" Ding ding ding…" My phone rang. I took out my phone and looked at the caller ID."Why did this kid suddenly call me?”"Hey, you're finally willing to call me?"”The person who called was my high school buddy, Zhao Le.
" Hehe…" Zhao Le smiled honestly and said to me,""Mo Chen, I'm going to join the army."
"Soldiers?" I asked," Why do you want to join the army?"
"My uncle arranged it for me. My family also agreed to let me train in the army for two years. I'll only join the army after I retire." Nowadays, it was easier for college students to become officers. Besides, I want to go myself."
Zhao Lejia was from the countryside and had always listened to his parents. When he was admitted to university, his parents were so happy. Now that he was about to graduate, his parents wanted him to join the army! I really can't figure it out. Although Zhao Le and I didn't go to the same school, our majors were similar. In recent years, our hometown has developed quite quickly. There are construction sites everywhere. It can be said that after we graduate, we will definitely be able to find a decent job when we go home. Thinking of this, I said to Zhao Le,"Didn't you tell your parents that it's not difficult to find a job in our major? Besides, our family is now…"
"Mo Chen, I've decided. Moreover, the political trial was going to be held in a few days.”Zhao Le interrupted me," I also want to stay in the army for two years.”
When I heard that the political review was about to start, it was almost certain, so I didn't say anything else. Zhao Le thought I was angry and said to me,"Mo Chen, I understand what you mean. It's not that I don't listen to your advice. Don't be angry." I knew that he was overthinking things, so I said to him,"Brother, don't worry. I'm not angry. I just can't bear to part with her. It's almost the new year. I'm still hoping that we can get together when we go back this year! But you're going to be a soldier. When you work in the future, who knows when we'll be able to sit together.”After I said this, Zhao Le fell silent. After a while, he said,"Brother, we'll have plenty of opportunities to meet up in the future. Besides, do we still need to deepen our relationship through gatherings?”
"No need," I said.
"That's good!" Zhao Le laughed. We can get together again when I come back from my vacation!”After a pause, Zhao Le asked me worriedly,"I almost forgot. I heard that you still can't let go, right?”I knew he was referring to Luo Xiaoqi, but I didn't want my brother to worry about me.""No! Who told you that? Who am I? I've long forgotten!" Zhao Le chuckled as she listened to me finish. She didn't expose me and changed the topic."When are you graduating?"
"Come back in July next year to register your marriage. He could find a place to do his internship when he went back during the holidays.”I said," I didn't expect time to pass so quickly. In the blink of an eye, we've all graduated from university.”
"Yes, I am!" Zhao Le was reminded of the past by me." When we were in high school, we fought with others. In the blink of an eye, we're about to graduate from university. I feel like we've really grown up. Sometimes, he really wanted to go back to his high school days. The days when his brothers hung out together were really unforgettable!”
" Hehe…" I couldn't help but smile as I talked about the days when we were brothers in high school." When are you leaving?" If there's time, I want to send you off.”
"Forget it! It was probably too late. "The feeling of parting is quite uncomfortable…" Zhao Le did not continue.
I said,"Alright then! Take care of yourself. Give me a call the day you leave.”
Zhao Le nodded and didn't say anything else. The two of us fell silent.
We both know that parting doesn't feel good. Back when they were in university, they parted ways so that they could have a better future! The day before school, we got drunk in the small restaurant we often went to. Then we went back to our homes. No one said goodbye, no one said goodbye. But I know that when we came out of the small restaurant and went home, we all shed tears.
Just like in high school, Zhao Le and I ended the call without saying goodbye. As I put my phone back into my pocket, a tear fell from my eyes and landed on the ground. The white falling snow was smashed by my tears and a beautiful flower bloomed. I don't know how heavy that tear is! I only know that it bears the unspeakable reluctance to part with my brother…
The unspeakable reluctance was very heavy, and it made me feel suffocated.
I don't know what the others think, but at least I don't have the courage to bear that weight. Although I had experienced many kinds of reluctance in my young life, I still had not learned to properly release the suffocating feeling of reluctance. There were many nights when my fragile nerves would be torn by the heavy reluctance in my heart, and then I would secretly cry in the dark. When I was very young, my father, who was a soldier, taught me that a man should be strong and brave, fearless of difficulties and dangers. However, in these 20 years, I still haven't truly learned to be strong.
The reluctance to part with Luo Xiaoqi and my brother filled my mind. It was like a sponge that stretched out in my blood vessels, absorbing the weight of the blood bit by bit and then blocking my blood vessels, making me suffocate and afraid!
Alright, I admit that I'm a coward when it comes to reluctance. But I will never be a coward forever! No one would choose to be weak forever. He would eventually explode with shocking strength in silence, and then break the pattern of cowardice, breaking out of the heavy suffocation and obtaining rebirth! At that time, all the sadness, all the reluctance. She would only become an ornament in her life, not a burden…
Sometimes, thinking too much would only make one more upset. Sometimes, the more one wanted to forget something, the clearer one remembered it. These two 'sometimes' caught me up: I didn't want to recall everything about Luo Xiaoqi, but I often thought of all the memories that Luo Xiaoqi brought to me in some small things in my life. I often told myself not to think too much about Luo Xiaoqi, thinking that this would make me less sad, but it often backfired, and the sadness surged even more.
More time, I asked myself: What was the use of missing Luo Xiaoqi so much? Yesterday's happiness had gone with the wind, but today's sadness was surging like a tide. Even Qiang Zi and Yao Zi advised me many times: Such a one-sided longing would only make him uncomfortable. Why not let him go and start anew? I also know Qiang Zi and Yao Zi are right, but it's easier said than done.
After returning to the dormitory, I picked up a novel that Luo Xiaoqi had given me before from the desk…" Sorrow Flowing into a River " and casually flipped through it. A note fell out of the book and onto the ground. There was a cute Garfield on the note, which was drawn by Luo Xiaoqi. She loved cats, especially Garfield. I picked up the note and opened it. On it was Luo Xiaoqi's elegant handwriting: If you don't leave, I won't abandon you. I looked at those short words, and my vision gradually blurred. Tears unknowingly slipped out of my eyes, wetting the note. The words on it were also blurred by my tears.
Qiang Zi jumped down from the bed and patted my shoulder to comfort me. I said I was fine. Qiang Zi turned around and looked for something on the table. After a while, he held a bottle of white wine in his hand and said to me,"Come! I'll drink with you." I looked at the white wine in his hand in surprise."You…this…can this wine still be drunk?”Qiang Zi carefully looked at the date of manufacture and shelf life on the bottle and muttered uncertainly,""It shouldn't have expired! I bought it when I was a freshman…"
"Ah?" I was shocked! This was called not expired? She bought it when she was a freshman, and now she was a junior! Qiang Zi saw my surprised expression and immediately laughed out loud."Don't worry! It's alright! This wine, the longer it was placed, the more fragrant it would be! It's fine!" After saying that, he unscrewed the cap and poured two cups of wine. He placed one cup in front of me. For a moment, the room was filled with the rich fragrance of wine.
I picked up the paper cup and took a deep sniff of the wine."Very fragrant." After taking a sip, the spicy white wine fell into his stomach like a burning ball of fire. I frowned.”Qiang Zi picked up the paper cup and took a sip of wine. He smacked his lips and said,"I think it's not bad!" I pushed my glass of wine in front of Qiang Zi."Then I'll give you this cup too." Qiang Zi had a regretful expression of "you don't know what's good" on his face as he drank alone. I sat at the side and watched him drink.
After a few drinks, Qiang Zi started to talk more."Xiao Mo, let me ask you something."
I leaned back to avoid the smell of alcohol in his mouth as much as possible."Speak. What is it?"
"What do you think of her now?”
Qiang Zi's question made me unable to figure out what he meant. I didn't know how to answer him. Qiang Zi saw the confusion on my face and asked again,"I mean, how do you feel about Luo Xiaoqi now?”I opened my mouth but couldn't say anything. After thinking for a long time, I said to Qiang Zi,"Actually, I don't know how I feel about her either. " Because I can't tell whether I love her or…" I stopped because I couldn't think of a more appropriate word to continue.
"I'm sorry!" Qiang Zi suddenly said," Right?”
Sorry? I looked at Qiang Zi and carefully pondered over that "sorry". Sorry was really appropriate. Maybe Qiang Zi was right! I can't tell if my feelings for Luo Xiaoqi are love or…I'm sorry! Perhaps he would feel more apologetic. Love, on the other hand, was fading day by day, slowly disappearing with the wind as time passed.
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