memories. No matter how much she loved him, she was willing to feel heartache for him. Let everything become the best memory! I will never turn back. Unless she turns back, I can still consider it.
In fact, I am also missing Miss Ao in my heart. I have been unable to let go of her and have been struggling in my heart. Torment. tormented. In pain. However, he would rather bury this love and regret it. In pain.
I didn't get together with Miss Yu because my parents thought that Miss Yu was too weak to bear the burden of my family.
Miss Yu was my type, but I also hoped that my once-in-a-lifetime lover would also receive the blessings of his family, so I gave up.
In fact, I have unknowingly and Ao. All the girls made the same mistake. They sacrificed their first love for the sake of their family's wishes, which might bring them a lifetime of happiness.
I knew that Miss Ao was married and that her parents had arranged for her to marry into a " rich and powerful family " and that she had to leave the country. Miss Bai's marriage was not to her liking and Miss Yu was still being pursued by a man of her dreams. It was just that she was still lonely.
What is the feeling in my heart? The sweet, gentle fragrance in the broken dream brought a hint of resentment. At the beginning of the dream, it always dragged out a miserable and lost scene like the spring rain and autumn frost. The true love hidden in the heart began to void? Can you rely on feelings to endure the devouring of mature desires? How could a person practice a charming smile with endless tears of emotion and desire? And the true form that replaced love was to express that true love could not stop desires or desires could not satisfy true love. How should one face it? Is the fulfillment of love and desire really for the satisfaction of love? Is there another kind of helplessness between innocence and desire that makes people afraid to write and afraid that they will be confused and continue to be sad?
As expected, Ao Ze was named on the Golden Roll. With a high salary, he naturally had to leave his father-in-law's house, afraid that others would gossip about him.
She respected her husband's feelings and admired his independence.
CuoJue didn't want his daughter to leave with Ao Ze and wanted to stay at home. It was also because his daughter's precious body had never suffered before that he felt heartache.
The wrong person said,"When a daughter marries a chicken, she will follow the chicken. When a daughter marries a dog, she will follow the dog. Since a daughter has chosen this path, this is her destiny." Forgive your daughter for being unfilial, but there will come a day when she will not be able to bear the joy of your knees.
The illusion said: Although the daughter is too big to stay, but always people to serve the daughter.
CuoJue didn't want his daughter to serve Ao Ze's mother with her delicate body. A deflated village granny. It wasn't easy to explain, so it was very secretive. The meaning behind his words was very obvious. There was also a sense of looking down on the Aoze family.
CuoJue continued to say,"If my daughter wants to show filial piety to Ao Ze's mother, I'll send a few maids to her." I still have the ability to support you, as long as you're at home.
The wrong person said: Since the daughter is someone else's daughter-in-law, filial piety is also reasonable. It was human nature. Since she was the mother of her husband, she was also the mother-in-law of her daughter. If you can't be filial, how can you win over your husband's heart?
Seeing that his daughter was determined, he wasn't strong.
Ao Ze wanted to be self-reliant and well-fed. Although his salary was high, he still needed to buy real estate and food. He also had to make some friends to eat and drink. He also had to take care of his old mother and support his servants.
This forced CuoCong to sell some jewelry in private. Because the money that her parents gave her would eventually run out. Who asked her husband to be jealous and not allow her to take more from home, saying that she could support the whole family? Now, she, who used to be well-fed and always lived a comfortable life, could not open her mouth when she came home, but her husband was still "unwilling". However, he had already stepped on this pile of sh * t and accepted it. Married chicken followed chicken, married dog followed dog! It was not good for the servants to know that she had deliberately gone home to take money. She had to take care of her husband's face even if she sold her jewelry.
In short, Ao Ze's family still had servants at first. Later, due to financial constraints, the number of servants decreased. By the time the Ao family was left with only his mother and Cuozhong (Cuozhong had to resign from his servant).
She had fallen ill from exhaustion after giving up her noble family to take care of the elderly and the young. Fortunately, Ao Ze still " loved " her so much-at least on the surface.
In other words, Ao Ze was now very proud of himself. In order to live a good life, to be respected, to show his talent, and to be valued by the Emperor, he had no choice but to show himself. In the court, he diligently wrote to the emperor, trying to show that he was speaking generously.
Ao Ze was like a newborn calf that was not afraid of tigers. Not only did the others not like him, but his father-in-law also did not like him. Many people shook their heads.
I admire Ao Ze's courage and like it.
After leaving the court, Father-in-law CuoJue said to Ao Ze," It is right for you to ask the emperor to stay away from villains and approach gentlemen, but you have offended the nobles around the emperor. It's good that you're diligent in your duties, but you're too sharp and easy to offend powerful people. Also, people are saying that you're too extravagant and that you're living like a joke.
Ao Zeqi said indifferently,"What's there to be afraid of?" Who wouldn't talk about people behind their backs? I don't see people talking about me, but I see people talking about me. This is the principle. Let them gossip! It was no good to see them laughing at the pot calling the kettle black. Weren't they like the saying," If yellow mud falls into the crotch, it's not shit, but it's shit "?
CuoJue was unhappy and said with a hint of anger and persuasion, I've crossed more bridges than you've eaten salt. If you hadn't eaten pork before, you would have seen a pig run. You were afraid that a mouthful of saliva from each person could drown you. Don't be disobedient. You can't touch a tiger's butt. A dog that bites people doesn't show its teeth. There are many people who are bad and have pus flowing from their feet. The tail of a scorpion tiger can be cut off today and grow back tomorrow. Don't you say that you can't do things properly? Keep your mouth shut. Don't be stubborn. Some people just spit on you and you're still happy? So beautiful that your nose is bubbling. These people might have bad intentions and wanted to trick you. You're laughing so hard that your back teeth are showing, and your mouth is sliding down to your ears. You're the one who yawned loudly. What are you pretending to be? Why are you stretching your neck? You're the only one with a mouth? Did he not have a mouth? You're the only one who knows how to talk? Can't she tell when her mouth is swollen?
Ao Ze didn't make a sound. He curled his lips to the side, looking like he was pinching his nose.
CuoJue continued,"If the sky falls, there will be a place to catch it. Evil people will be tortured by evil people. What does it matter to you?" You're a pile of bloody mud, all talking about bits and pieces that can't be steamed or boiled. It seems that you are the only one who can do it in the imperial court, and no one else can. Other people don't understand, only you understand. You have to know that there are many capable people in the royal court. There's always someone better than you. Why did she run away faster than anyone else when she was in trouble? This was to protect himself. You're the one with the unstable kettle and the unstable egg. It's as if you're the only one with a mouth in this world? You're doing all the work for me. If this continues, you'll be meat on the chopping board sooner or later.
How could Ao Ze dare to be long-winded in front of his father-in-law? It was like a deflated ball.
The illusion said,"If you can't save 4 taels of oil in your stomach, how can you achieve great things in the future?" To think that you still have a belly full of ink. The ups and downs of the official world were not something one could imagine. Don't be too full, smacking some stupid radish and vegetables. It's as if you've been bewitched by someone. It's so fierce that people are on tenterhooks with you. Usually, it's the bold ones who are full to death. Do you really think that you have a lot of face when others don't talk about you? I'm using my butt as my face. He's trying to show me some face. Others can behave themselves with their tails between their legs, so why can't you behave yourself with your tails between your legs? Why did I say so many good things? If you weren't my son-in-law, I wouldn't care about you. " Don't blame Earth for not attracting you when you poop." Be more reliable and think twice before you act. If there's something dirty, poop it quickly and remember the clean ones in your heart.
Father-in-law is right." Ao Ze said this with a submissive look. The old man looked like he was afraid that the leaves would fall and hit his head. He was really afraid that he would fart and hit his heels.
Although Ao Ze had told his father-in-law that he had to change his bad habit of 'speaking up for righteousness', he still couldn't control his mouth in court.
CuoJue was so angry that he simply ignored him and couldn't be bothered to care, so he let him listen. She shouldn't have married her daughter to him back then. There was a certain logic in a match of equal social status. Why did he have to find an ignorant young man? He was afraid that his hard-earned future would be ruined by this kind of person who didn't know the immensity of heaven and earth. It was fine if he didn't want his official career, but he was afraid that it would bring a bloody disaster to his family. His daughter might suffer if she married him! She always thought that he was talented, but he was just a bag of grass. Knowing literature and ink, you should know the truth. Who knew that you didn't know human affairs? This book was read in vain.
Some officials privately wrote that Ao Ze was too young and full of arrogance. His real purpose was nothing more than to attract the emperor's attention and then promote himself.
Another said: Clearly, the motive is not pure. Not long after he took office, he repeatedly wrote letters to express his political views. We've been playing politics in the court for so many years, but are we still inferior to a young man like him? Newborn calves were not afraid of tigers. Sooner or later, trouble would be caused by his destructive mouth. He still hadn't been an official before. Once he got an official position, he didn't know where he was and couldn't find his position. If the emperor wanted to be close to the virtuous and distant from the villains, could it be that those close to the emperor were all villains? if you offend others, you won't show it. How could Lord Jue Cuo have such a son-in-law? Jue Cuo Daren would be killed by him sooner or later. Jue Cuo looked like a good old man, but he couldn't even pick up his chopsticks and was even stepping on his nose.
The man said: people look at the illusion wrong adult face, he is really a villain to climb up the dragon phoenix, is a villain to achieve success. His ideas were not in line with the opinions of the important officials in the court. He was not good at politics, but he was good at poetry. However, there was something wrong with his character when he played poetry. a breed of character Character. Character. Character. quality. Morality. taste. Her taste was terrible.
The emperor personally summoned Ao Ze.
Ao Ze was drinking at his father-in-law's house when he was summoned. He looked at his father-in-law proudly and turned around to return to the throne room.
Ao Ze was overjoyed to be an official and his salary increased.
Yan Ruyu didn't go home when she returned to Jianye. She even inquired about Ao Ze's residence. She saw Ao Ze's mansion and his beautiful wife. Ao Ze loved his wife so much, so she went back to Yan's Alley with tears and the maid Yin 'er.
In addition to natural beauty, a woman's confidence and calmness were also beautiful. Only such beauty could resist time.
Yan Ruyu was such a beauty. Even though she was in pain, she didn't say anything. After experiencing a deep love, she did not expect that fate was shallow. Cherish the dream of youth, cherish the time together, always hope to dream of crossing the mortal world as you wish, but you can't know the answer in my heart. Who wouldn't be crazy when they were young and still wander alone? Why did some people feel that this longing wasn't beautiful and romantic enough? Accompanied by the loneliness of the bright moon, accompanied by the hardships of the wind and rain, just to cherish the past and hold hands? Who knows that having no regrets is also a kind of beauty in life? Love is actually in my heart. The highest state of love is heartache. Why can't someone understand that we are destined to be together?
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