"Sister, be careful. Yuhe, be careful.”I kept walking forward and didn't notice the bulldozer speeding in front of me. This kind of car is called the " crazy mouse " in our city. When I was in school, my brother told me to stay away from this kind of car because most drivers are tired. If they were careless and bumped into it, they could only go to heaven to be an angel. At that time, I didn't understand.
Suddenly, there was a screeching sound of brakes behind me. When I turned around, I saw Yushan and Zou Xiangyang lying in a pool of blood. They were bleeding, and the people around them were calling the police and ambulance. I looked at them and forgot my fear. I ran over and picked Yushan up, shouting desperately," Yushan, wake up! Yushan, wake up! Don't scare me! Don't scare me!" I called out to Yushan again and again.
When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital. The surroundings were eerily quiet. My mother was crying by my bed. When she saw that I had woken up, she said happily,"Silly girl, what's wrong with you? When we got the call from the police and were told to rush to the hospital, your father and I were dumbfounded. When we arrived, you and Yushan were both lying on the hospital bed. My daughter, you really made my heart ache. If something happened to you, how could you live? Your grandfather had a heart attack when he heard the news last night. He took some medicine and is much better now. I don't know how Yushan is right now.”
"Mom, how is my classmate? How is Yushan?”I held onto my mother's hand, hoping that the heavens wouldn't be so cruel. Although it was between love and affection, I wouldn't allow anything to happen to him.
"Yushan is in a coma now. The doctor said that she might be in a vegetative state. Your classmate couldn't be saved last night, and their family came to see her this morning.”Mother turned her face away. I could clearly see the tears in her eyes. So, she could cry too. So, she had tears too. I didn't know if those tears were for me.
"Why, why, God, when my love was still in swaddling clothes, you let him go just like that, so clean that he didn't even shed a single tear. Why couldn't you let him live? Why wasn't I the one who died? I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I've apologized to him thousands of times in my heart, but unfortunately, he can't hear me anymore. Why? Why?" I grabbed my hair in pain and buried my head between my legs. I didn't want my mother to see my tears. Perhaps, in her opinion, there was no need to cry for someone who wasn't worth it. However, how could I not cry when it came to him? A person who loved me, but I didn't have the time to love him, left just like that. I didn't even hear a word of forgiveness.
"Girl, girl, it's okay, it's okay. It's all in the past. What's coming will come and what's going will go. Don't be sad. She will definitely get through this. You have to hold on too. Otherwise, what do you want us to do? I know that we didn't take good care of you in the past. We love you very much.”Mom thought that I did it for Yushan. Maybe it's better this way. Maybe I can give my guilty heart some space.
"Girl, for the sake of us who love you, you must live well. For Yushan, you must be well.”Mother comforted me again. She didn't know that I was not only doing this for Yushan, but also for Zou Xiangyang, who had already gone to heaven. For a hopeless love, she had sacrificed her life.
"Mom, I want to see Yushan. I want to see her.”I looked at my mother pleadingly. Perhaps, I would only feel so comforted if I could see Yushan. After all, she's still alive. I know that no matter what, she'll be fine. Grandfather, Father, and Second Uncle would not allow anything to happen to her. I won't allow anything to happen to her either. If anything happens to her, then I'll die a thousand times, even ten thousand times, and it won't be enough. It's not for anything else, but for that little sister who has been following behind me since she was young and has worked hard to protect me.
"Are you sure you're fine? Are you sure? Let's ask the doctor." I had never seen my mother speak to me so gently. "I nodded hard to show that I'm really fine.”
However, my mother still went out to ask the doctor. I slowly got out of bed. Fate was really unfair to me! Why did the person I loved not love me, and the person who loved me left like this? Why? Was I really the source of the tragedy? Looking at the crowd coming and going outside the window, I was really envious. Why was everyone so happy while I was always living on the edge of pain? Is it because I can't enter other people's hearts, or has my heart never let anyone enter? Perhaps, I wrapped myself too tightly, or I don't know what I want at all? Love or not. There was no way to understand.
Her mother rushed in." Girl, the doctor agreed, but it can't be too long. Yushan is in the ICU now, so we can only see her through the window." Are you sure you can do it? Are you sure?" Mother wanted to confirm that I was fine again. Looking at her worried expression, I wanted to laugh but couldn't. I don't know when she, my mother, started to care so much about me. Was this still the mother who had treated me coldly since I was young? Perhaps, at this moment, her love and sympathy were overflowing.
"Mom, I'm fine. Let's go see Yushan.”I returned the favor with a reassuring smile. I knew that this smile was very ugly, but I could only do this. Whether it was her sympathy or love, I thought that I would put it all away. He placed it in a corner.
Mother helped me out of the intensive care unit. Second Uncle Mei Yongjiang stood there and shouted at the window,"Yushan, you have to wake up. You have to wake up. I'll wait for you to come home. As long as you wake up, I'll promise you anything you want.”Second Uncle's hoarse voice rang in my heart again and again. I should be the one lying inside, but now Yushan was lying inside instead.
Looking at Second Uncle in so much pain, my heart felt like it was being cut by a knife. That little sister who had saved me, that little sister who had followed me since she was young, was actually lying here now. That lively little sister of mine, it was all me, it was all me. I was a murderer. I was the one who harmed the two people who loved me the most. Why, why? Without feeling anything, I fainted again.
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