Ni Weier, your appearance changed my life. Your friendly concern made me understand that my situation is like a melody, but not a tune.
I'm your daughter, and legally speaking, you're my supervisor. In front of outsiders, I'm also your beautiful and obedient daughter, but I know that's not the case.
The two of us are separated by the name of Sisi, so I can never touch your heart. The lack of kinship made the pitiful mother-daughter relationship between us seem so pale, so pale that the two of us would rather bury ourselves in that smiling mask politely and kindly. Only the pair of eyes that were filled with fatigue and loneliness became a flaw that could not be covered up by each other.
Ni Weier gave me a rich material life. She never rejected anything I needed. Even if my requests were unreasonable, she would do her best to satisfy them.
When I realized that I would never be able to enter her heart, only I knew how painful it was.
Originally, I thought that the heavens had taken pity on me and allowed me to meet someone I could rely on. However, through my own sorrow, I became the shadow of someone else missing their daughter. No matter how good it was to me, it was always separated by that layer of blood that I could not understand.
Forget it, people should be content with what they have. I don't even need to wander around now. What's there to be unsatisfied about? Material life is what I want. What nonsense about kinship? Do I have the right to do that?
My own parents threw me out like trash. To me, kinship is as cheap as an ant to fill my stomach. It's more important to curry favor with my parents. How much does kinship cost? That's so hypocritical.
I can now sit in the bright classroom, wearing my beautiful princess dress, listening to the teachers desperately asking about my new mother's hobbies. Isn't that great? Time passed really quickly. In the blink of an eye, it was almost winter vacation. Thanks to the teacher's hard work, Ni Weier was very satisfied with my first grade in primary school. It was time for the parent-teacher conference.
Didn't he know that Ni Weier would come? She's so busy and has endless banquets every day. Forget it, I won't tell her. Anyway, I'm not very important to her.
I'm not her Sisi, it's not a good thing to keep disturbing her. In the afternoon, the parent-teacher conference that happened once a semester came. Every table was a standard one big and one small. Only I sat at the front with a lonely face.
As I listened to the interaction between the teachers and parents, the children and parents who were called out one by one looked happy.
When it was time for Ni Weier and me, I fell silent. The excitement around me was just a kind of envy that didn't belong to me. What right did I have to ask Ni Weier to attend my parent-teacher conference? I didn't dare to tell her, afraid that I would see her in a difficult position.
Attending the parent-teacher conference for a daughter who doesn't belong to her is a kind of irony to her. It will make her fall into the crazy longing for Sisi again. I don't want to provoke her anymore.
It was rare for me to have a peaceful family life, so I didn't want to disrupt it. Ni Weier's presence at the parent-teacher conference brought me back to my own world with her guilt towards Sisi. It was a silent irony to both of us.
To me, I have never been her daughter. To her, I have always been the shadow of her longing for her daughter. Isn't it good for me to attend the parent-teacher conference alone? Neither of us would feel too awkward and uncomfortable. I sat quietly in my seat and ignored the lively discussions around me.
I didn't listen to those rumors about me, I raised my head and tried to bend the most complete arc to pull out the most charming smile, sending away the ridicule next to me, not thinking about the applause that had nothing to do with me.
A long time ago, I had my own protective umbrella. To deal with the ridicule around me, I only had complete indifference and the most perfect curve of the corner of my mouth. Only then would I not become the target of others 'baring their fangs and brandishing their claws again. No matter how difficult it was for you to laugh at me, I would still pull out the smile that I was most familiar with.
After practicing for hundreds of turns, the smile never caught my big eyes. Standing in front of the mirror, I practiced every smile seriously.
That way, I wouldn't be afraid that one day I wouldn't even know how to smile. Standing in front of the mirror and looking at those eyes full of sadness and loneliness, I couldn't even pull out the arc of the corner of my mouth. I thought I was really tired, but if I didn't even know how to smile.
Then what am I left with? Then how could I resist the ridicule they gave me? The world was so big, why couldn't they give me a sincere love? Perhaps I had committed too many sins in my previous life, so I could only live in the shadows of others in this life and live conscientiously while watching others 'expressions.
What does life mean to me? How long do I have to live until I see the light of hope? The morning sun washed away yesterday's dust and brought me a new sunny day. I don't know what change today's good weather can bring me.
Ni Weier was in a good mood today. After eating my breakfast, she started to bring me out. Is there a parent-teacher conference today? Mommy will go with our princess.”
Niwei 'er still raised her charming face that was not stained by time at all
, still smiling at me. Her fair and tender fingers gently held my left hand. That bright and gentle smile softened the entire time and space, but only dimmed my world.
It was still the face I loved the most, but it was not the same in my mind. My eyes looked deeply into those similar eyes.
" There is no parent-teacher conference, not now or in the future," a faint voice echoed around me, but my tears fell disobediently.
My memory of you is still stuck at yesterday's farce of missing my daughter, but now you're acting like a mother and daughter to the shadow. Ni Weier, how hypocritical are you? Do you know how deeply your hypocrisy hurt my heart?
I slowly pulled my small hand out of her grasp. I looked at the smile that had yet to fully bloom in her eyes. In the next moment, her beautiful smile withered. I stubbornly stared at her face and saw that she was slightly disappointed, but I wasn't as happy as I had imagined. I thought that I must have been poisoned by Ni Weier too deeply, so much so that my love for her became more and more eager for it to really belong to me alone. I'm starting to hate that Sisi who's not by her side but still occupies Ni Weier's heart and soul. The old heavens would joke with me, tease me over and over again, and give me hope every time, but I still couldn't see my future.
As for my parents, they gave me a fresh life, but I'm dying on the edge of food and clothing. Is this fate? Does this woman whom I keep calling mother really treat me as her daughter?
However, I saw the lock that belonged to me in the depths of her heart. It separated me from the meaning of Ni Weier calling me 'mom'. I knew that Ni Weier really couldn't find fault with me.
She called me princess and gave me the living environment I dreamed of, but she set up a wall for me in her heart. I could never walk into the other side of the wall. That was the pure land she had reserved for Sisi, so our kinship was just a flower in the mirror and a moon in the water. It was just an illusion.
Forget it, there was no need to ask for layers of protection from her family. She would just stay here for a day. When I pulled her hand away from me, tears fell.
I held my pink bag strap with both hands, raised my feet, turned around, and walked out of the house. I slowly opened the heavy iron door and walked in the direction of the school alone with small steps. It made my tears fall again for yesterday.。。
Ni Weier didn't chase after him either.'I think I should learn to grow up without Ni Weier's care. I still have no hope of getting kinship in this world, so I don't have to ask for anything in the future. Let's just keep our last peace and quiet.'
You quietly wait for the warmth in your heart for her. I don't think I will disturb the warmth of your longing anymore. I don't care about forced kinship and mother's love! Keep your love for her.
In the future, you don't have to squeeze out that caring and loving smile in front of me. Since you can't smile sincerely at me, there's no need to hide it.
'I'm not your daughter, I'm just her shadow. Ni Weier, please stop smiling like you're so weak. I think you're a hypocrite!'
Time gradually slipped away as Ni Weier and I pretended to be together. Our interactions seemed harmonious and warm, but only we knew how tiring it was to pretend to be together. We couldn't live under the same roof. I was her daughter, and she was my new mother. Even if we couldn't be sincere to each other,
However, it was already pretty good to treat each other with respect. Other than the fact that we couldn't care about each other, Ni Weier was quite generous with other living materials.。As long as the other children don't have anything that I lack, and they don't have what I have,
Like what I eat, use, and wear, they are either this year's fashion or expensive products in specialty stores. My life is very enviable. So what if I'm not your biological child? My life is still far beyond your reach.
You laugh at me for not having biological parents, but my existence proves your parents 'incompetence.
You can only look at my beautiful clothes and envy me. You can only watch me eat the pure chocolate imported from Germany every day. Other than my parents, who are a scar in my heart, none of you have the right to laugh at me.
Time flies, and the wind blows the fleeting years that are broken like flowers.
Ni Weier, your smile is swaying and has become the most beautiful ornament in my life. I look at the sky, the snow, and the deep shadows of the seasons, but I cry sadly.
The zither resonated, but it was not a harmonious song.
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